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MOVED~

2006-06-13T20:21:00.000+08:00

I HAVE MOVED!

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u fucking bitch!

2006-06-07T23:29:00.000+08:00

well went out to plaza sing today with my brother to watch x-men 3 jus me n him! haha! kinda funny! family day out! the show was fantastic! i swear! i cried when professor X died! it was the saddest point! hahah! overall was DAM NICE! :) met uo with SHA! my lovely cousin oh we talked alot! and our frens are so connected! haha! thrub this n dat which band n so on! :) well talk abt our life and ya! secrets! AT CITY HALL saw uncle vincent n aunty tina! her parents to take money! car-ed to far east no wait! wen to some burger king ate french fries n oinion rings all sha!dan walked to far east to meet my sister! hahah! she made us go all the way to paragon to change some item? ahah! mad women! walked to far east again shop abit n off we wen walkin ard town! haha! had to talk to sha! i miss her! yes off i wen home

things arent the way it seems well firstly u said i was ungrateful! like fuck you! like fucking wat did i do? please lar i am jus a gal! a 15 years old kid! i am fucking bearing all those notes u sing! really i try really hard to graspe those notes! pls pls! stop! i need time! i am UNGREATFUL! YES SHUT UP I AM LA I AM LARR! so wat? u made feel this way ! all u ever thot of was jus ur fucking son in whom u jus pamper the shit hell out of him that he jus climbd all over ur head n yes when he does u scold me for teaching him? fuck u u stupid bitch!even daddy cant stand u at times? why? ask yourself! u made me feel like i was adopted u fool u are such a FOOL! really to trust u had faith in GOD! u read those books! does it even help? HUH HUH!!!! DOES ITTTTT! no i dun think sooo! NOT AT ALL I GUESS u BLAME MY LIFE FOR EVERY FUCKING THING THAT HAPPENSSS OH YESS I KNOWWW VERY WELL!

kisses

2006-06-07T12:38:00.000+08:00

i LOVE THIS PICTURES

I AM LIVING IN MEMORIES!

I LOVE THEM ALL!

hey things have been great! i read ur words i read those lines mostly i am confused! at night i still wonder how i'd felt different! at night sometimes i thot abt wat went wrong. okay now i am here to say sorry! well i hope things turn out otherwise n wish for the best! i doubt i will start the conversation!

i miss hyaz! HYACINTH! hello hello faster get on the plane to singapore! i feel really lonely without you! HAHAH! i miss you!
see the colour!!! i am so bored!! BUT U WHEN u return i will be so HAPPY! :) i cant wait! love u to the core GIRLFREN!

the pictures:
first one: waterfall DUHH! at botanical gardens! HAHAH! such magnificant!
second one: jus me n mel in J8 toilet! man! we took that??i look terrible! jus came form SCHOOOLL!!!
third one:oh oh apes birthday! kinda long ago! but i love it! me mel hyaz apes!
forth one: i kiss sam sam kiss hyaz hyaz takes the pic! at my HOUSE!
fifth one: mel's BAG! i love it!! strips!
sixth one: one of J8's nicest quietest toilet! scandolous moments with my girlfren! hahaa!
seventh one: well well in J8 toilet! i looked messed up mel's got the shot hyaz plays cool! which she is! HAH! made up!
the last one: it ME! okay mad lar! mel took that! CRAZY BABES!

hi bye

2006-06-03T20:04:00.000+08:00

JUS SHUT THE FUCK UP!
really shut up u paranoia!!

WELLLLLL.. read this!

SORRY FOR WHO U ARE
SORRY FOR WHO U ARE NOT
SORRY THAT U DUN THINK STRAIGHT
SORRY YOU ARE MAD
SORRY U MADE ME MAD
SORRY FOR A WHILE I THOT U WERE ANGEL
SORRY U ARE NOT!!
SORRY I AM NOT SORRY AT ALL!!

that day! I SMILED!

2006-06-02T23:08:00.000+08:00

lets get it started!

"AMEN.. PRAISE THE LORD
AMEN.. PRAISE THE LORD
GLORY ALLELUIA.
PRAISE THE LORD
WE GONNA JUMP UP
TURN ARD N TOUCH THE GROUND"

oh i miss CHILDREN'S DRAMA WORKSHOP!
those kids they me smile n frown but still! i felt like i relived my childhood days! such a wonderful feeling! really! let me name one by one all my beautiful kids! -E-Zac, Charlotte, Gywneath, Eden, Augusta, Augustus, Brandon, Joel, Benedict, Althea(she cries cos she misses her angels! that's US!),Gabriel, Immanuel, Angelica, Janelle- these are all my kids! GROUP 1 the BIGGEST SMALLEST NOSIEST BESTEST! AHH i love them! noe the angels - MELISSA SAMANTHA BEVERLEY REGGIE LOUIS JILL JOYCE GERRI JAMES BRIAN REGINA- hahah yes! that's TOG! wonderful aint it! sammy n me did the theme song dance which we thot the kids would hate it! BUTTT dey loved it especially TIMMY! hahah!
oh other kids - TIMOTHY RACHEL BRYAN(my insipirational talkers! for WHO knows wat reasons! they love sayin wat i say!)FABAIN SARAH KYRA DOMINIQUE MAGDELINE KELVIN ASHLEY hahah! I MISS THEM SO! "who is the king og the jungel" "amen'' ''pharoah pharoah'' ''jesus is the rock'' cute ppl! oh n mission baa-baa pls it is more with the eyes! haha!

oh today went out with mella sam n nick lee! not really i was lost on the to his house so i didn go to his house how sad.. i mean sry lar u gave me wrong directions! HAHAH! blah blah! went to j8 yes yes! ate mos burger than homed! ran 5km for self training! OH MINE! i hvae 60 suicides to do! go regina! preservatives?? anyone?

yesterday!! HAHA! FUN! wen out with SAM MEL n FRANCIS! FRANCIS WAS OUR PIMP in FAR EAST! hahah! wat a cute fella! for a moment i thot all my efforts had gone down the drain! REALLY u scared the shit hell out of me! realyy wen to BOON! haha! oh yaa many thing happen bought a top! n never ever go shoppin with francis he will jus dress u up like a CLOWN! he was making me buy brown tops dat were errr FUNNY LOOKIN n he wanted to buy a gal's shirt! SHUT U TIGHT ASS FREN! haha! MEL N SAM! i love them! hahaha! I MISS HYAZ!! A CRY OUT TO HER! HAYZZZZZZ!

stay with me!
this is the last evolution
the is the final trace of inner self
if i am caught in the middle
i know it will be the last evolution!

the truth

2006-05-23T14:04:00.000+08:00

IF U REALLY WANNA KNOW WAT IS GOIN ON YOU WOULD HAVEA CALLED! I HATE EVERY BIT OF YOU! U ARE SUCH A JERK! I AM NOT SORRY FOR ANYTHING!

STOLE IT

I AM BRUISED!

LEAVE IT

I WILL CRUISE!

GOODBYE

ITS THE END OF YOU!

a hypothesis!

2006-05-22T23:23:00.000+08:00

okay let me rumble over the things that had passed! apparently i am jus too paranoid with everything that goes in on n out of this world! sometimes i am glad that we ppl may die one day! oh how happy it would be when there is no more YOU! my sorrows would jus disappear! BE GONE!

sunday: cat class outing went to BOTANICAL GARDENS this was where we bonded with other classes! hmm play NETBALL or CAPTAIN's BALL or RUN THE BALL actually i dun know. it seems rathee funny cos all those BOYS kept jumpin on the gals instead of the ground do we look dat small?? HELLO! open ur eyes! thanks to BEN NICK n SEAn i have a BRUSIED SHOULDER! its aching! mann this is so bad! but it was fun some of the other guys played soccer! it was more of a SPORT's DAT out healthy lifestyle! but dressed up in skirt it was hard to jump pardon me! :) it started to pour! ohhh FUN's OVER let go ppl to the bus! haha! journey back to church! hah! and that is when it all started! LIKE er NO! pls pls jus get it off my head mind life! it hurts like deep down where i jus see myself at satan's feet scrubing n polishing his FORK n FEET! ohhhhhh!! i feel so depressed so annoyed dun ASK WHY! STOP! shut up! when will u ever learn?

i have waited so long for the day and when it is fianlly ariving it jus vanishes! i mean! i beg of u! u said yes n now NO! cmon! i am not some SLAVE where by with a sanp of ur fingers i am dere to change my life!! FUCK U! i am jus so irritated! i could not bear to look at YOUs! man! cmon! i really hate the way u talk! u talk as if nothing is happening do know how dat feels?? u fickle-minded asshole! u are jus not as true as i once n always thought! how could one imagine havin u as a **! pls pls take a mirror! FORGET IT! u make me sick!

now now as tiime passed! all those days of talkin n chatting nothing good came out of it! ur eyes were the ones that gave it away! ur eyes are part of u! so dun crap with me sayin dat u didn do anything cos seriously i aint gonna brief or utter word wat u fucking did! i guess u wre a player! a BIG TIMER! FUCK OFF! really! if u meant every word u said dan i guess even if there is someone hotter u would jus think its a fool! i am so sick of everything u said to me! its jus so ridiculous! enough is enough! i dun wanna walk with my head down! i love my pride n becos of u i think it had be swallowed! PLS JUS GET A LIFE! ohh u do! hah! forgotten! u're the one i knew who have the biggest heart yet u spread ur love like water! its almost everyday u talked abt *** pls pls! AM I INVISBLE? wat! GET LOST FUCK OFF!

in my eyes u are the biggest asshole! i will pass these thoughts as my life go on! never will i beleve every word u say! ever since that day this day! NO MORE! SILENT TREATMENT! i wonder far and wide! u are not the only one! i dun wanna waste my time life on u!

i am so sick of everything that u asked or gave
jus take it back! i dun wan any!
the things u did were so scandolous!
i love playin hard to get!
i'll jus turn u off!
i'll dance with every guy i know!
i will u jealous n make u feel the pain!
i am a asaddist!
the colours represent my resentment towards u!

the day!

2006-05-12T12:12:00.000+08:00

HEY HEY!

well exams are over now is after exam stress RESULTS! oh heavenly host! i already failed a subject!
DAM!
i am bloody *&^%$# up! this mid-year is really crap i got to BUCK UP!
BESDIES wat good is my heart when i am always so calm abt it!
croc tears
lay it all back!
i am better off with a plain field
neither this nor that!

anyways before exams ended i went out with HYAZ to her family's bbq!!
it was fun! nowadays i have been goin gardens very often! with HYAZ n AMIN or either FRANCIS!
ohh de last wen i went there was this cute lil american gal! i think 4 years old or so! haha she was diggin amin! hahah!amin is so lucky but AMIN is erm GAY! haahahahAH! whoopps! dan it was quite funny he wen up to the gal is said HELLO! hahahahah! the gal BLUSHEDDDDDD! ohhh hyaz n i was laughin like crazy! i bet the whole of gardens could have heard us! goodness! ohh ohh dan hyaz n i saw u CUTE HANDSOME YOUNG ANMERICAN guy! WHOOOOSHHH! his EYES oh mine he stole our hearts away! i sound so wrong hahah! what the hell! sry arh! but he is too gorgeous! SNAP OUT OF IT! oh yes yes! dan we left early as we saw hyaz n amin's frens who were kinda wweird dey didn wanna sit down! hahah! who knows! so dey left we left! haha! i went home n hyaz came along! haha! she's my babe!

out-- peace

dance floor we dun give a dam!
POP dat music!
dance floor is tight!
get it all on!
move it all down!
drive me crazy!
ur body's got me moving
bangs n hangs
get ur freak on
do wat u wan!
pressea!

heavenly sensation

2006-05-06T12:10:00.000+08:00

hurray!! there is only geography n math pp2 to go! boy i cant wait! haha! tuesday tuesday where dere will be no more stress! HEHEH! PLAY PARTY i'll go wild! it seems like the end! but its not! time is flyin past very fast! SO FAST DAT WITH one blink i am in sec 4! goodness crazy! well i cant wait for 9 may! okie dat is also phyllis's birthday! haha wow! miracles!but really i wanna go back n sleep i cant stand those pimples!! EWWWWWW. yucks! sleep sleep sleep dan play play! 10may i dun need to go to schoolll ahahahah lalala shake ur body break it down! all those history ppl have to go back!! ha weez... lame. oh ya.. i wanna go to MOS but but how i think my parents dun a ALLOW! WTH! i wanna go if i go i think i have to be back like errr 12!! IDIOTS! why whywhyyyyyyy????????????????? :(:(:( i miss goin out shoppin playin n talkin n al sorts with my babes! N HYAZ! oh oh oh YESTERDAY!! i wen put with HYAZ to her family's party something like dat! hah! it was awkward at first but later it was er FUN FUNFUN! kids started to chase us everywhere! those lil cutie pies! pretty gals n handsome yound guys it was collin's bday! a small lil kid! DUHH! hahah n we played with one of the cutest n handsome kid! a guy duhh! haha! balloon? n dan chasing! hahah! fun! i felt so kiddish! hyaz n i was perspiring like mad! haha! dey were runnning fast my jeasn kept sticking on to me! alamak! HARDWALK!

okie okie i gtg!
STUDY!
JUS TWO MORE
AND I AM DONE!
CHINESE IS SCREWED!!!
DAT'S FOR SURE!!

2006-04-28T19:09:00.000+08:00

it been days since i updated! WELL! b2d hollaback crew finals we came in THIRD oh wells we did our BEST! hahah! CHEERS b2d! LOVE U GUYS LOADS! GOOD LUCK ADIL IN SINGAPORE GO BOY! hah! miss u guys too!! school SCHOOL??? EXAMS?? wat!! GO N STUDY REGINA! U ARE BEHIND TIME! NO NO NO TIME TIME! FREAK IT!

bYE BYE MY frens!

its over

2006-04-10T17:33:00.000+08:00

FINALLY THIS DAY HAS COME! ALL PROJECTS ARE DUED AND ALL ARE IN! YAY!!!!! I AM LIKE RELIEVED! :):) I LOVE MY BABES N THE PPL IN CHURCH! ITS THE HOLE WEEK AND WE"LL BE PERFORMING AT CAT HIGH AND ST GAB'S WOW ON MY BIRTHDAY TOO??? NOOO!! hahah! OH WELLSS! NO CHOICE! GOOD FRIDAY AND DANNNN.... HOLLABACK FINALS!! WOW!! SCARY! HAVE NOT GONE FOR PRACTIVE AT ALL! SHHS! LEARN FAST REGINA!
BYE BYE!
I LOVE KOR N JOSSY N MY BABES!

jus you and me!

2006-03-20T19:39:00.000+08:00

jus her n me
the hollaback gals! ne n na
mella n me!

hyaz n mella!
sammy n me!
replicas!

these are all my babes n of cos dere is BEL! haha! yes yes! oh one day without them jus tears my world into shreds! oh gosh!

lately i've not been updating due to all those busy tight activities! one after another! boy i dun think much of my own fantasy! WELL here is my answer cos i'm spending my time with HYAZ SAM BEL MEL hah! yes! n TOG otherwise its my FAMILY! haha! Ahh seee! its good both ways..

during the holidays!

monday: SL project wen to Mcritche! haha! working wiht kiddos! n later TOG to EAST COAST PARK! aprielle;s birthday! late at night!

tuesdayy: TOG dramaworkshop! and aftre dat visit my grand for

reasons!

wednesday: TOG dramaworkshop!

thursday: oh! project at yanyee's place with joanna tan n yanyee's brother he is sooo cuteee! hahha! NICOLAS!

firday: ohhh wen to CTK for rehearsal! haha! passion play! yup yup! :) dan chilled at teh coffeshop with joseph till late! haha jus talkin!

saturday:tuition in the morning n hed down to CTK for rehearsal nmeeting but left early dad came to visit my grandma! at east coast park! BIKED!

sunday:church with my babes! n rehearsal n dan out with family n in the evening BADMINTON! haaa! so fun! ::) sweats!

dat's all! :) HAPPY BIRTHDAY SAM DEARIE!

when things go wrong

i turn for u

when things brightens

i turn for u

when i am down

i turn for u

when i am in need of a leaning shoulder

i turn for u!

I MISS YOU HYAZ!

you raise me up so i can stand on moutnain

u raise me up to walk on stormy seas

i am strong when i am on ur shoulder

u raise me too more i can be

I MSS YOU!

2006-03-02T22:38:00.000+08:00

five babes forever!
the junkies!
jus me n sam! ash wednesday!
i miss my 5 babes! its been days since we met! oh gosh! however so i am seein u tml!

ASH WEDNESDAY! hahaa met sammy for mass! YAY! i SAW MY BABE! :):) i love her so! oh we saw many things and laughing! oh gosh i love SAMMY! dan we saw TOG hahaha YEA! so funny n isabel's brother ohh he is soo cute i cannot take it this is great lar! oh me n sammy took sum photos of ourselves! and of cos tog messed up my camera! GOODNESS! irritated all so blur! ROAR! let me take in peace! haha sammy's daddy drove me home n surprisingly her mummy knows where u stay! oh lalal! this is amazing! :):) i love church!

a kiss from a rose!

2006-02-22T18:48:00.000+08:00

the coffee shop gang JUNKIES!

SAMY DARLING!BEVERLEY SWEETIE

MELLA DEARIE!

HYAZ REPLICA HONEY!

ME ME!! hahah!

these are my lil few besties in the world!! how wonderful life is wen u're in the world!!!

these are wonderful memories!! teh JUNKIES ROCKS! YAY!! :)

i love them all!

when i fall down i have to pick myself back up!!!!

i was built to be the best

number.1

and nothing less

lead me to my destiny

i have waited patiently

i have vision oh i believe

oh i know i can count on me!

2006-02-18T23:06:00.000+08:00

vains... a mirros image! we brave the camera's flash!

a point to our memories together!
these are our bandid hands

I LOVE THEM ALL!

long time no blog! hahah! today was the best day oin this whole month i swear! its the greatest day GOD has ever gave me! i really love CHURCH WITH ALL OF MY SOUL EVERY BREATHE I TAKE! i guess its the frens i have! i REALLY HATE SCHOOL! i jus dun get myself! everything is so freakin differnent in school! i feel so different! its a total stranger to me! everyday i go to school with a reminicing thought on my mind! its always the same feeling! " oh its school another day to lose every happiness i get from the weekend n gain every sorrowful memories dat has happpened!" i jus cannot wait for every THURSDAYS FRIDAYS N WEEKENDS! its the days where i get to see my BESTIES! n TOG! YES!! let me name all my lil wonder ppl! HYACINTH(REPLICA) SAMANTHA(WIFE) MELISSA(MELMEL) BEVERLEY(BELLY) REGINALD(BIG BRO) JILLIAN(JILL) LOUIS(GAY) APRIELLE(GOTH) TERRENCE(BOSS) MARK(MAMA) BRAIN(NICEMAN) JOANNE(THE GAL)(TOG) now all my HAPPY PPL MELYVIN(the junkies boyfren) GABRIEL(korkor) JOSEPH(uncle) IGGYKOH GERRI IGGY(bro) JUSTIN(small fry) GARY(lil innnocent) CHRIS(rich dick) FRANCIS(silly) NICKLEE JOWERL ISABEL(pretty) SEAN(extra) LYDIA NICOLE etc i cant think! hahah!

today had youth mass! oh GOSH! it was the best i am telling u were doin all sorts of things! dancin during praise n worship even though the place was limited! but still we tog manage to dig some joy n praise the LORD! hahah! hyaz mel sam n me were wardens! YES! collecting money n ushering ppl for their turn to receive the communion! hahah! :) GREAT! hahah! it was really fun! i mean wat more do u wan in jus enjoyin praisin lord with your CLOSEST FRENS EVER! whom u share your joy n sorrow with! teh five of us wen up to teh altar to pray dat we'll always be frens forever n we mean FOREVER! haha! dan me n reggie had our moments together be4 the altar too! n later it was the whole grp TOG! prayin together as one FAMILY as louis says! TOG IS A FAMILY! haha yes! be4 youth mass tog had our filming for teis guy on his projest the stations of the cross! played a role of VIRGIN MARY! cryin n feeling devastated over jesus's death! OH TEARS! haha n how tog made fun of me during rehearsals! ARHHHH! smash! hahah! okie it was funny but i jus couldnt control.. it jus came out! hhahaha! LAUGH LAUGH! its a memory yay!:):) fun times! the filiming was great i suppose! everyone was down n melyvin to the light man! hahah! :) kinda cool today! hahah! pratically today everything went well it was not rainin! for these i thank GOD! hahah! i jus cant bear to leave church! my second home for i dun regard ny sch as a second home... sry.. but its a total stranger to me! even my frens i jus dun seek fun joy n laughters dat i use to! even my class.. except for those new frens i've made! hahah! alrite as it seems!

little did i know

the luminous fire

was a form of joy.

is dat logic?

wat am i saying?

things appear in shadows

leaving many curious frowns.

vulnerable i lay my thots is those misty clouds.

i am jus being paranoid arent i?

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tomorrow morning if u wake n the sun does not appear

i will be here.

if in the darkness we lose sight of love hold my hands n have no fear

cos i will be here

i will be here

wen u feel like being quiet

wen u need to speak your mind n i will listen

i will be here

wen the laughter turns to crying through the winning n losing we will be together ..

cos i will be here

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upset n deprived

2006-01-21T16:59:00.000+08:00

holalal!! sch is over the weekends are here! huraay! okie sch is so unpredictable! i am serious! so many in prom to test n all! oh palease! test test! cmon! my mind is fed-up! fagged-up with all the work given late nights! crazy me i guess but it seems dat my frens too are suffering like i am! hmm something is wrong! sch is a lil streesful! yes yes! no doubt abt! i pray dat the five us dun suffer too much! it jus pains me to see them all tired out! HYAZ my replica MEL mella SAM my Wife n BEVE the belly! oh oh!! n ME! forever us alrite!

THURSDAY WAS FUN! i mean finally i get to see them! OH MINE i JUS LOVE THEM SOO! it may seem like i am lesbian but we are not neither am i! its jus dat CHURCH frens are more OPEN dan sch frens! yea! its totally diff in SCH really! i cant live without them!! i will take a MILLION BULLETS to save them! yes yes!! plus my family too! n THE CLASSICS! oh no i haven forgetten abt them! yes! i love them soo!! but i guess now we have our own lives again! wth!! i mean !! pls pls! dun go! we will miss u! i will miss u too! THE CLAASSICS JUS ROCKS LAR! i love my church frens! HYAZ SAM MEL BEVE! oh how wonderful dey are to me! i cant leave them! not a day or two! evil is in me! let go of me i wanna be wanna be with them..

i had so much fun during COG! yes yes! i wish for the old times again! where we were playin in st mary's room! the so called stage in RCIA room! hahah it was so fun! the room 305! UH HUH..memorise are flowing in my head again!

" i'm falling into memorises of u

things we use to do..

follow me there.

a beautiful somewhere

a place that i can share

with you!"

this song is dedicated to THE CLASSICS yes yes!! n BEVE too! and another sum1 out dere! maybe it aint jus wat it seems! sry for all those harsh times.. i have not change i jus dun u to regret. pls forgive me.. the memorises are kept within a special place rite in my heart! always dere..i am missing u n still lovin u!

jail birds

i am stirred

venges kills

now i am ill

heaven is angelic

hell is satanic

villan escapes

and i am CAUGHT!

cant u see.

u are the villan

i the jail bird.

explain ur excuses

for i am done with forgivness

love is more than words

yet i let it in with chords.

missing ur every move

loving ur every smile.

a jail bird

that's me.

to another sum1: oh *****.. u have change. the way u talk n look at us! wat is goin on!! wat is goin through ya mind! arent we more then enuf for u to be happy to always draw a smile on ya face! wat is wrong!! i beg of u to leave wat u are doin now n jus come back to us!! how i miss the old u! oh think abt how much pain u have caused us! maybe u wouldn' noe cos we jus hide all our pains n bury all our grudges against u! we love u too much jus to leave u alone... i will give my everything for u come back! oh pls... jus leave that place!

friday: okie in stead of goin to charismatic! we wen to joel's house! cos we too late for the service! uh huh! too bad i guess! sry! LORD forgive us for not hearin ur word!! but TGIF! THANK GOD ITS FRDAY! haha! :):) JOEL's room was pretty neat! actually very neat! i didnt noe guys would have neat rooms! oh i guess i made a mistake! hahah! nvm.. friday is the day my head started out like crap during chem lessons it was already killin me! oh mine chem is BORING! whoopps but it is! i am startinh to dread chem lessons! yes yes! :):) but its beyond my imagination! oh ya we had to write this common wealth thing for compo! grr its coutned for CA dam it! a THOUSAND words!! that's NUTS! but while i am writin i hava to thank HYAZ my replica! my twinnie!! i love her soo! n also not forgetting my big big bro! GABRIEL! haha! yes yes! him! THANK YOU! :):) LOVE U MUCH too.

THY KINGDOM COME

THY WILL BE DONE!

camp.. sec 3 service learning

2006-01-14T12:25:00.000+08:00

back from the "not so fun" camp! i am finally sec 3 i cant believe it!! i jus dun feel like i am one! hahah! :) anyways its camp!

first day:
it was tiring carin our mammoth bags to sch n to the camp site! even though my bag wasnt dat big as i descirbed it but some of my frens did carried it lar!! okie nvm! the bizzare thing was dat my class was sleepin in a tree hut! but the way! the camp was held in SPARKc! yes some of u may have heard it be4.. better still camp-ed dere be4! hah! lame! teh hall was alrite! oh ya!! who was in my grp ----> jamie clara sivitria aka tria tria maggie cheryl jaslyn devon n lastly ME! yea! we had our cheeerrr lets hear it!

HEY...~~ HEY -class-

FAITH...~~ FAITH -class-

HEY~~HEY-class-

FAITH~~FAITH -class-

HEY FAITH HEY FAITH -everyone-

3 FAITH!

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we are sec 3 faith

we are no. 1

we are sec 3 faith

we are no. 1

we are WATCHIN U!

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dun u jus love it!3 FAITH ROCK! it was our turn to do service learning!! a place where u learn how to serve n learn at the same time! a talk conducted by lily! dan off we wen to this uncle's house in TP haha! yea! hje was BLIND i am proud to say he is a STRONG GUY!!! yes! even thoug blind his house was clean n eveything was so organised.. old yet young at mind!!

oh mine F4 my grp was shocked n wasnt prepared for teh BETTER? hahah! yea so we clean his house!! i swept n mop the floor! yes! clara was my partner durinn cleanin tria tria was the dustpan holder jamie the other sweeper maggie n cheryl the wiper jaslyn n devon?? the toilet cleaners! hahahahha! :) whhooopppps!he is a christain! oh ya he has been livin in tp for 20 over years! dat's freakin long!! n hatched on 22 april close to mine! hahah! it was fun! on teh way to the house n back home!! we were jus crackin the whole class up! with our stupendous british essencE! haha! hear us speak! haa!

back at the camp! BATH n DINNER night activities n SLEEP!! oh mine!! BEDTIME was teh CRACKIEST of dem all! me n clara n jamie jus could not stop LAUGHIN!! i was jus sayin stupid stufff n speakin diff n all!! dam FUNNY YANYEE n STEPH had a HARD time SLEEPIN! so did TRIA TRIA my sleepin partner! next to me! i cant stop disturbin tria tria!! she is sooo PRINCESSY! cant PEEL BANANAS! hahahah!!! the whole class was laughin at her! hahah!! it was soo fun! makin fun of the way tria tria sleepppssss hahhha tie her legs up in the air! hahah!lalalalala... zzzzzzz

2nd day:

our turn to do adventure! hahah!! BUUUTTTTTTTT no!! it was RAININ like SHIT! dam it!! wat on earth is this!! this is CRAZy our camp aint fun at all!! we were doi silly games! i was so angru n so was everyone elsEee! wat the geezz is this! nvm!! CAMPFIRE!! the only miraculous thing dat happened!! it stop rainin jus mins be4 campfire! everyone was preparin for it! my class the dancer the singer n cheerers! i was dancin n the finale wass me singin with a mic!! while the class sings the echo n whole thing again wat the hell!! i was so nervous forogtten the the tune! DAM IT! hahah!! but 3 faith was remarkable! hahah! :):) lovin it! everyone performed!hhaha! oh ya! every meal time me yanyee jamie will eat fast n ruch to wash teh whole class plates so we can go BATH!! teh KIASU PPL EVER!! look at us GO! u wint believe it!! hahah! but we had our benefits! hahah! lalalala!!

time for the winners!!

3rd runner up : 3 GRACE!

2nd runner up: 3 FAITH!!!! YAY!!!! dat's us! cheerrrss!

winner: 3 ENDURANCE hahah!

look!! 3E 3F 3G in order! greatest ever! hahah!

CAMPFIRE was the best of it all!!! i had so much fun dere n lost my voice dere too! it was GREAT! JAMIE n YEWLENG n I was tryin hard to get the class in their SPIRITS so we jus stood up n dance! hahah! JAMIE DANCIN is a funny thing.. but it was fun! later we had NETBALLERS UNTIE! haha!! our NETBALL WHGOOSSSSHHH!! THE NETBALL HUG! it was FUN!

sleepin time!!

last day:

YES finally!! guess wat! in teh middle of the night! a gal wen MISSIN everyone was wakened jus cos of her! wat ^*&* i wanna SLEEP ARH! its like so early!! my whole class was DARN CRANKY okie maybe not whole jus me perhaps! hahah! the florr was wet and as instructed we had to sit on the floor! dam it!! i hate it! wen back to sleep after all THAT! idiot!

woke up not long after! it was so cold!! f4n3 wen to ladies to washup!!! hahah! at last i cant wait to go bacK! i have been dyin to go back!! HOME!! we played the ECOSYSTEM! dam it! it was a WALKIN GAME!! freak me n yanyee were walkin as fast as we could! hahah! we got so SICK! grrrrrr! dam it!

at LAST HOME! shant say more!!

at nite dere is CHARICMATIC!! YAY!!! SAM MEL HYAZ agaiN! i miss them sooo!

today: trainin n church TOG meetin! NORTH ZONES is drawin near!

wah :)

2006-01-08T14:47:00.000+08:00

life hasnt always been easy for me so far!! taken so many setback news! oh gawd! my life is GREAT not!! :)

yesterday: a saturday! okie okie! i woke up at like hmmm wat time? 12 plua! late!i was tired! the nite be4 had charismatic! hahah kinda fun lar i guess! alrite had a late lunch n beve msged me to come earlier for TOG meetin! haha!! shsh secret! :) so i did but but i was 15 mins late! ahah! and guess who i saw! FRANCIS? didn he have tuition! tsk tsk dat fella! he was goin mad! really mad! wat is he up to? "TAHAN YOUR FACE ARH!! TAHAN!!" hahaha dat was wat he said! n "NI GUI POO POO JIN" did i spell dat correctly?? it was so funny lar! n beve n aprielle was tryin to follow him the whole day as in only the lines lar! crazy ppl! lapis was takin photos of him so STRESSED! u shold see it! his face looked CONSTIPATED! HAHAH! :)

okie off we wen for TOG meeting! yay!! 303 room! mel followed by hyaz n finally sam came! :) we had fun in the room! even though we had to share abt something!! crazy!! LAPIS was goin mad!! i dun noe y!! first he acted like some baby boy!! chewin on his chewin gum oh wait later his gum fell out from his MOUTH!! oh my GAWD!!! i saw dat so did mark! he kept brin his gum in n out of his mouth!! ewww!! GROSS! everyone saw dat! alamak! hahahahah! funny!! o ya the room was SO COLD!! jacket not enuf! hahah! poor sam hyaz mel no jacket! :( hahha! but we SURVIVED!! okie back to meetin!!! alrite something happened to REGI's PANTS! wah ahahahahah!! hs ZIPPER BROKE!! REALLY It did!! hahahahahahah!! he had to cover it with his file n plastic bag all!! hahahah!!! lpais asked y did he tucked in his shirt regi said safety reason!! hahah!! aprielle dan added safe wat? hahahahahahah!! oh gawd!!! tsk tsk see lar!

mel sam hyaz n me was like laughin and all! eatin the oat meal bar! it was so nice cookies n cream i wanna go get it! n eat it!! SHIOK! hahah!! lapis was jealous! i dun wanna say more it was fun lar! even though something happened wen terence suddenly shouted!!! SCARY we thot he was jokin! er but NO! beve was sicked of bein a treasurer! she wanna step down!n everyone made fun of it! but but she really meant it!

after tog wen to coffee shop!! hoo hoo met joseph melvin senior nick iggy koh james(campmate) i cant rmb who already! oh ya gerald! yup i guess dat's it! heehee! had tosai egg lar! rest had mee pok i didn wanna eat dat cos i got a party later!! RUSSEL's BIRTHDAY! oh my baby boy brthday! he is so cute! hahha! at the coffeshop!! it was fun! i thank everyone who waited with me for my dad to come! haha! it was fun lar! jus laughin n lookin back at the fun tims we had! heehee! dun ya think its great to have frens like tog n beve hyaz sam n mel! ???? dun ya think so? hhha!!

in the car my sister was fndin fault in me lar!! we were screamin at each other! wat did i do lar? PMS! wat a FOOL! IDIOT! my father whouted n asked us to SHUT UP! er wateva! at my uncle's house!! it was alrite!! playin with russel all! hahahah!! so funny lar! he was oh my dream baby!! he is so adorable!! very playful n cheeky!! hahhahaha!! naughty bumbum :):) he had so much fun! HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO RUSSEL HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO HIMmmm... HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU!!!! HAPPY BIRTHDAY DARLIN!! i would like to wish my GODBROTHERS HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY TOO!!! hahahah!!! oh wonderful ppl! hahah! :)

stayed at their house until like er 4 plus plus!! wah so late! i was lik " hello tml dere is MASS!! can we like go home!! we need to sleep knowin us we wont get up in time!!!! wah the hell!!" " CAN WE GO HOME!! i wanna go MASS!! the earlier one!" my family was playin cards! i played a few rounds it was fun! hhahaha! :) haiz!! while dey play!! we WATCHED KINGKONG!! wah lau1 i jus found out human beings are so cruel to animals!are dey blind?? cant dey see a woman with him!?? FREAK lar! KINGKONG IS so nice!! GIVE HIM A BREAK ALREADY! haiz!

today: SUNDAY! eveything started like SHIT!! i mean it!!! i dunnwanna say it but yea!! oh gawd!!! a way to start the day!!! grrrrrr.... i miss my chuirch frens!!! i didn go for mass!! my mum didn allow n it was rainin heavily!!!!!!

rain!

2006-01-05T19:34:00.000+08:00

hahah!! hoohooo!! back agaiN!

okie okie! sch is BORIN! i mean with my frens of cos not!
BORIN as in all the TALKS n ALL! my BUTT is so NUMB!! sittin down for ages gives u a backache cos u are like hunchin!! sittin uprite is so strenous! hahah!! so ya!! i practically FALL ASLEEP every HALL session! wahh talk abt groomin cca n all!! wahh!! DYIN!! pls have mercy! my ft n co-ft are alrite! hahah!! yea! today was funnny lar! doin the cheer n all!! it was so funny but i felt i was talk to a wall thanks to SHIHUA aka REGINA no.2 hello ppl she is the FAKE one!! i am ORIGINAL! hahah!! yea yea!! lalalL!! :):) 3 faith rock on!

today! met sam mel n HYAZ my BABE i missed her so n also ben!yea i jus only got to noe him like a fren! hahah! :):) CHURCH! it was fun! :):)

okie OUTS!

d n d!

2006-01-03T16:35:00.000+08:00

wah lalal! hoohooo! okie lets start with CTK dinner n dance!!! deca jamboree! is dat correct? haha! :) oh ya! first met with sam n mel! the 3 of us! hah! oki i was late! cos i was rushin to find a skirt for lydia! yea yea!! isnt dat cool! now one for mel one for lydia n last but not least one for me! heehee! :):) i was callin mel! but she didn pick up n dan i saw sam n mel walkin to the toliet i rushed to them! hah! yea yea! :):) we ate at LJS! as usual! our eatin place! it was fun lar! laughin all! sam bought her new shoes! :) how cool!

trained down to suntec! okie in the train!!! wahh i was so embarrased! really i am! ppl came off the seat so i thot y not sit down!! i grab all the stuff n guess wat older ppl jus sat down!! i look at them n look back at sam n mel!! dey started to laugh! i had a good intention! goondess! berserkly off! mad ppl! :)okie reached citthall! sam n mel lil silly heads decided to take the train opposite! wat were dey thinkin! hahha! :) crazy! so up we wen to go to the convention centre! lil did we expect we didn noe how to walk dere!! we walked up this escalator dat was not runnin not knownin dere was a security officer n the place was block! we walked down again! hear this!! we tried to play charlies' angels!! haha the three of us! the way we walked hold our bags n carried our bags! hahaH! we were all wearin the same thing! being glamourous! we were wearing FBT shorts n CTK YOUTH SHIRT! hahah! :):) so funny! ppl were jus glarin at us! thinkin we were some cuckoos! haha! finally we reached the convention hall! we had rehearsals! hahaH! the classics! :) yea!

BELLY came running out! hoohhooo! my date! yea yea! everyone was preparin for the big nite! BFG reggie my borther came out n soon the rest! cant rmb! :) lala! running here n dere!! oh ya did i tell u! our changin roon was a like a secret passage way!! serious!! the door of the room blended with the wall i didn even knew!! lil did u expect the door to be so HEAVY!!! HEAVY!! HEAVY! a killer openin it! grrr. ahah! walk here n dere! put on our make up! yea!! shant talk much abt it! cos it was so funny!! i almost destroyed my sis's skirt!! lucky me! did our rehearsal n all! it was fun!! haha! really!! LOUIS N JOSEPH aka the godfather was makin fun of us!! our grp name the CLASSICS! haha!! crazy fella! tsk tsk! but it ws fun with them! hahahahah! laughin our way thru!! our rehearsal is over! :) everyone back to the changin room to change into our heels!

its a killer to walk in heels! i aint used to it!! seriously! its like walkin on NEEDLES with a HIGH ARCH! wahhh! my foot all sore n painful!! tsk tsk.. me n sam n belly was makin so much noise! hahah! finally teh nite began! yea! everything was ready!! SPECTACULAR SPECTACULAR!! but but it wasnt dat grand! yes yes! everything was so funny!! at the TOG table! really! donkey aka terrance was BLIND MICE! wenever he wore his shades! BFG was wooin JILL fake of cos!! he did so by playin drums with a pair of chopsticks n the table as the DRUM!! of cos teh extra was the glass n plates! hahaH! dam funny! belly was hard with words!! juli was makin fun of her!! me n aprielle jus laughed our heads off!! jill by the way was er embarrassed by bgf actions! hahahah! it was jus so funnny!! we kept on laughin!! aprielle laughed until she hit the TABLE NO. STAND!! hahah!! hahahhahaha!!! jus laughters! dinner was a pathetic!! i promise!! it was not exactly 60 bucks worth!! cmon! we deserved better! its a waste of money! but the rest is pretty okie!!

the bands played! cindababa performed! hahaH!! so funny melvin! haha! crazy! dan we the classic performed n another band played!! this time melvin was up stage singin!! hahahah! melvin? sing? hahahahah!! LAUGHS! the tog table was creaming arh! so fun! hahah! really!! i was havin a time of my life!! jus too bad mel n sam the table are so far away! grrr... dan the band opened up the dance floor! HAHAH!! everyone was dancin! hahah!! it was so fun!! dance dance! i jus love dancin! hah! really! sam mel annemarie belly n tog! dan the rest came in too! vetha gabriel joseph gerri becky n her bf! hahha!! etc! it was so fun !! everyone wen nuts! :) countin down the new year! hahhahah! we dance the whole nite!! yes yes even annemarie!!!! NEW YEAR CAME!!!HAPPY NEW YEAR!! HUG N WISHED EVERYONE! TOG n the others! MEL N SAM N BELLY TOO!! i called my family up n wished them too! my godpa was angry at me! FOR NOT CELEBRATIN WITH TEH FMILY!! HE WAS AFRAID I WEN TO DRINK! HAH!! BUT I DID NOT! NOTHIN TO DRINK! darank orange only! it was great fun! n we jus dance!! suddenly we had this dance thing whereby a gal or a guy would pick an opposite gender to dance with! it was so fun! freakin FUN!!

HAVIN the TIME of my LIFE! sam my wife DANCED WELL!! haha!! okie JOSEPH can dance!! i was dancin with him hah!! yea yea!! everybody was jus GROOVY! hahah! annemarie too the lil cute gal i love to hug! hhah! CEDRIC was teh cuties i tell u!! teh lil spongebob! hahaH! he was sooo adorable the main host!hahahh! :) dinner n dance was jus STUPENDOUS!!! a PHENOMENAL! hahaha! an indescribable feelin i had!! i was goin crazy on the dance floor!! everyone was!! hahha! I LOVE TOG SAM N MEL! hahah! i love all the ppl dat i was dancin with! hahah! :):) it was u remarkable day!! n i mean it!!! mel's dad gave me a lift home! yea yea!! hahah!

holiday!

2005-12-31T00:14:00.000+08:00

hahah!! back back back again yea! :):) oh gawd! today wass a tiring day! yes yes it is! mornin wen for trainin!! trainin started out in a classroom reviewin on our games we had against other schs! oh wells! for one hour! B div n miss dewi! hmm dan we did our warm up! uh huh the SUN was BLADY HOT! oh gwad! i could feel the imense heat from the darn sun! it was tearin my eyes apart n skin! OH GOSH!! SUN BURNT the day BE4. wahh had a really bad HEADAHCE! felt like throwin up! buhuhu!! its sick! i jus didn feel so good! all those nites!! n lil hours of sleeps! oh gwad! n sch is reopenin soon! NOOOOONOOOOOO!!! i dun wan! we had a gam against whietly! we won! :) yay!! trainin ended! :)
wen home! YES FINALY!! i could rest! wen home place everything in the basket n ate my lunch n wen to sleep! goodness i was gawd dam tired! tsk tsk!! nono! how bad it was! :( i slept for 2 hours until my mum came home n started askni for my dad!! wahhh so noisy! WOKEN!! sis said go bath cos we were goin to nat's place to celebrate her birthday so i did! lil did i noe we werent goin darn! we were goin after uncle's micheal place1 house warmin! his house was cozy!! everyone was dere! uh huh!! gandma n aunty marie came in a lil late so did uncle robin as usual! he is the boss! hahah! :) some left early! either dey had a business to run or werent feelin well! or had a baby to look after or had mornin shitfs! the kids wen to play in the room! n the FOOD was wonderful even though it was HOT! SPICY HOT! but i lIKE! hahah! NICE! the SAMBA PRAWNS n MUTTON CURRY! n HAM! etc..daddy was peelin prawns for me! hahaha! not goin to dirty my hands! hahaha! lazy! after day everyone was enjoyin demself either to a whiskey or beer!! the ladies the TV! uncle mic put on a dvd! BRIDE N PREJUDICE! a nice show! hahha! :) even bryan was watchin a kid! alalal! hmm watch till it end n wen home! heehee! so here i am!! oh ya uncle jason BULLIED ME! he took the whole plate of chips! LEROY was a cheekybum! ahahah! :):):)

the classics!

tml is dinner n dance! wahhh!! EXCITED!

n now i gtg!

frownin at the eyes
of my lil mistakes!

just to be your fren!

2005-12-28T08:47:00.000+08:00

I FELT SO SICK THIS MORNIN i could not go for trainin!! wahh! CRAP!! i think i can jus DIE! COLD runnin nose! a BAD headache to start the day off n to top it all i got a STOMAHACHE! WATTT!! i hope it aint gastric n it turns to b an ordinary stomach ache! wah thank god! hahaha so of cos my home temporarily was the toilet! hahah! :):) i feel so terrible! but i am meetin the classics later for rehearsal!! GERALD is ma fan!!! every lil thing must!! even the tiniest matter also! grrrrr..

yesterday: okie i woke up only at 2 pm cos i was gawd dam tired! oh gosh! dat's rather sick! hahah! dan i had my LUNCH!! not branch LUNCH! hahah! uh huh! n finally i dun noe wat got into me i started to take out my BIOLOGY book n started readin it! as in only 1 chapter i would jus die readin another one so many details to RMB! !! dere goes my HOILDAY! readin n rmbering! oh nonono! i wont be with my frens esp my church frens!! i love them! :):) so fun! all the laughters! yea i was readin abt the CELLS cytoplasm! n all!! wat vacuoles! n that cell n this cell!! n red blood cell! wah!! hameoglobin! did i spell dat correctly? i hope i did! ou protoplasm! u noe! oh cells are gruoped according to how dey function n form an organ such as the liver! hhah! i rmb!! i think! :):) okie forget abt this! crap! it jus reminds of sch!! sch holidays is comin to an end! blady hell!! y is it dat i dun feel i had my real holiday! last year n this year is totally different! really!! i dun believe it! i spent most of my days either in SCH for trainin or church our COG but never did i really spent time with my frens! wat!! i didn even go with steph cathy n all! all my sch frens! oh nonono! wat a sad sad thing! okie next stop! i am meetin mel n sam! haha! yea!! at ljs! for dinner n later goin together to church for rehearsal for our perfomance D&D! hahA! :) i dun noe if i should go a not cos its really expensive n all! i dun noe! should i? i really wanna have fun with mel n sam n TOG ppl! how?? alamak!! but its $60 BUCKS! my dad will kill me!! askin him to give me $60 bucks for d&d u gottta be crazy he is goin to say this! " nana u think i am printin money? if daddy was rich daddy would have given u! but now no!" hahahah!!! i could jus imagine! haha! let me seee how! oh wells! hmmmm yea spent time with mel n sam!! sam was so LATE again! i mean its usual! :):) waited for her to dan bought out dinner! :):) ahah! fun we were laughin n eatin! dan walked to church n started laughin! sam cannot walk n drink at the same time! she must stop drink walk! haha!so cute! hahah! church!! it rain so we took a bus! dan we started to play in church justin n chris was dere NICOLE n LYDIAA!! haha! yea yeA!! hmmm everything was soo funny!! justin has a surprise!! uh huh!! so EXCITING i mean really! haha! i was jumpin for JOY! hahah! wat a lil boy! justin aka small fry! :) hmm chris the rich dick! hhahah! dam funny! did our rehearsal and all and played ard! met vetha n chat! its been like awhile since we talked! so yea! dat silly head! he owes my bro my sis n me a present! wah ahah! dan sam mel lydia justin n chris n me wen to the coffeeshop for supper or dinner i dun noe! but yea we had fun! really laughin! JUSTIN was tryin to acy as a BOSS but could not! haha sam mel was tellin secret i wonder wat dey were sayin seriously! haha but nvm. chris lydia n i jus talk n laughed! haha! :):) dan home we wen! we said our goodbyes n depart! till the day we meet again which is today! hahah! :) i love the classics! :) yea yea!

till the day we last spent
till we say our goodbyes..
dat's wen it will end.
how ever bad it was.
fren we will always be.
sad to say it aint the same.
but the feelings are yet to be found
as life goes i guess i am bound
jus to be your fren!

gtg! outs!

back back! HK!

2005-12-26T22:59:00.000+08:00

i am BACK! finally! okie i am so busy!! not long ago i jus came back from HK!! HONGKONG if u didn noe! it was GREAT!! FANTASTIC! the scenenary was FABULOUS!u can never find it here! i mean in HK the mountains are like so beautiful! SERIOUSLY! everything was great! oh mine! the flight was only 3 hours! haha so short! yea yea! was sleepin!!! tired! hello wakin up 4 in the mornin goin to the airport! is CRAZY! no joke! yea! reached HK wen to board this HUMUGOUS BUS! all to ourselves! yea no one else except my family! hahaha! a 40 seater bus! hahah!! can u believe dat! alalal! :) IMPERIAL HOTEL dere was we are for 5 nites! hahah! we stayed dere uh huh!! its a alrite hotel!! not very good not very bad! hahaha! u understand a not? :) well left out luggage dere n wen off to the unknown city of HK!! ye we werent on the tour but on our own! dat's scary! in the streets of HK!! hahah!! its kinda a CONJESTED! everything was like so busy! oh gosh! SINGAPORE is much SAFER! oh ya everywhere we wen dere was ppl smokin! OH GAWD! will ppl jus stop smokin! it jus kills u! n it is disturbin to others! uh huh!cough cough! hmmmm lalala..we wen to so many placeS!!yea!! bought esprit clothes! pants n tops! it was really cheap n nice!! dere goes the money! haha! shop n eat!! the food dere was alrite :) i think it is! busy busy busy! busy streets busy life busy roads! next day wen to the peak!! oh mine!! i was jus mesmericed by everything lookkin at the busy life of HK the lights n everything!! GAWD! the AWESOME wonders! it was fantastic! geezzz! it was amazin! hahah took the tram back down agaiN! :):) third day we wen to OCEAN PARK!! yea yea!! SO FUN!!! a THEME PARK! roller coasta n the drop shot! hahahha! so fun the srop shot was scary!! i was so scared!!! really i was!! u go up 20 storeys n DROP DOWN!!! wahh! SCREAMSS N SHIVERS!! i feel i was flyin! hahaha my brother also!! shiverin while comin down i felt scared for him too! i mean bein the youngest n the only BOY! hahah! oh wellss me lil brother! hahah! :):) it was so fun !! i love the dolphins!! i almost cried it was touchin! hahah! i dun noe y! love them soo!! dere are so CUTE! seein dem perform n everything!! its jus sooo nice! n sealions! hahha! yea! nice nice! we wen to so many palces in hk! the buildings were all soo i forgotten the word for it! heehee! we wen to shop at a night market too!! hahha yea! BARGAIN N BARGAIN me n my sis! my uncle n aunty too hahah! bought blouses dere n some other stuffs yea! it was great! shoopin but hard to walk! must push all! :) oh ya it was darn COLD!!!! SO COLD until i had a COLD n my NOSE became so DRY! it started to PEEL! ARGH!!!! BLOW BLOW BLOW MY NOSE CLAERING IT TO BREATHEE!! hahah! lame! yea! it was fun!! HK WAS FUN!!!! :):):):) SMILES lots to write but lil time!

CHIRSTMAS!!!
no mood! y i dun noe! i guess we were all to busy to think abt christmas! really! went to uncle jason house to celebrate! it was fun!! my whole family was dere!! it was a new house!! hahaha :):):) uncle jason bullied me! yes yes!! all the things he said were al made up! jus cos i wen to MALAYSA with him he started his nonsensee! hahha! :) nhis son is so cute leroy! hahah! fat lil baby!! dun see him small he can terrorise u okie! haha! DUN PLAY PLAY! hahaa :) a good boy. yea yea dey had two dogs!!! wahh so cute gummy n coffee! hahah!! german sheaperd! hahah!! oh goodness!! wat lovely creatures! hahah!! yea yea! :) everything wen on well the food was great! at least it aint chinese food! hahah! mix! indain n eruasion! haha fab! hahah! dancin!! hahah!! baby russel my lil baby was dancin! ahahahaha! fun fun!! oh ya my brother clebrated his birthday too on the 24 in our house! hahah! yea! dan we wen for mass!! met up with frens n wished dem!! :) MERRY CHIRSTMAS! dan wen to uncle jason place! ahha!! wat a blog!! goodness! it was so fun!! we stayed dere until like 4 am in the morninin!! was singin karaok n loads dancin too! hahah!! russel was sick yyyy!! lil baby sick! :( oh wells!! he wen home! uncle edwin n juliana hahhaha the twista! hahha! so funny! dan all of us dance the kal ho na hoo movis songs hahah!! so fun! hahah! :):) bradon n bryan were singin the SONG!! can u believe it!! dey sang a hindu SONG!! hahah! proud of dem! haha! :) haha! it was so fun!!! uh huh!! the next day wen to aunty jacq's place!! another two dogs happy n lucky! but lucky u can call him sad! n ya one more dog aunty slyvia brought chrisy! a gal! a pup!!! wahh my baby alsO!! hahha me nmy godma was playin with her!! unti she wen back watched the bollywood show! a nice show! engorss in the show boy!! can cry a touchin show! hahha! father n motherly love for teh son n blah blah! hahha! :) long story! hahaha :) after dat me n godma wen out to play with happy another pup! hahah he was cute n charmin! ahah!! naughty n cheeky!! but lso pampered! so i pampered it!! love dogs man!! love my god family close frens n dogs n animals n frens! hahah! :):) oh wells! hahah! played with sparklers hahah!! everyone was jus keep throwin questions at me!! nvm i shant say! hahah! oh wlls!! okie!! i guess chriastmas was more dan wat i expected it was fun!!
today my mum's side came over n CHEEKY teh dog wat else!!hahha!!! so fun!! dan wen over to aunty joanne's palce!! haha!! lil eathan gerad! hahah! okie okie!

gtg!!

my feeling was the past!
but now is the present!!
i am sry for the past!!
i can only change for the futher!
the past is not to be spoken again!
only the memorise of it lives
and nothing else!
never was it u n me!
i rated my heart!
it cant be change!
my mind is set!
i long for the past to be jus THE PAST!

NITES!

HELL!

2005-12-17T20:00:00.000+08:00

today today!!
well i was sooo lazy to wake up to go to church for practice jus not in the mood! haiz!! drag myself out of bed! oh wells! met the classics! okie got a room! dan we hang chill out dere we didn dance at all!! alamak! how?! hahah!! nvm still got next times! heehee! :) lazy lil me! dan yea yea!! wen to youth room to play with this board i played the guitar n teh board thingi! oh wells dan mel sam n me left for lunch nic didn follw though! it alrite! she wen with the guys! :) hmmm dan in the coffe shop we met some ppl gabriel vetha n others i dun noe! haha! dan while eatin we met jansen!! wah lau we talk for at least 1 hour with him ti kill time we had TOG meetin lar! :) 3 pm it started!! jansen n us were talkin alot!! goodness!! he is a nice guy man! yea yea! from bgr stuff to bio? hahah! alamaK! ohwellls wen back to church n took some food from the prayer walk! hahh!! whooppss! free food! yay!! dan wen to youth room again! mel readin the dictionary! sam takin photos me playin the guitar! hah! :) dan beve came n we wen to MEETIN! meetin was borin laR! i mean all meetins are rite! wat can u do abt it??? nothin!! hahah!! oh wells! :) its my kinda like last day here in singapore! hah!! goin to HK i am goin to miss everyone!! MEL SAM REGGIE n ALL! haiz!! make me smile!!

i was with sam n mel the whole day man wen to mass together tooo!! hahah! :)

my dad made me angry!! wahh LAU!!!! hmmpft!!

i love alll!

hellO!

2005-12-16T11:58:00.000+08:00

hello!! i am back agaiN! well i miss youth camp cog n the classics dey rock marn!

yesterday: wat a day! wen to sch in the afternoon to do my HOUSE banner!! i am in RED house! aka one of my fav colour! met up anne van n maddy! hah!! maddy of cos was our artist! hah! she draws DARN nice! yea yea! her art is GREAT! :) wells dan wen to RM to buy all thea paints n brushes! now i am $14 short of money! i paid for everything! wahhh!!!! nvm.. i will take it bacK! :) wen to cheers to grab some drinks! oh mine! a lot hapened dere! VAN was out of her mind! MADDY cant stop laughin! me n anne were jus normal! hahah! :) CRAZY PPL! hah! wat to do! left the place a lot happened boy! :) hmmm back to sch! van almost lost her wallet as usuaul due to her SILLINESS! hahaH! :) okie in sch! came up with teh design! JURASSIC! nice!! birds flyin!! ST CATHERINE jus rocks man! hahah.. paint paint!! we had clothe! LAUGH LAUGH!!! VAN was almost part of the CLOTHE! hahH! :) whgooppss!! oke stop dere!! wait i die!! hahahaH! hhehehe! dan lots of fun!! we took stuff from the uncles paintin our sch! haha!! free.. haha! yea yea!! i am in love with tupertine! y cos it removes all the paint fast not like thinner!! wah lau forever lau dat one! shshs!! :):) yup!!

dan now i wen to meet up with mel n sam!! but but FRANCIS n NICK LEE taggged along!! wahhh!! i didn noe but i sorta knew francis would come!! dat i shant say! SECRET! hah! :) dan at teh coffeshop wahh we wait as in me n mel waited for dem until 7 pm! goodness!! nvm we had fun!! me n sam was laughin n laughin lar! tsk tskzzzzzz1 funnnynynynyn! hahah!!! HAHAHAHAHAHA!! francis was jus weird lar! CRAZY retard! nick!! i like to bully! let me tell u in mass wen he wanted to leave the pew me foot was out n he trip over it! hahah!! u shld see it man! funny!! he could not scream n it was dark! hahah!! silly head! dan another time he kacau me i tickled him!!! u noe wat!!!! his weekest point ever! my LORD!!!! it was soo funnnyyy!!! i was laughin!! :):) gosh!!! wat a dumbbo! hahahah!!!! oh wells! did my confession! hahab :) but i forgotten wat to say suddenly wen i was with the priest! alamak!! anughty me! dan all of us walked to the bus stop i was supoose ti go the most furthest one ever! haha! yea yea! :):) oh wellss! dan home! :):)

today is a day wen dere is a match!

so adioz!!

i love my galfrens! :) MAL n SAM!
miss HYAZ!!!!

hurtin me back!! back agaiN!

2005-12-14T15:35:00.000+08:00

i love youth camp n i miss youth camp!! blady hell!! i miss cog! i miss everybody!!!! i miss hyaz a lot n mel n sam!! all the gals!! the guys??? er.. abit lar! oh mine!! we are freakin close now lar!!! made more new frens!!! goondess!!! i love youth camp!!! i love it!! it was super duper fun!!!!! i wan mo0re!!!!!! facils : gabriel n joyce!!! gabriel was dam nice!! like an older brother!!! even though he bullies n kacau me! but dat's all okie!! cos he is real nice!! takecares of the grp!!! yea yea yea! so fun!!!! really dam funnyyyyy n fun n all!!!!! we played so many gamess n enjoyed my camp!!! THANKS REGIE THANKS LAPIS THANKS GALS!!! THANKS!!! i love youth camp i am goin again!! i made new fresn u noe!!!!! yes yes i did!! lalala! CAMP CAMP CAMP!!!!!!!!! ALLALLALAL!!!
GERRI WAS A MAMBO!!! she fell flat on teh ground!:)

hahah!! :):)

2005-12-06T22:55:00.000+08:00

weeeeeeeeeeezzzzz!!!! i miss COG its like so fun!! dere is no more dance rehearsals!! wat tHE HELL NO MORE PLAY TIME!! no more dancin together no more havin so much fun!! y????? do u noe how darn fun is dat! its like hmmm playin in snow! hahh! :):) love it!! i love reggie i love lapis i love beve i love gordillocks aka jill!! dey are all so FUN! hahah!!! i love the THE ONE N ONLY CLASSICS!!! GOODNESS!! wat else u wan?
its so FUN! the singin in the rain its so darn fun!!! we enjoy.. of cos we had squabbles here n dere dat also happens!! i am use to it we have to give n tak u noe!!! give in most of teh times to make everyone happy! isnt dat great?dun u think so! hahahaH!! hte guys are like so cute dancin! hahah! it was a couple thing!! haha!! my parents godparents grandma n aunt came so did my lil two rascal cousins! cheekkyyy!! my sis n bro too!! lobve them all!! it was jus so fun!! hahah!!!!!! arH@!!! i wan more more!!! grease was also nice n so was jingle bell rock!! the band which lil francis was the singer was shshs!! i dun noe! no one could hear him!@ goodness!!! wat was he thinkin! my dance partner was IGGY! alamak!! this fellA!!! shshs!!! can faint! can i ? whoopppsss! :):) jkjkjk! i love COG~~ n hell yea we got into DnD!! wat the hel!! REJOICE!! thank GOD for this!! THANK YOU LORD!!!!! we gOT it so dat means more practices!!!!! YAY!@!!! isnt dat fun!!!!! yes yes it is!!! gorgeous!!!!! hahah!!we got in got in!! reggie had the cjeek to lie to me! hahahah! :):):) smiles...

today: woke up early in teh morinin to go to some cheer rock course! haha fun boy!! alrite only lar! haha! quite fun! haha!! did stunts which we could not do!!! wee need guys u noe! hmm dan dance routines n cheerleadin moves those american ones lar! haha! not those dance moves!!!! heehee dan some cheer songs!!! eagles take it higher!! blah blah n it goes on! hahah! tml also haf! :):) goin to stay at godpa's house!! goin to the zoo yay!!! so fun for two days at their house!!! :):):) i wen swimmin today too!!!alot happen!! lazy to type u noe!!! darn tired! heehee

yesterday: wen out with sister to do up my face!! alamak! should not have gone i so regret! hahahah!!! y!! it looks soo ugly like i am malay gal!! wat lau!!! i hate it!!! i destroyed my own face!!! for wat!!!!! hell no!!!! sry to myself sry to god fro destroyin his works! GRRRR!! hang myslef! shsh!!! nvm!!!! hmmpft.. wen to marche with sister n bf dan wen home!! :):)

a DAY out!

2005-11-28T23:00:00.000+08:00

weeeezzz... today i woke up at wat 6 o'clock!!! can u believe it!! i actually wake up!!!! and to think i slept at 1 plus late in the nitessss.. shshsh boy was it a miracle! i dun understand!!! i was lookin forward to trainin!! haha so long never train!!! boo hooss.. another sad thing!! COACh is leavin us cos of her company!!! wat crap is this!!!! NO!!!!! we love her too much!!! she is jus soooo NCIE!!! n FUNNY!! dam FUN! hahah :):):):) idiot!!!! had p3 kinda alrite! " a DISTRACTION will ONLY be a DISTRACTION if u LET it BE a DISTRACTION!!" heeheess a quote! JAC always says this! hahah! :) alrite trainin was fun! played match between us! teams were RED GREEN n YELLOW! haha guess who won??!!! RED!!!! yay YAY!!! only 1 suicide!!! so HAPPY!!! goodness we won!! but we played badly maybe not use to juniors play! heehee.. lunch-ed n wen back to sch for BANNER! PAINT N DRAW!! heehee left for home to bath!! goin out with GODPARENTS n GODBROTHERS!!! SO FUN! but be4 dat wen to church to watch a lil of singing in the rain! :) alrite.. dan left early to meet dem in PS to catch a MOVIE "HARRY POTTER!" its like a DAM cool fun SHOW!!!! so NICE!!!godpa was SO FUNNY!!! haha crapinthe hell out of the twins so funny!! he was dancin teh car to bhangra MUSIC!!! so NICE LAR!! i love it!!! FUN FAMILY!!! hahah YAY!!!!!!!!!!!! :):):):):):):):):):):):):):):):) SMILESSSSS!!!! but it makes me think of the dance though heartachin to let BHANGRA go bought our clothes too.. wat's the usee!!! dun wann a SPEND any more money! no money! seriously... OUTSSSSS empty!!!! goodness!! i WONT buy anything daddy wont give.. :) haiz so sad.... tsk tsk! now i am HOME! had fun!!!! :):) alrite... byessss... daddy is goin mad!! for dun noe wat reason n i am not goin out with my mum's side the cousins.. maybe not dat paricular ones... shshshs i will DIE!!!! :) heeheee.. so MEAN!

wateva it is!!!

2005-11-27T22:30:00.000+08:00

FEELING like runnin away far from this place!! far away!!! runnin till no one can stop me!!! first its dat now its this oh no no it is now dat!!! haiz!!! wat a day! tml trainin is startin at 8 but got to be dere at 7.30! haiz!! freakin early!! wat on earth is this! shshs!!! enuf is enuf! i cant skip trainin cos i CANNOT even if i wan to! i ran out of reason to give !i dun wanna be kicked out of NETBALL! i love my CCA like HELL!! its FREAKIN FUN! pls understand! haiz. NVM! DANCE may be IMPORTANT for now... really wanna perform for D n D! i think its FUN!! heehee.. :) alrite.. WATEVA I WANNA RUN AWAY!!!!!! RUN AWAY FROM ALL TROUBLESSSSSSS!! YES YES YES!!! I DUN NOE!!!! i am LOST!! :'((((((

its back to haunt me!

2005-11-24T11:53:00.000+08:00

yesterday was supose to be nice day but @#$%ing NO! wen to buy ma books in sch duhh bro came along toos! :) wen to extend my bro's passpoart it jus expired was wonderful!!! we are goin to HONGKING!!! am i happy??? i dun noe!!! alamak! dan wen to have tea at thomsom dere sum where!!! wen home to pack my books n wrap it up! place dem nicely in the drawer!! gawd i must be NUTS to TAKE 2 PURE sciences! WAT ON EARTH were dey THINKIN!! ii had superb BRAINS? CRAZY! nvm.. wen to dance!! gawd was everybody late! haha! :) as uasul i had to wait for like hmm almost 45 mins! dance n rehearsed! so fun! we had to sing again! sore throat! forgotten teh tune heehee! sry lars! 1 week no practice! shsh! reggie was nuts toos! he was actin kinda LOLO! LAPIS aka LOUIS was our darlin GHOST!! he was the JOKE of the DAY! hahahah!!! lil LAPIS!! we were singin in the DARk n he had to SCARe us he n terrence! hahah!!! alamak! dat FELLA! wen himne late 10 plus i guess.. eat dinner bath.. 11 Pm its me NIGHTMARE!!! GASTRIC ATTACK!!!! boy was i screamin n cryin n moanig!! wat the !!! brother cannot hold me down daddy came!!!! take BISMAG still cannot panadol CANNOT!! wahhhhh!!! SCREAMIN!! daddy said i was POSESSED!!! WAT CRAP!!
it freakin pain wat do u expect nme to do???? PULLIN ME HAIR APART TEARIN all teh CUSHION! i am SRY!!!! i was goin mad with GASTRIC! the last i had it was like durin PSLE!!!! PRIMARY 6!!!! outs n died ...

i hate!!

2005-11-22T22:45:00.000+08:00

SECOND TIME BLOGGING!!!! NOT FUNNY I GUESS! HAIZ! WAT A DAY IT WAS TODAY! I WAS HOPIN FOR A MORE.... NVM.. SHANT SAY!! I DUN WANNA TELL ANYONE!! WEN DANCIN....

I HATE MYSELF FOR EVERYTHING I EVER DID!!! OR HOW I EVEN FEEL!! EVEN RITE NOW! I AM WATEVA U SAY I AM!!! IF U HATE DAN Y WOULD U SAY I AM! NTH HAPPEN TO ME!!! ITS JUS THE PPL! I DUN NOE!!!! I JUS REGRETTED SAYIN CERTAIN STUFF N HOW I REACTED TO CERTAIN STUFF!! I AM NOT WAT U THINK I AM!! I AM NOT THAT PERFECT GAL! I AM NOT DAT GAL WITH EVERYTHING PERFECT IN HAND! NO NO I AM NOT! SO SHUT UP!! I DID MY BEST TO........... GRRRRRRRRRR... N NOW I GET THIS FOR WAT %^&* SHOULD I GET SUCH ATTITUDE! U NOE BETTER... I HAD ENUF OF EVERYTHING!!! I AM WAYYYYYY OUT OF MY LIMITS!! I TRIED TO BURY IT WITHIN!!! I GUESS I GUESSS.. I AM NOT DAT ONE! WILL U PLS JUS STOP BUGGIN ME!! DUN CALL DUN MSG DUN EVER LOOK FOR ME AGAIN!!!!! I AM AT WITS ENDS!!! WOULD I EVEN FEEL BETTER DOIN THIS!!! I DUN THINK I CAN!

FEELIN LOW..
I GOTTA GET DAT FLOW..
MINDIN IT SLOW..
I AM IN THE GO..

SEEIN EVERYTHING AFAR..
I SET IN ON A BAR..
WITH A JAR...

HELL IT ENDS..
JUS DAT LIL BEND!

I HATE ME!

back from me buZzy LIFE!

2005-11-22T12:52:00.000+08:00

time do FLY!! gawd.. haiz! wen ya busy u wish u cold jus turn back time in order to enjoy more!!! livin life to fullest ever! LIFE IS SHORT! dat's wat my godpa said! oh wells..

last thursday wen our with church frens!! to town to catch a MOVIEE!!! it was suppose to be a FUNNY N NICE MOVIE!!!! dat IGGY NICOLE N GARY had to CHANGE it !!! blady HELL! y must it be ME SUFFERIN! wat on earth did i ever DO!??? jus wat?? y must i FACE my blady NITEMARE!!! GAWD! WATCHED EXORCIST lar! DARn it! aint ma FAUlt dat i'm SCARED! i was BORN with it! FINE! hmmpfT be4 the show we were tryin to kill time! haha wen to BK to eat.. iggy n gary wen NUTS suddenly! for GOD noes y! haha :) no offence! hehe! walked to CINE to play arcade but to our surprise it was darn PACKED! shshsh! we walked all teh way dere for NOTHIN! NVM one! lucky wen to sembawang to buy a CD for COG! lala secret wont tell u wat CD it is! heehee! walked back to LIDo to catch our DARN show! like i wanna watch like dat! HAIZ! a PAID ticket i had no CHOICE! watch dan watch lar! hmmpft! :P okie i ADMIT its SCARY had i not known i would not have watched it it left me with 3 days without sleep!! retarded lar suffered in trainin!! so SLEEPY n TIRED!! nVm! :) after the show wen to toysarus forgotten how to spell wateva! so FUN play dpwn dere! in the ANIMAL ALLEY! hahah! so FUN!! haha run ard like sum small kids! so FUN play throw the animals! hahah! lalala! FUN!! :):):) SMILES! wen home!

Friday EAST COAST TRAININ! :)
it was rainin!! wat! not NOW! under teh shelter we did our krunches.. n jumpin jacs! no choice n dan der was this bangladash worker! ALAMAK!!! he got free show lar! shshs!! captain said face teh other way! DUHH! common sense!! we felt like diggin his eyes out! we could!! hahaha :) rain stop wen to run! a few laps only though lucky! no time did our drills up the sand near the sea! wah so NICE so BREEZy i love the BEACH! junniors n seniors! kinda cool lar! lunch up hop up all sorts! elevation all! :):) dan played dog n bone but this is diff run take the ball the person without the ball had to tackle for it as in like rugby! HOW COOL! seniors against juniors! we WON of COS! hahaha!! but GOOD JOB JUNIORS! well done nice sprint!! hard runnin on the SAND okie! we had mat test!! MISS DEWi n COACH! hahah! plus n minus multiply divide! alamak! dan wen to MUDDY GRASS!! wah my SHOES!! i DUN LIKE!! me n my cousin who is also my junior was darn naughty BULLy ME! make me SHOE muddy! dat lil rascal! COUSIN SO NAUGHTY COUSIN! shshS! can DIE! tsk tsk! :) we were suppose to play real rugby but couldnt the terren was too muddy! so play volleyball instead.. seniors won again! how great!! hahah!! penalty winner run 5 laps loser 10! nvm lar! hahahah!!! it was fun besides trainn was super slack!! jus doin all these only! shshs! ABC! :):) bus-ed back to sch! HOME! :):):) SMILES

saturday lazin at HOME! :)

SUNDAY yay church funfair n cousin birthday!! baby lar duhh!! funfair was fun i have to say! kinda cool lar everything! i DUNK CHIRS GOH N DAN the MAJESTY IGGY D'CRUZ! hahahaha! LOSERS! missed the last shot of DUNKIN GARY! haiz! NICOLE tried her BEST! hahahah!!! :):) did a lot.. with nic hyaz mel. so FUN father robert was dunk too for $100 bucks! gawd! dan we were supoose to have or dance but no... cannot cos its feast day blady HELL! irritatin! so cancel! haiz! nvm.. wen to meet my whole family in town! GRANDMA aunty n uncles godaparents! n my cousins the twins n lil baby russel! so cute lar he!!! wen to centre point wahhh he was ssssooooooooo cute follwin me ard! hahaha playin hide n sick in the mens section daddy n uncles were buyin stuff!! hide in the pants all! hahah! SMART boy! he knew which way i would go! hahah!! he didn wanna follow my sister!! i ran away he started screamin wantin to come down n chase me! hahah!!! :):) a charmin lil BABY! hahah! dam fun! cant pen down everything! dere is so much to say! hahah! :):) carry him put him down he start runnnin! hahahah!! ppl all laughin at us! such a RASCAL! hahaha!!! like one road runner! so fast hartd to catch him! n boy was he learnin fast! he was checkin out gurls!!! NAUGHTY BUM! gurls who are lil older dan him! cheeky BUM i tell u! love him to BITS! hahaha!! wen to alley bar to chill n have a drink bradon n bryan cousins was like drippin water all over me! wahhh!! i can die! dam NAUGHTY! twins! forcin me to skip trainin to stay over all n go out watch movie! shshs!! wanna go arcade n play! n swimmin! hahaha!! those nBUMs! love them loads! ma godbros! :):):) wen to ah ma house after dat! visit mum side! yup off to dinner! hahah!! was a lil hungry the whole day never eat! :):):) HOME SMILES! lovely day!

monday trainin in sch! n p3 alrite coach didn come down! slack lar trainin! did 2 suicides! hahah! :):) wen home with my partner n baybay!

today!!!! goin for dance later!! so yea! today blkog sooo long!@ hahah!!! terror readin it! :):):) n smilES out!

LOVE MY FAMILY N FRENS!
i am gonna get RUSSEL! he is so NAUGHTY! loves..

ADIOZ!

borin!

2005-11-05T17:10:00.000+08:00

goodness!!! another borin day!! parents at home sleepin like dere's no tml! GOODNESS i wanna go OUT??!! wat is dere to do at home all i can think is EAT all the JUNK!!! of cos i must control i aint gonna eat! i will grow FAT! hahah!!! shshsh! jesus christ! i hate to be fat! grrrr.. nvm... i can do something abt it hahahah! :) EXERCISE! DUHHH!!! hahah!

yesterday had trainin!!! self trainin! so happy it ended early! but yea! shshs! nvm.. hmm wen to co for a whiile to buy sis's stufff! hahaha! at popular dan bus-ed back! 156.. super lonng!! take forver to come! NVM! on the way back sis called sayin i must go with mummy n daddy in case dey might fight! shshs!! i wanna go CHURCH! its much more fun! u cant shoopppiin so late in the NITE! but still i had to go! alamak! had to skip church wat luck! did nothin much at marina squarrE! BORIN! jus walked ard n bought HONEY? ah yo! daat's all!! thankful mummy biught me one new shirt! haiz still ti was kinda borin! okie okie.. wen hime so early! hmmm at 10pm
i should have jus gone to church! at least i wont be bored wiht ma frens!!!! nvm... its too late~ haha!! hmmm wen home to FIX my jigsaw puzzel! n ITS DONE! yay! so HAPPY!!!!!! KALABUMBA! hahahah!! i FINSHED it already! heeheee...

outs...

walkin

2005-11-03T14:47:00.000+08:00

WATEVA WATEVA WATEVA WATEVA! I'M GONAN WRITE A SONG!!! I FEEL SO!!! HAHAHA!!! NO ONE SHALL NOE! SOMETHING I DO ALL THE TIMES BUT AFTER DAT I THROW IT AWAY! COPS I DUN WANNA SEE AGAIN!!! HEEHEEE I FEELL LIKE BLOGGIN BLOGGON NON STOP HAHAHA!! MADNESS! I SHALL BLOG DOWN MY SONG ONE OF THESE DAYS! IT TAKES TIME TO WRITE ONE! HHAHAH!!!

GANGSTER ON THE GO!

ITS JUS YOU N ME!
BLIND TO SEE
HOW COULD WE FEELL..

ADIOSZ!

wat agaiN!

2005-11-03T14:38:00.000+08:00

okie okie!
i am bored as u can see!!
i du really like stayin at home need to do something all the time otheerwise i dun noe wat crap i might thinkn of! hahah!!! hmmm wells... jus feelin kinda er... nothing! but yea!
so bored so here i go!

lights off!

beat that drums!

here i go!!

everybody hear that sound
n u get down!
find a honey leanin onn the wall
brin him to dat stall

bang it the floor!

somebody hit the light
ppl getin down dat's rite
rockin it day n nite!

no we dun need no sleep
all nite we rock dat beat!!!

this is out!

i'm gonna show u how make it bad today!
oh come wat may!

oh my ladies let it go
wind it up!
lossen dat sup!

all the fellas in the house
do ya thing!
catch up wiith teh flow..
soon it will be up slow!

now and then!

2005-11-03T12:48:00.000+08:00

wel well!!!! i was made to update ma BLOG! by who arh i wonder! only one person! who happens to be readin this rite now!!! shsh! grrr.. hmm nvm... first thing first! SELAMAT HARI RAYA! if i spelled it correctly! hahah!! :):)

yesterday met up with the 6 gals n j8 it was darn borin to stay at home! oh wells! walked ard den ate at lj! i made cookies! yay!!!! gave it to teh gals! was suppose to give some to the guys but i forget besides dey dun..... nvm! hahah! shant say! yea bus-ed down to church! everywhere was locked uncle eric was no where to b found so we asked the auntie! heehee! got teh room its OURS! YAY!! FINALLY!! we had a room of our own!!! no one could take dat away! cos reggie booked it EAAAARLY! hahaha! played poker! FUN! dan reggie came.. so had to start rehersing! oh wells! wat the! the gals had to sing!!!! SING!!! wahhhh! ASHSHS bladyhell! yea kepp goin higher n higher n have to keep sing frm the top! grrrr.... PANT PANT!!! shsh! can die! dat was an act! haiz! nvm... okie okie sing already dan all teh guys came n had to SING AGAIN! WAH!!! STUPID!!! FINE! TAKE A DEEP BREADTH!!!! N SING! hahhh dan It was too HIGH!!! hahahahah! start agaiN! ookiiee! SHSHS! nvm. well dan we continued with our dance! yay! FUN! shshH!! reggie insread of makin us smile he made us LAUGH!!! wah!!!! n boy was he up to no GOOD!! he told the gals something but not me! this is not FAIR! reggie u are so BIAS! hahahah! whooops! ya da ya da! cut the crap on with the dance! heehee! YAY!! WE had new dance steps! so taught teh gals! brush up on the moves! n yes! we did it! our class is gonna be a BLAST! hahah!!!!! HIGH HOPES! the guys are marvellous! dey are goin to do something SPECTACULAR! shshsh its a secret! hahahahh!!! every1 would b amazed by wat det can do! hahahah! some hidden talents a... hahha! taught the annoyin guys the new steps n it left me with a BAD HEADAHCE!!! SO YEA dere goes ma mood! hahahah! wah!! i could almost jus!! errrr.. grrrr... nvm! hahah!!! lalalala! oh wells! yea we ended our timberland with a cool stop! ahaha!!!!! lalala!! y am i praisin our dance! hahahaH!!!! eeewwww.... ah ahahah nvm..! okie!! dance ended!!
wen home no appatite to eat so yea drank liquids instead! hahah!dan yea! bath alll!! wen to do ma jigsaw puzzel!! n found out dat my dog's ears were missin!! MIA MIA MIA!!!!!! wah!!! i took so long to do it n now its GONE!!! boy i could get y hands on dt goondu! hahah! so diod it in the nite later pat came over! AKA sis BF! so late! shshsh!!! wateva! annoyin lil guy! watch this dvd a lot like love dan i fell asleep! hahahhah!!!!!! BORIN! zzzzzz back to my room to ma bed! hahah! n dat's ma day!

ADIOSZ!

blissful day!

2005-10-29T22:09:00.000+08:00

hmm its been a long time siince i updated this! hahha! well simply cos i am like BUSY!! did u noe dat! trainin 3 times a week n i've got my cog thign dance! which also includes 6 gals n 4 puny lil guys!!! shshshsh!! the GUYS i tell u! i bet wen one of dem read this i am so BUSTED! n i noe hu will be teh one! lalalala! u noe who i am talkin abt! well wellss!! things arent really goin well though! nvm.... but i love my frens! the 6 of us! as in the gals! yea! happy dat sch ended! so HAPPY!! i hate this YEAR! seriously so MUCH SHIT! did u noe dat! grrrr.... enuf!

today was GRANDPS birthday! celebrated it somewhere in LIL INDIA! kinda cool but PACKED like HELL! hmmm... ate nice foodS!! NANN!!! lalalala IGGY i ate NANN are u JEALOUS! n APPAM! i lOVE! hahahah! wanted more but dere was mango cake so leave some space for dat! dun wanna eat so mucH! hahahhaah! lalalal!! wah dam funny! my godpa shshshs! hilarious! yea the twins godbros... told dem i might be performin at their scH! dey were like wat?! for wat?! hahaha! dam CUTE! yups.. mum left for CHINa TODAY toox.. got a scoldin from daddy for not sayin bye bye! hello ppl were too tired so had a deep sleeepp... zzz.ZZZZZ!! cannot wake up lar! shsh! nv, wen to mass with nicole n ma sis! haha yeA! cannhot find SAM! shshs MIA! nvm! tml got dance! so FUN! yupz too bad i wont recruit any one in! its ful! hahahha! yuppie! n i saw fireworks too! kinda cool! help to celebrate my grandpa's birthday! hahaha!!! wat a WONDERFUL DAY! lalalalla!!! n i saw sheryl! she wans to see us dance! NO NO NO NO NO!! i wont allow this boy! uh uh uh uh uh! oh NO NO NO!! CANNOTT!!! SCREAM! hahahaha! outs on this!

last trainin!!! was like hmm funny?! did 5 man defence! me n my partner witness WF doin something but i cant rmb! all i noe dat JOAANE asked to type this! hahah wth! nvm... sry lar! cannot rmb too bad!!!! haiz! played a gamE! yup centre to wing defence! hahah! kinda alrite! stupid MARY CLARE!! KEPT goin round STEPH! shshsh! like one goondu! hahahah! but yea!

everything was goin well without u ard! hahah!!! lalalalal!

no regrets!

i will live my life to its fullest!

i dun wan no WORRIES no more!

shshsh!

u aint worth my TEARS nor my HEART!

after all i tried to make the first MOVE!

u shunn me away!

thanks!

i am bacK!~

2005-10-14T16:45:00.000+08:00

like wat the hell!
exams are OVER!!! like hurray! hahah! so happy no more strss from teachers! yay! -jumps for joy- anyways.. yesterday wen ice-skating! super FUN! DUHH! steph taN steph bay rachel n me! hahah! super fun! wen dere WTH so COLD but as u skate not really! heehee! steph fell on her asss her front her side! hahah!! n rachel FLEW! see her fly!! wth! super funnny! she break-ed the worng way??!!! hahaH! n i?? erm... heehee!!! fell lar duh! first time skatin dun expect me to skate like one pro! yea!! fell on ma BUTT! hhaha!!! n kneess! hahah!! fine fine! but serious it was dam fun! bay n rach can SKATE lar.. rich ppl always skate n roller blade! FINE! hmmpft.. n de skates was kinda like irritatin! left leg keep bedin inwards! NVM! n saw many ppl tryin to act pro with it! hahah!!! saw this guy kinda CUTE! hahah! bay saw him too! oh wells but too bad! not really interested though! jus found him cute! heehee! alamak! it was super fun! I DUN CARE!!! i am goin der again! n of COS SENTOSA!!!! i AHVE TO GO n THE beach! i wanna BIKE!!! lost touch! GRRR!!!! maybe with church fren n sch! hahaH!! super! dam fun! the day wen by! realy funny! kept on playin with this pig this guy gave my sis in the middle of the nite! heehee! it was a singin PIGGY! wth! dam CUTE!!!! llalala! love it! i wan one of my own! yupz yupz!

wednesday! teh day the EXAMS ARE ALL OVER! wen to town! far east! wtF! it was not really wat i thot lar! well i had jus a HORRIBLE day lar! seriously i wanted to leave half way! it really pissed me oofff btw! WTH! i am sry lar! wat did i even do! WTF! everything simply is SHIT! even though i was with steph n cathy n rach still it was not fun! teh way everythig was goin was as if i was the one bring evryone DOWN! i already said! i dun wanna go n cos all ths shit! certain parts yea i laugh!! simply becos i like to see ppl happy n dat dey showed n BIG SMILE n teh way dey laughed! are u satisfied! i am sry! but this has gone tooo far!!!!!!! far beyond the HORIZON! pls get a life! maybe its me! i have a life of my own! BECOS of this!!!!1 my life was SCAR-ed it will take a long time for it to be really invisible! IT WAS SO OBVIOUS! pls!! stop all those hide behind one corner n talk! i can sense everything!! the tension in the stmosphere! YES i can! SO STOP!

i wshed sum1 was here to know wat its like to be the one bein STABBED! n to cheer me up! lucky no one knows i've chaged my blog! i dun wanna any1 else to noe except my sis! no one! i m sry! i jus didn feel like tellin anyone!! i was advised dat this was the best way! i am changin how i am livin! i wanna be happy!

VENgence by the SEA

2005-10-07T15:13:00.000+08:00

Vengence...
ur ignorance..

the stillnes of the nite
nothin will ever be right.

forgive me.

words dun come easy..
wat makes me crazy.

wat if i took u away
showin u the sway..

standin tall..
told to be strong..

unbreakable..

those hidden eyes..
swallow me..
than let me out..

crusin on the westside..
catch me on the inside..

if is not worth ur soul

friday! yay! majority of the papers are over.. cant wait ti celebrate!!! exams are comin to an END! un huh!! n nothin seems to b quite rite! still dere are so many SHIT goin on... it was not like i wanted it too.. but sumhow somethings are jus not meant to be! everything seems to be soo.... shove under the carpet? maybe it was sumthing i had.... stIll i'll let the world to have..

wat A HALLUCINATED DAY!

2005-09-24T00:05:00.000+08:00

okie today started our real FINE!!! everything was kinda "SECURED" but as day came to an end.. everything wen bersek! firstly i thot steph tan n bay n rachel n me were goin out to lunch follwed by studyin at the library! but TO my Surprise sha was comin along.. i was shocked n lost! it's not rite for me to go... so yea i reluctantly wen but as i walk-ed up to teh canteen i jus couldnt make the MOVE so i left!!! as in left without sayin a word! yea i noe i'm wrong! but i cane face ma probs jus like dat! i need time!! GOD knows noe wat happen! aint me... i am already DRowned by it.. so stop pushin it on mE! i ahev no choice. SO STOP!!!! i had eNuf already! YES! enuf is ENUF! ma day was practically a livin HELL!!! %^&*-ed day! shsh! on the way hm... 119 came n i could not find ma wallet wat the he!!! ma day was really a PLEASENT wan! %^&*ing not lar! nvm.. waited for the next one n guess wat i hallucinated!!! i seriouls did!!! i thot it was 119 but it was 136!!! wat on earth happeneed to mE!!! i am in need of something or maybe someone! but i guess not... no one can ever understand wat ma life is really like!!!! ya i am grounded dat i can handle! but ma life i cant! is it FATE??? or was it me!! HUMAN ERROR?? give me an answeer! I AM ^&*-ED UP ALL THIS AREADLY! it adds on to ma minnd pressure no such thing but i created it.. i am grateful FOR hyaz n sam! lucky HYAz made me go CHARISMATIC!! where i can relax n give mma whole soul n body to god! to have HIM to mend ma WRONG DOINGS! i love dem so much!!! ma babe n laogong!!! HUGS! i had fun after chrismatic with hyaz sam nicole!!! really laughin puttin up a brave front!!! yes!! but i cannot have ma rugged depressed second side of me lingerin the streets i might as well be known as A BEGGER!!! lookin like CRAP! yes i am thankful for THIS NITE! not day! GARy n JOWERL were actin weird again!! shsh!!! so annoyin! tsk tsk! oh wells.. i had fun lar! walk-ed to AMK central but bought nothin jus enjoyed the wind! kinda COOL! SAM lar! tsk tsk made us walk all the way dere.. but excersie! heheheh!!!+++ on thursday! i wen to bishan stadium to do ma 2.4 km run AGAIN!!! 4567ing AGAIN!!! wth! i love STEPHANIE TAN LI FEN! she wen with me!!! plus ma parents who fetched me dere n waited for me!!! wow! but it was a SHITY day o THURSDAY! i THIS WEEK AGAIN! i feel happy as this week is gone!! but it also draws near to the end of year dan it is HOLIDAYS! yayness!! okie i am outs!!!! PUMPED OUT!!!! super tired... need ma rest!!!! I AM LOST IN THE WORLD OF MISERIES!

THE COAL BURNS..
LETTIN OUT FUMES OF POLLUTION!
WE WERE ONCE THE CLEAR BLUE SKY..
BUT EVER SINCE DAT COAL STARTED BURININ...
OUR LIFES SOON TURNS BLACK
N YES POLLUTED N BROKEN!!
OUR ONCE SO CALL-ED EVER GOOD FRENS ARE NOW SHATTERED..
M LIFE IS GONE..
I LOK AT U..
U GAVE ME DAT "dO I NOE U" LOOK..
OKIE BE DAT WAY..
HOW I WISH DAT COAL WILL STOP BURNIN
SOON EVERYTHING WILL BE LIKE THEY USE TOOOOO..

I MISS MA BABY!!! all I EVER WANTED WAS u!
ALL I EVER THOT WAS JUS U N ME!
I BELIEVE ONE DAY..
SOMEDAY..
U'LL NOE WAT I MEAN..
LEAVE ME ALONE..
I NEED MA .............
THE ONLY ONE WAY I NOE IS DEATH..
YES ALL MA MISERIES SET ASIDE....

I LOVE GOD WITH ALL MA HEART!!!
YES I ALSO DO LOVE MA FAMILY N FRENS..
I LOVE U TOO...

looks like a new day?

2005-09-21T20:40:00.000+08:00

okie okie! thing arent gettin better lar! n it is not rite at ALL! wth!
okie ppl are really gettin on ma nerves boy!!! let me jus warn u ppl who did this!! if u dare to CAOP n PASTE ppl's BLOG n show it ard dun mke me find out hu u r bt i am sure if i do u sooo freakin DEAD! cos it is wrong!! i am super pissed at many things!! ma napfa! n something else!! many other stuffs... %^&*ing piss! so %^&*ing hell get out if u dun like to see this!!! stop harrassing ma BLOG! u are a HAZARD to it! HYPOCRITE! okie i ahd enuf for teh past few weeks!!! u think u super cool lar? well i am tellin u AINT!! not one BIT! i am freakin agonised by all!!! how would u feel if did dat to u n showed it to ALL!!! u like lar! let me try tellin everyone abt ya **** lil secret! cos u are seriously gettin on ma nerves!! actin cute all!!! hello cute : ugly but adorable!! even if it is... u aint adorable! BACKOFF boy! n ppl u can stop askin y too.. :) everything change! duin ask me but ****************************************************************.... yay!!! sadness grieves!

did rock climbin n it was SUPER FUN!! yay! climb to the top! heheh! weex. yupx.. dan tml is art!! we gonna present n act out LIL MERMAID!!

i am outs on this!!!
weak on the inside..
jelly in teh knees..
everybody chokes now..

baby boy how i widhed u were mine

2005-09-18T18:43:00.000+08:00

Baby Boy lyrics
From the day that I saw you
I knew that we would pursue
Cause the chemistrywe felt that day
Felt so real, and so true
Looking back on a year
we spent together
How it’s been, what we went through
Although we’ve had ourlittle ups and downs
We’ve still pulled through

Baby girl you’re my world my everything
I wanna lace you with diamonds and every ring
Give you everything you dream and fantasize
Cause you can tell me that you love me
Looking in my eyes
You keep it real with me,
I keep it real with you
You keep on loving me,
I’ll keep on loving you
Keep doing what you do,I feel your whole aura
And I can’t wait to hook up again tomorrow baby -

My love for you will never end
You’ll always be a part of me
As long as time keepson passing by
You’ll always be my baby boy.
Everytime I look at you,
I can’t believe
I’ve found a love so true (and)
I took my time to putmy trust in you
I must admit it was so hard to do
And every minute that
I spend with you
You make me believe
I have nothing to loose and
Deep down I always knew that you would be mine

Do you believe in destiny
Because I got a funny feeling this was meant to be
Without you I’d be lost,
I need you next to me
Preferably in the house full of luxuries and little kids
From day one I was sprung,knew you was gonna be one
Cause my heart spoke for the very first time in a long while
And every time you smile,
I can see us walking up the aisle with you carrying my child
C’mon

If you were to go,
I don’t know
You’re the only one who sweeps me off my feet
Makes my soul go weak
The only one who makes my heart wanna beat and I,
I could never live without you
You know that what I feel has to be true
Cause you’re my, my sweet love
Ever since the first time,
that I looked into your eyes
I knew that you were gonna be mine
Feeling you from the inside,
when you’re not by my side
You’re the only girl that’s on my mind
I never knew a love like this,
a love so strong
A vision so picture perfect it could never be wrong
Along the way, you’re gonna see you belong with Jay
I might have to marry you one day baby eh..

stillitisthesame.
nothingwillchangeaslongasyouarethere!

wen to mass with sam hyaz mel n lydia! hahha! dan walk-ed n bus-ed to j8.. so funny lar.. was with sam n hyaz! ate macs dan studied at coffee bean! wah super cold dere lar! shsh!! shivers... mine oh mine.. anyways still the saem old thing.. we never said a word! not one hi nor bye! uh uh!!! maybe look but not talk! how i miss ya so much!! haiz.. :'( must life b like this? wat have i done? i changed..... tears fickled down ma cheeks.... endless darkness.. where is the light?? jesus walk with me thruogh this!!! i'll survive.. i hope.... for thou shall be jouyous.. dun lie to me pls... i've been honest... corruption..!!!

bitterly i cry.... i M JUS SOOOOO LOST WITHOUT U!!! THE IGNORANCE IS GIVINME SUCH A HARD TIME TO LIVE.. NO ONE CAN EVER CHEER ME UP.. MAYBE.... JUS FOR A WHILE BUT SOON EVERYTHIG JUS REMINDS ME OF U!!!! JUS KILL ME INSTEAD I AM FAR BETTER OFF DEAD DAN TO SEE MYSELF SUFFERIN ALL THESE PAIN... YES IT IS UINBARABLE... SO FOR WAT $%^& ARE U LIKE DAT... U CHANGE... I HEARD EVERYTHING.. BLAME ON ME.. I CHOOSE TO HEAR CHOOSE TO SUFFER WAT U SAID N HOW U REACTED... YES I %^&*ING LIVE MA LIFE LIKE THIS.. I CHOOSE TO BE THIS WAY!!! SO FOR WAT %^&* AM I CRYIN FOR?! I JUS CANT................................................ I DUN WANNA LOSE ANOTHER FREN LIKE U....... I LIVE A SLOW DEATH... SLOWLY PART OF ME JUS FADES... THE VISION OF MA LIFE IS NOTHIN MORE BUT DARKNESS TIL ONE DAY I COLLASPE N DIE... DAT DAY WILL I BE WAITIN FOR.. TO LIVE IN SUCH AGONY NOTHIN MORE SHALL I WAN.... PLS DUN LEAVE ME LIKE THIS... THE BEAT PLAYS.. IT'S SLOW.... SLOWLY U HEAR IT FADING. COMIN TO AN END.. DUN QUESTION ME DUN ASK ME... DUN BOTHER ME... FORGET ABT ME... EVERYTHING WAS ONCE PERFECT DERE WAS NO WORRIES BUT NOW IT IS BURNIN!!! IT IS ALL GONE... U WERE DERE WWEN I NEEDED U! U HELPED A LOT.. N YES I DO OWE U A LOT.. MAYBE MA LIFE?? I AM LOSIN HOPE FAITH N COURAGE TO FACE U! I AM AFRAID OF LOSIN U! COS I NOE I CANT.. FOR HW LONG WAS IT ALREADY! I CAN GO ON SAYIN ALL THIS... U COULD B READIN IT.. MAYBE NOT COS I THINK U NEVER COME ONLINE NO MORE... YES I WAS WRONGG.. WRONG IN EVERYTHING I EVER DONE... EVERYTHING EVEN THE SMALLEST THING EVER... READ THE PREVIOUS POST MAYBE U'LL UNDERSTAND OR MAYBE NOT.. I NOE... U HAVE GIVEN UP ON ME............................... I WISH SOMEONE WAS HERE WITH ME.....

a week gone! FINALLY! sadness..

2005-09-16T23:19:00.000+08:00

yayneesss!!! this week is OVER!! get dat OVER! spell it O V E R! over!! hoo hoO! super happy boy! i jus dun feel rite anymmore.. i have lost someone so important!!!! how can it be! wat did i do??!! i tried many ways to get it rite but somehow nth seems to work! i waited n waited yet i am the one losin out!!! #$%& life i've got for now maybe forever!! i seriously HOpE it is not!! i wanna enjoy ma youth! i dun wana to lose out on stuff i did not do! i wanna do many things n expreinece other leisures! rock climbin which was postponed to next monday! WTF! goodnes! again lar! grrsh... playin the DRUMS!! yes i have waited for this very long! rachel is gonna teach me after the exams though! heehee! happy man! n i dun noe but i'll think of it soon! i am lost after losin dat special someone! we have not talk for days! as it seems! not SMSing nor CAlling! haiz! someday i could jus ------------------... it is a secret! i shall not teellll dun botehr askin too! no matter hu u r be it ma sis i would not tell!!! cos i jus feel like i am a LETDOWN to dat someone!!!! ENUF ENUF! the painful memories! hmm this week is super super strssful lar! borin classes n so many test! CHINESE test which was today! forget abt me passin it boy! i practically answer it the super short way! i could not even understand wat on earth dey were askin! boy o boY! grrsh! chinese jus aint ma typee!!! goodness!! i can do without chinese jus fine! learnin the basics will do! i am satisfied! wen to charismatic today too!! to accompany hyaz! hehehe!!! kinda okie in the begginingg but as it comes to the preechin part it boreess me!!! yes i was feelion COLD!! super!! ask Hyaz n gary!!! wat the hell!!! i was shiverin lar! goodness! sam ma loapo n mel was der too n also jowerl n nick! hmmx.. yea.. i felt weird goin dere!!!! like first time!! but it was kinda okie lar!! jus wanted to get away from the cold! hahha!!! shivers down me spine!!! after youth mass bus-ed down to tp central with hyaz sam mel gary jowerl n nick!! it was kidna fun lar!! did silly stuff!! hyaz treated me to ice-cream! o mine!!!!! ice-cream??? goodness!! i hang-ed upside down on the monkey bar!!! yay!!! i still can do!! didnt noe i still could do it!! i thot i lost touch to playgrounds especiall the bar!! heehee!! so happy! tickled mel until she fell on the floorr hahahah!hahahhaha!!! super funny!!! she felll dan it was ma loapo turn!! chased her al over yes finally we caught her n gave her a real good tickle!!! hurray! the guys were sick!!! dey shld very well noe dat gals hate cockroaches! dey jus had to scare us with one!! gary was cruel he wen to lock the cockroach in this box n it was dirty dey didn wash deir hands!! ewww gross!!!! ewww ewwww!! gross!! gary is such a loser!!! like to act innocent all!!! shsh!! aall the silly heads!!! we were liike an illegal gang at teh playground! hahhaha!! sittin like one too but i did not!! white pants dun wanna stain it! hahah!! smart arent i??!! outs on this!!! fun though!

now talk abt sch!! maybe not sch as in work but ffrens!!! hahha!! today we formed the PLANs!! yes yes!! uh huh!!! marcie the cheif NOT NOT NOT!!! she says "stapler as "staprer! goodess how did u even say it???! hahah! dere was PLAN D1 -duck08- PLAN D2 -denyse- PLAN F -felicia- PLANB K -karin LUMP- PLAN M -marcieduck03- n last but not least PLAN R! ME lar! hahah lame!! but yea super funny lar our wooosshh!!! hahaa! PLANssss WOOSSSSHHHH!! hahhaah! in lit n hist class! lame...mdn hassanh made me read the answer to question 3 in front of the class sayin ma voice very loud!! WTH!!! not lor... so long the answer it was an inference question!! oh my GAWD!! can die readin to think i was readin a gal's answer n she was whom i did not like!! she insulted me wen i did not even noe her!! #$%^! nvm... forgive n forget!!! i am nice too to do ndat! iwas havin a bad day after recess!! wah lau!!! i...... lallala!! tooo bad!!! aint gonna say shit!
wen to CP to lunch n all... studied at Cp too outside 7-11 hahha!! did ma stupid project D&T steph n rach helped! THANKS TO U GUYS! MY WORK IS LIGHTENED! hehehe! n rach steph teh so-called EXPERT could not draw a nice guitar shape i coudl not ttoooo of coss!!! but teh expert made so many error n finally it was DONE!!!! wth!!!! it is done yay yay!! thank u STEPH! hahah! bus-ed back hm! 156!! met phyllis! my long lost darlin!! found out something!! shshs!! grrrsshsh.. phy phy i am soooo sooo sad for ya!!! haiz!!! u'll have me!! dun wry abt dat %^&*( u shld noe lar!!! lets tok someday! really miss ya !! n ya think ya verry cool lar cut exactly as ya twin!! i almost couldn't recognise! hahha! oh wellss.. dan dan steph n me were creatin a DIn in the bus!!!! flasher all!!! shsh!!! i was like laughin n laughin n laughin laughin!!!! wah stomach ache!!!!! shshsh!! stupid steph!! still wanna show me someday on how she flashes!!! "so sexy" hahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahah!!! pa-lease get urself a rm!!! hahahahah!! everyone stared at steph n me!!!! whooppsss.. sry lar!!! funny wat!! u dun expect me tooo sit dere like a GOONDU not knowin wat is happenin! SHSHS!!! liveless PPL! i wanna relief all teh tension in muah cannot arh!! i love stephhh to bits!!!!! she lightens me a lot!!!! thanks DALRIN! hahah!!!

stop stop stop!! i shall stop!!! rantin n rantin!! notice it is all rubbish!! due to teh fact dat i was grounded!!! oh lalal!!! happy hour boy!

will sayin sry help??!!

will it?

cos if it does tell me!!

i would say sry for teh rest of me life..

jus dun leave me...

i am sry for wat i did..

i jus dun wat it to happen?

would u jus tell me?

i would change for the world!!!!

i am sry *****

dun bother countin the * u wont noe hu..

my sun wont shine since u ran away..

since like the rain fallin everyday!

there's jus one hope..

dat's the words comin from u.,..

i wana noe wat ya feelin...

dat's the way its gotta be..

until maybe one day but i hope it would

till i get over u!!

sry sry sry!!!!

would u forgive me??

i am hatin everyday

i am losin everyday

y cant i have a normal day!!!

wat A DAy plus NIGHT!

2005-09-09T23:30:00.000+08:00

haha! guess wat! i wen tp sch an hour later! class started at 9 but marcie told me 10 so i slack-ed n lefgt house at 9 plus plus reach sch at 10!! hahah! an hour late! goodness! but he didnt say no shit abt us bein late! he jus marked the attendance regina n marcella late! yea duck denyse n jolene all laughin at us! so embarassin lar! walk-ed into class like dat! -covers face n runs- heehehe! tried to understand wat on earth he was tryin to say! hahha! math math! wat substitution n elimination! alamak! my brains are wrecked! worse still was dat he was teachin us menSTURAtion! hahah!marcie full of nonsnese! spill the water all over ma ass! geee. tsk tsk! did our math game presentation! n dam him! he dun wanm to let us go! mus wait for everybody to do! grrr... so angry! walk ard sch whiile others did finsih deirs! stupid! stay in sch for nth! grrr.. ruchin off to play soccer with hyaz teh piigggy gary n his bro! haha! so late! left sch only at 12 GUESS WAT THE BUS ALL LATE ALSO! wow fate boy! grrrsh! rush-ed home bath all! hyaz n me was like msgin each other wat tp wear all! hahahha! lame but yea! stupid piggy keep askin me to FASTER! grrsh! hahah! aint ma fault! teacher dun let us go! bus came late! n i had to get ready! heehee! but but but u noe wat??!!!! hyaz was later by a few mins! jhahahahah!!! lalalalalal! i earlier! stupid piggy think i blind canot see him from a far! saw one tall stick runnin into the void deck! shsh! too bad too sad! hahaha! nia nia nia! found u! hahah! lame! waited for hyaz! dan walked across to see actually!! wth u dun expect me to play soccer with PROs! goodness! embarassin! dun wan dun wan dun wan!! heehee! but after much hesitation we played only wen were abt to go home! actually not us but the KING had to go! so we wen too!! okie one thing i found out was dat gary likes to act innocent! hahah! n piggy??? oh mine! annoyin! heehee! i didnt mean to say dat! lalalal! dun bully gals arh!!!!! i warn u! had to the kicks! cos iggy forced hyaz n me! instead of the goal i hit HYAZ first GARY TWICE n dan back shot to IGGY! hahahah! wow! fantastic! scored one goal only! eww.. i am so bad at soccer!!! goodnes! man! but it was kinda fun! one thing i regret was dat we shld have played from the start! heehee! lalala! sry lor.. promise to play next time! gee.. i heard someone screamed today too! like a GAL! guess hu?! HMM HMM.... drummm rrrooollll paaa lleeaaasseeee! IGGY! hahaha! so so so high! -cover ears!- whose the man??!!! we also kena sabo today but some aunty! shant say no more! but yea! blady hell! complain complain! grrsh! hahha! yayness! wen back so tired dat i fell asleep on ma guitar! sis called to go shoopin! she went berserk over this! spent dun noe how muh! i almost died! waitin for her to be done at j8 stand dere like some fool for 1/2 hour! man! legs all achin! but i was kinda rewarded! she bought me two 3/4 pants! yay!! so happy! new pants! she even made me tried on super mini skirts! wah lau! cannot even walk properly lar! ewww.. so fat! hahah! crazy! bought pants instead! lalal! one white the other jeans! hahha! lalal! so happy! sis bought her necklace top n pants!! yes i can take n wear!! heehee! how smart am i! today i was super --SMART-- get dat! --SMART-- liike not laR! tsk tsk!! oh wells! train-ed n bus-ed back home!! legs all achin! outs--

wat's love gotta to do with anything?

it is about us

about trust!

tallkin on the freeway.

crusin it the high way..

down with the frown..

but be with a crown!

happy memories...

gullable gals!

fun was wat we had..

would we still be sad?

nAH!

'loveyatillforever'

had a lot of fun today! in sch with marcie

soccer with hyaz iggy n gary! hahah!

bored..

2005-09-06T15:56:00.000+08:00

hoo hoo! woke up at like nearly 12! shiok man dun need to wake up for sch! sch os such a bore except wen dere is trainin even though at times it can be borin! like yesterday... wah.. ran 25 runs in 16 mins plus! ALOMOST DIEd! I WAS SUPER TIRED! dan we cheered on maltida! my buddy anne.vanessa.monique.celeste and me was runnin with her so we ran extra the whole team was cheerin for her! n we had p3 jumpin jac came! kkinda fun exept for some.. haha all teh shariN! weird! miss dewi was our experiment!! whooppz.. after trainin wen top Cp to grap a sip or shld i say MACFLURRY! hahah! me n dele shared.. met up with dewi bay n shokie! SHOKIE finally visited us! hehehe.. goin out with her agian too see the mans play netball at TP this saT! me bay n her! hope it will b fun! it better be i am goin to whack lil miss MONKU for whackin me while umpirin! alamak! any o HOW whack everywhere! MONKU! hahah! suppose to be MONKEY! monkey see monkey do!! hahah! MONKU SEE MONKU DO! hahahah! backside! yupz.. train-ed back to serangoon with bay deannah n dewi! deannah was actin like a kid my junior FYI! shshs! dewi said something wrong! hoohoo! "will she even have one??" oh mine deannah kill her! hahahahah! so funny laughin in the train all! had fun at macs too! anne gina my action mama adele n katrina! hahha! quite fun lar! laughin tooz.. today really laughin! made a fool of myself durin trainin! aNNE sabo ME!!! my own BUDDY!!!! grrrr..

outs..

sry steph..

one way jesus!!

u're the only one that i could live for..

you are the way

the truth

and the light

we live by faith n not by sight for u

we're livin all for u!

i am hopeful for today!

2005-09-04T18:33:00.000+08:00

YO! todays cat class was abt sexuality! hahah! eww.. kinda funny a.. learnin it from cat class.. but dey wanted to teach us where the church stand in sexuality hmmz.. it was really really helpful learn a few more STD! hahah! gross... shsh! cancer this n dat cannot cure this n daT! alamak! life is such a BLISS! hahah! slcak in church after cat class! wen to youth room with sam lydia hyaz mel! yupz.. kinda fun lar playin guitar all n the so called HANG MAN! hahah! gee.. funny lar.. the theme was movies dan change to songs.. dan it was time for sam n hyaz for deir shift to sell teh youth shirt! super cool lar! bought onE! heheh :) pls get one.. it is real nice.. hahah! helped ard a abit!! saw two small small children! super cute! one was like strummin the guitar! hahha! "ROCKSTAR" oppz. dam cute.. hahah! lunch-ed at jalan laban if dats how u spell it! ot was rainin! someone is cryiN! whoopps.. k i am super bored! crappin here! came home n did some revision! good gal! tml got sch! NO NO!! some kind of SCH HOLIDAY i have! shsh! extra lessons n trainin! doin defends! this whole week defends! shsh! oh well can improve in mid play! dat is it for today! but but yesterday i wen for youth maSS! hahah! quite okie lar! come to think abt it it was kinda fun! sam hyaz celesther diana nicolee both nicole was dere! hmmz.. wen to canteen n eat!! JOANNA made a fool of herself! shshs! goondu lar she.. i said modellin n she said MORNIN MASS!! GAWD??!!! we were like laughin! hahah i even showed her theaction n she can ctill say : today got mornini mass meh? -shakin her shoulders- hahahahahahahahahahahahaha!!!!!!!sam hyaz n myself was like laughin n she was laughin at herself also! hahah! some kind of goondU! hahah! everyone was glarin at us! whoopps.. all her fault! kevin was actin like a GU NIANG! goodness a towel round his head! sayin i got loog hair! RUBBISH! messed it still! hehehe! :) -peace- slack in church again dan off i wen home! wen to TP to collect my stuff n dinner-ed some where in TP! hahah! nth much!
now i have to say this! the day i hate the most! 2nd september 2005 FRIDAY! I HATE THIS DAy! grrrrrrr.. broke down in sch so many @#&* ing times! baldy shit! LIVIN HELL!!!!!!!! i hate it! i jus cant live this way any more! WEARIN THE PROTOTYPE UNIFORM! GET A LIFE U AINT GONNA WEAR DAT! no no NO NO NO NO! MY BELT IS HIGH ENUF! Wat new uniform aint rich! i aint so stop askin me to BUY! i noe where my belt is! i dun need no one to teach me! pa lease! look at others dan come find me! i am sure u can find better students! gross! pa leasE! SHSHSH! dread goin to sch! uh huh! I DO I DO! two other issues arose! @#&*ing two more! b;ady shit! progress book is out! n hell yea other stuff! shit out my eyes was ragin with fire super red from all those emotional crisis! enuf is enuf!

ever since dat day..

i knew someday u would say....

everthing was out of its way....

have u ever seen??

wat have i done wrong..?

nth have i prolong...

this trail is fadin..

the leaves scatterin..

this day on..

i noe u'll be gone..

after so many years!!!

it is a disease

i am findin for a cure..

but nth seems to work..

face to face

hand on hand..

voice to voice!!

none of this???

wat is it dat keeps u like this?

wat wat wat???

the pain.........................................

wat if tml never seems to come?

n it jus ends here like this..

the dark clouds

the rain..
the sunny days are over..

u never seem to care..

i am left with none..

jus one..

me myself and I!

if i were to crawl....??

to cry..

to beg..

to scream..

to run a thousand miles......

will u jus end it like dat?

-tears-

-endless flow of tears-

-sandess darknees my life through out..-

-longin for my light dat once shone beyond the horizon-

teacher's + aces + belated youth DAY!

2005-08-31T20:53:00.000+08:00

okie today was like dam fun arh! i wanted to go sch later so decided to sleep in a lil ;ater but still i reach sch teh same time! MAN! so early nth to do lucky darlin steph was in sch! hehe.. had teacher's day mass n yea i was sittin so near to teh teachers... man! dan cannot use aherm aherm! k mass was borin wen the priest was preachin! no offence! sry but the SONGS were great! "ONE WAY JESUS UR THE ONLY ONE I COULD LIVE FOR!" hahah! dam NICE was enjoyin myself! n marcie was super noisy! she was eager to see us eat the "bread" dat DCUK! hah! shsh! NOISY LIL DCUK! haha! after mass we had ACES day work out! boy was dat fun! we didnt do the proper wan though! we were doin it the retro stlye.. hahha! GROOVY! hmmz.. dan kick everyone's BUTT!!! denyse was BOXIN n KICKIN MINE!!! arh! LUMP n DCUK was steppin on my feet! i had to jump! hah! some kind of FOOL! HAH SUPER LAME! dan we were perspiriong alot lar! hahah! seel lar dannce kick box !! :) dan we had teachers day celebration!
DAM FUN! but only some of teh classes were nice! oppz! hah! after dat we had SJC IDOL!!!!!!! hahahhaha!!! wat the!! presented to us by our teachers! hahha! BELATED YOUTH DAY!! n the judges : mr. christopher SIMON! hah! wat??!! MRS cindy PAULA! n miss mary something i forget!! but she was actin like teh DAWG! hahha! dam... funny! mr SIMON was annoyin! MR SIM!!!! hahaH! shsh! the singers were all tearchers lar! n teh advertisments! GAWD dam FUNNY! all i noe i enjoyed myslef screamin my head OFF!!! almost died!! my voice all! hahha! maddy lost herss... who ask her!!! super fun! mrs khoo was doin one night in beijing! she was singin for teh male n female part! man! it was super COOL! mrs ratna was doin beautiful but twinkle stars version! miss tay was a ROCK STAR!!!!!! hahah! RED LONG HAIR!!!! SUPER COOL LAR! hahahah! hshshs! after everything wen to give out prezzies to ST CATHERINE teachers! hahah! made brownies for MRS LIM YU-DONG! hahah! n miSS dewi! my coach!! she wanted it! tsk tsk! bake cookies for frens! not much! hahha! sry lar not all have heheh... :) wen to town with steph tan steph bay rach celeste qi en n cathy! hahah! dam fun lar! hahha! silly cathy! n rach always sayin she IS CHIO!!! RACHEL U ARE SUPER CHIO!!!! BUTIT ONLY HAPPENS IN YA DREAMS!!!! hahahah!!! oppz.. steph tan bought alot if things! super rich for the DAY! gee!!! walked around FAR EAST! shop to shop n we came out empty handed! didnt brin enuf cash! oh wells.. nvm.. next time perhaps! walk walk walk walk!!! tirin man! i needed heaven! legs all achin! so wen to macS! bought ice cream cone! HAHA! CATHY HAD TO BUY!!! small gal gal! qi en bought COKE! hahha! was eatin my ice cream!! celeste takin first position steph tan 2nd n i third cathy not even forth! not even half way! silly head! so loonngggg! dan i caught up to 2 place! dat leaves steph tan to third!! CATHY STILL NOT HALF DONE!! spo i counted to ten!!! 1 2 dan she quickly lick up!!! we dun care we left teh place! cathy had to lick hers where we go! hahah! lalalla!! :) qi en said something really weird today at macs n CATHY had to add oON!!! ewww! GROSS lar.. we like laughin! hahah! off we went tom PP!! ADIDAS!! yes but not much! nvm.. walked around inside the mall! saw many stuff i wan but teh price was super NICE too!! it will take months!! so out io wen!!!! cannot tahan!! dan go homeeeee.... yay!!! fiannly after a long long daY! super tired! my finger still hurts! shshs! stupid me!! jus had to place my finger in a way the machine would hurt me! dam sandin machine! my SKIN!! arh!!! DARN! hurray tml goin out to SWIM n maybe if i can make it to the movies! hehe.. shld be fun bu we aint watchin teh maid! oh wells!! free of scary terror MOVIES!! MUAH HAHAH!! lalala! anywys i shall end..

NO NO NO!!!
dUN u LIE!!
u are stiLL doin DAT!
it aint gettin any better!
like i would noe if u never did SAY A WORD!!!!
I aint some kind of fortune teller!!!
wou;d i noe a SHIT!!!
this is JUS so rubbish!
i cant take it no more
i wan the truth!
I WAN IT REAL BAD
wat is gointhru ur HEAD!!
wat wat!!!!!
it was never ever this way!
i never had to feel this way ever!
not once but y now?
WHY DID IT EVEN HAPPEN!
SPEAK!!!!!!!!!!
MAN!
SHIT-ed out..

today! vatican!

2005-08-28T18:53:00.000+08:00

wen for mass! 9.45am! man! i woke up! i cant believe it! i actually did wake up but still i met celestine celesther n nicole n lil late! but hyaz was later! hah! wen upstairs! okie was laughin in mass! haha! look at celesther! she os blowin her nose agaiN! haha :) dan my n hyaz saw this cute lil boy boy! dam cute lar! hah! laugh all! hah! dan met up the class to go for vatican thingy! sheryl made me the leader! boy oo boy!!! y me?NVM! it was kinda broin though but i learn quite alot!! hha! stuff which i didnt even noe or would ever exist! how stupoid can i get?? i think SUPER! hah! dan celestine had to give dat pig his prezzie! wat in teh world did she say i du noe! it better not be.. haha! :) yup yupzzz... off we wen to raffles city! lunch-ed ay burger king! was dam full lar! cannot finish tje fries! haha! :) all of us bought the same! except celesther! hahah! :) walk-ed around! sam lydia hyaz mel bought ice cream.. dan met up with sheryl dan the guys got lost! haha! oppz.. actually dey wen to buy stuff! like wat teh hell! we saw dem runni to some place naughyt naughty! okie kinda had fun lar! haha! was laughin n bullyin sherman! hahah! he is dam funny lar! n he is gay with iggy! hahahah! sheryl said so too.. wait but she said iggy was jus gay! hahah! :) lala! gals: sam nicole lydia hyaz mel n me! guys: iggy justin gary dennis i cant rmb hu else!! oppz! hhaha! okie we bullies sherman! took his ice cream n smear it on his hands n fingers! haha! eww he licked it! i mean his hand! eeewww gross! we were screamin n runnin away froim him! he got us! as in he wiped it on us! gross! shsh! dan he wiped it on the guys n hte guys didntn noe! hahah! such silly peepss! haha! :) dan mel had to go hm! so all the gals wen too! hahah! at this point of time! some stuff really did happened!! silly i would have to admit! n gross too! goodbyes to sheryl n cheryl n sherman the guys?? er.. hmmm! nvm.. took teh train! n boy were we quiet!! NOT NOT! hjahah! ppl stared at us! haha! oppz.kinda fun! left sam n lydia n mel on the train! hah! bye byes! sat at the bus stop! talkin abt teh maid! hu to call all! i doubt i can make it thouggh cos i got project! hahah! :) sry! msg kinda alot of ppl! n missed so many buses! maN! alot lar! like 4! haha! cos of some msges! NICOLE! dan cheryl showed up with the DAO GOONDU IGGY! pretend dun noe us! ohh finE! hahaa :) lalal! hyaz cheryl n iggy bus came!! waaa so fasT! where is ONE FIVE SIX!
darn bus! finally it came.. me n nicole was talkin n talkin!! dan my stOP! hahaa i alighted but my conversation was not finished! NVM! haha! kie i am out for now..
off to dinner! hahah!

love ya loadS!
nothin is impossible!

endless flow of tears!

2005-08-26T22:21:00.000+08:00

this week started our real FINE!!! so not! like wat de hell! wat did i ever do???!!! wat wat! i am sry for wat i have caused u! i noe it is my fault yes blame it all on me!!! i dun care jus as long as u dun ignore teh shit hell out of me! i noe i've wrong-ed in many ways! i cant change daT! but i can change the present n prevent the past from comin up! i didnt noe dat all those late notes would lead u to a dead end! i am SRY!!!!! pls dun push it on others round me! i noe!!!! u wanna get away from me so dat i wont let u down agaiN! yes i am sry! FUCKIN sry... i didnt mean to do anythign wrong!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! argH! so now??? wat??? u are goin to avoid me at all cost! wen i tok to u.. u turn away n even ignore wat i sadi! wen i need ur help u jus walked away?? huh??? was dis even u!!!! i dun think sO!!!! where was the ever so carin n helpful part of U??? i dun noe... wat was it???? oh!!! pls tell me!! release me from this anxiety! i du think i can live with it,, no ,.. not much longer! everything is soo torn apart!!! i cant live with this emptiness in me! do u noe how long it took me???? do u noe how much tears...???? do u noe wat i am goin thruouggh??? do u DO U!?!?!?!? jus tell me... i am tremblin inside! yes it is all the inside of me... my life is SO FUCK-Ed up... i think worse dan anyone could have imagine! i cant take it!!! wenever i tok to u... u dun seem to give a hack about it... u jus llok at me n turn away!!!! yes yes! U! -jaws drop- was this even u? n u r turnin away from us? wat is the fuckin reason for doin this sooooo... all the empty spaces!!!!! i feel awkward n speechless ard u... u left me and ****** away! u shut us! i am sry!!!!!!!!!!!!! jus dun do this... i feeellll feelll like... i can never stop thinkin abt those actions n words! no no I CANT! i am backfired!!! i cant go on like this! ****** n me has been sufferin!!! sufferin from al this shit dat has been happeniN!!!!! oh man! i tried like i never knew u! but somehow i cant... but wat means? n no one sense it??? no one!!!!! grrrrrrrrr. this is not only u!! but others rite? i can jus tell!!!! no no!!!!!!!!!!!! SCREAMS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! fallin back to my endless life of miseries!!!!!!!!!!! the ghost is back... will i fall back in the clutches of the DEVIL?? no!!! i cant.. i love u too dearly... for how long have we known each other? ------------------------------ teh death sentence... today was fuckin screwed! i jus dun noe y! the tears kept on fallin i dared not tell anyone except ****** yes her... no one! I COULDNT THINK OF ANYONE ELSE AS I NOE SOMETHIN WORSE MIGHT HAPPENN.... all this while!!!!! no... :"( :"( :"( :"( :"( :"( :"( :"( :"( :"( :"( :"( :"( :"(!!!

dat deep cut..
dat deep hurt..
dat one last not...

will it ever be gone..
will i be alone?
who will it fond?

i am on my own..
it is hard to let gooo..

thinkin of u..
n i made known with u..
yet many dreams still yet not true...

i close my eyes..
i still feell the pain
wen i hear ur name..

my light has yet not shine..

has yet not glow..

cos i have missed the chance of gettin it..

the true love birds of a thousands years..

dat sun will neither shine nor glow..

ever since the rain has not stop rainin!!!

yes dat rain.. dat tears..

yes dat one hope...

livin the last days of my life!!!

2005-08-21T21:15:00.000+08:00

boo!!!! yes today wen for 9.45 mass! okie it was world youth day! gawd! it was alrite lar! except a few moments durin mass! hahahaha so furnie! LLALA! hmmz dan after mass slack in church until 12 ++ cos we waited with lydia n mel! haha! :) while waitin! crazy ppl do crazy stufF! haha! sam hyaz mel lydia celestine celesther n me! excludin me! dey took pics at teh starecase! CRAZY! hahah! i was the photographer as usual! i hate takin pics! eww! i dun like look like a fool! hahah! oppz! :) i jus complimented myself.. hahaa! off we went to celestine hse for pasta! okie her pasta was alrite! hahah! nicer with tomato sacue HAHA.. hmm den slck derE! PLAYED THE GUITAR! sam learnin teh guitar! okie at the hse dam furnie lar! sam wen mad! hahah! u dun wanna noe... hahah! all i noe it was so furnie! we took a video of it but deleted it! off me sam n hyaz to J8.. dun wanan go back scared of gettin hurt! haha! so wen to J8! hahaha dan walked ard.. hahaha! sam broke something! n hyaz had goosebums doin teh massager! HAHAH! shsh! furnie.. i wanna buy the grey elephant! haha! it is SOOOOOOOOOOOO SHOOOOOO SHOOO SUPER CUTE! gawd! hahah! cutie! but it is SOOO SOO EX! haiZ! h hyaz is gettin it! so not fair! hmmpft! hahha! daddy fetched me hoome for protection! hahha! jus in case i dun get hurt fom a monster.. oppz.. dinner-ed at serangoon central! fries wan ton mee! NOT DAT NICE THOUGH! oh wells.. now it is terror time! goin home! no no no no no no! argh! screm my lungs out! she is goin to start all her nonsense! but she did! she has once again find fault with me! argh! this time it is stupid! IT IS WITH clothes!!! LIKE WAT THE fuck! CLOTHES ALSO WANNA FIGHT! YA YA UNGRATEFUL I AM! yes yes !!! gawd! all she ever noes is ungrateful! now let b grateful! i thank her for my HANDPHONE n the bILLS she pays come of the clothes she buys! HAPPY NOW?!! haven i said enuf.? i think i have! i may have miss out some of them now i shall tis! : I THANK HER FOR V EVRYTHING SHE HAS DONE DAT BENIFITED ME!!!! THANK YOU SO MUCH!! gawd! enuf is enuf! wishin to be a bird to fly away! runnnin away from everything! flyin in the SUN! gone!

look in to my eyes..
look wat exactly u mean to me..
search ur heart
serach ur soul..
n wen u finally noe..
u will search no more..
i'll comin runnin into ur arms..
where dere is nth else to hide..
dereis nth i wan more..
i noe it is true..
i'll sacrifice..!!
wont anyone tell me?

i'll dance my way..
livin like as if i was in paradise..
will dan my bee come to me
like i was the bee?
i look right to ur eyes.
dere is another paradise..
another life ahead of u..
at a distance..
a perfect match!
inseperable!
think twice...
it's another day in paradise!!!
wat was the perfect way jus to get ot u?
i wished i knew..
i am jus so confused!

wat did i do? cant i live?

2005-08-20T22:09:00.000+08:00

wen out with sis n her frens all guys! gawd! hahah! studied at gardens did the math and my compo! okie thanks to thios guy i finished my math! lucky he came! okie dan dere was a fight in the study room at the club! my sis n japhette! these ppl! shsh! CHILDISH! haha! furnie! hmm dan wen to play lan games but i left half way.. dad came to pick me up! reached hm! this was terror!! parents started fightin for some shit reason! i cannot tahan! i hate my mum! everytime find fult with me n my dad! llike wateva! fuck off! better still kill me n sent me farawy from u! i dun have to face all ur stupud accusations! everytime everything! jus back off from! ya say wateva u waN! yea i am rude ungrateful selfish stubborn an idiot! wait BLADY IDIOTda ts wat u said! continue! continue! keep up a good work! u r sure goin to get a good job! a job namin: mockin ur family! n screwin deir heads off! oh ya u can also scream ur way through me! i''ll tkae all dat! i make u sure u get it back! maybe not cos i am jus nice not too! i leave it to u! decide wat ya wan to do wth me! sent me to london or canada or australia where my cousins are!! better still sen me to hell where dey would teach me a lesson of bein humiliated at! wat a great life i have! i had enuf this week! u dun need to add on to the list of troubles! i've got enuf work in sch alreadY! teachers are givin lots off things to do! plus i am commited to my CCA i;ve got no time for u!!!! no more! u wanna scold me scold me wen i am aslepp! i dun ahve to hear a single worD cos i am enjoyin myself in my lala land! wherer i see many of my islands! PARADISE! only wen u come dan it turns into nightmare! where usee who i love all inside chasin me! burnin fire!!! volcano eruptions! my fren gone! my family banished! gawd! it is enuf! i wan nothin to do with ya! wat i wan aint wat u got! u r so diff from all others! u r a monster! u dismissed me!i jus cant stand it! am i sayin all this out of anger! am i? wat am i doin to myself? i press the button dat says empty! i wanna empty all my troubles! my sun never seems to shine! the clouds are here again! yes back again! baby baby! i wen back to the memories we ever had but it seems like we never had one! gawD! all my life! nvm............ i am out of ur life from now on...

i drift i burn

jus to turn..

i sob i cry

wen u drive

i dreamt of u..

i was made a fool

i walked away

u ran dat way!

all those sleepless nites

it's better of a fight!

i love u

yet this was wat i get...

u drove me away..

left me all alone..

never asked y...

i lived my life..!!!

the day i ran..

2005-08-19T22:27:00.000+08:00

okie today was my napfa 2.4 km run! here is the story! it is kinda COOL NOT!! i ran n ran!!! kept on runnnin! still i am runnnin! continue to run n run! i am still runnin!! THE LAST LAP! YES FINALLY! OKIE in between i bumped into some peeps! i gave KAREN a herd push! she was slowin down! tsk tsk karen laren last yr doin it! hahah! n i was runnnin with cathy n maltida dan dey slowed down so i continued my pace n left dem! man was dat mean of me! bad evil me!!! tsk tsk i mus be punished??!! hahah :) hmm i said sorry to dem though! lala! first to come in timin was not wat i expected! man! shshs! i should not have slowed down! yup yup! i should not! nvm i still like the numbers of my timmin! hahaha! my fav numbers gawd! so lucky! hahha! the numbers were in exact same place! guess u noe?? only some! hahah! :) after runnin wen back to watch trainin! i had to i left my bag in sch! hahah! how stupid? oh wells! dan watched demm do court work! i wanted to play too but my pe sttire was drenched with sweat! helllo i was runnnin! we had to share our individual goals in the team! we hjad to rmb one anothers too! shsh! okie time to make space for hat info! heh:) said my piece! teacher collected the books n we left for compass point! met oreal darlin on the way! wee were talkin abt the biatholon! i wanna take part! stupid fel she better come to sch on monday! hahah! :) wen to macs to talk n chat n laugh! bought twister fries! kinda cooL! okie froggy was makin fun of cathy! n steph me oreal was laughin! hahah! someone said cathy was small n cute! hahahah! even at teh stadium! tsk tsk cathy is cute? maybe small!! okie today was kinda borin! sch-ed all borin lar! i was studyin chinese spellin n bio durin scinece! multi taskin! hahah! mr lim showed us something real cool! the donkey n the farmer!! he the BIO!!! n u noe wat chapter? shant say a word! lalala! u go find out urself! heheheh... lalal! now i haven been usin my HP for 3 days! yay! i hope my bill wont rise any further! my mum will shott me alive! oh no no no! i cant die so early! uh uh uh! :) but anyways i was busy! thos week was hactic! everyday i had somehting on! doin proposal n hw n studyin cos common test results was SHIT! screwed the whole thing up! my daddY! screams! somethig besides all this :

why was i blamed for what i have not done!
why was it me who suffered all the consequences?
why was it dat i have to clean up all the mess?
why is it me dat u pick on?
wat fuckin reason was this?
so wat now? that was more important!?
FYI i am a human bein with my probs too!
u older yea i noe.. still u cant pull it all on me!
get a life! get a gawd dam life!
teh pain jus leaves me hatin u!
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wat was it dat kept me hangin onn u ?

afterall dere is someone else whom i noe u wont tell....

the finest thing i ever seen.. was the light i might noe..

many hope i bear

faith kept me goin..

the song plays..

as u leave...

i try to give up FOREVER!

but still teh song never seem to end..

it plays to teh tune of uUUU!!!

i never wan the world to see me..

dey never understand..

the blissful peace i once had

has now vanished rite in front of me..

was everything meant to be broken?!

the disaster is left uncleared..

my mind.. was dat the answer??!!! was it?

i dun noe... heard not from u but from...

forget it.. it wil never come ooooouuuttt!!!

too bad for wat i have fallen for..

no rewinds..

there can be any space rite?

what have i done?

a painful sorrow..

i still love u!

crazy n mad!

2005-08-17T22:40:00.000+08:00

okie okie! today had wat stupid mother tongue day! waa borin like hell arh! besides the opera thingy was stupid i dun undstabd at all! wat the..waste my time! shshs! gawd! wat to do! hmm dan the gals perfomred! musical n dance! indian was kinda cool! dan tis sec one played one chinese instrument n all kinda cool la! hahah! :) hmmz dan had ppp! peek performance program! heh :) had it with the badminton glas well didnt really like it no offence doh.. jus dun like the like feelin! heh :O lalal. my buddy was ANNE LIM! hahah! MICHEAL JORDAN! kinda cool! all teh moves in BBALL! hahah! :) " there are no shortcut to any place worth going!" " i did it before i can do it AGAIN!" yup yup. the instrcutor was kinda cool! hahaha! she laugh so furnie we too laughed! hahah! no reason! hahha! stupid a?? ooppz.. played basketball! minature one lar! it was held in the library! so ya! limited area! :) goal score: 15 dan we had 20 first round goal score: 25 we had 35! hahah all cos of mental control! yup yup! hahaha alot to say abt this! hahahah! dan we had this starin competition! wat the! stare at ur buddy! i stare at anne she stare at me we laugh! everyone laughed! adele n gina! gone case both beside me! sure laugh! hahaha! and yea we did! oh mine so furnie lar! dan she made us stare at her for a few mins! BREATHE IN BREATHE OUT! relax stay calm! hahaha STILL We LAUGHED! hahaha! okie steph looked at me n laughed straight away! hahahah! excuse me! dan back to strain back at partner! hahaha okie for a few seconds we did not laugh but as it goes on... we laughed out loud! hahahah! i kinda like coughed. hahahah! wth! laugh laugh! it was a choice we made! a choice whether to laugh or not! yup yup ! n sch was kinda borin today! got back science! n was a toltal turn off like shit! i am screwed lar how to tell my dad???!!!! i am BUSTED! for sure! gawd! have mercy! save me! i did to buck up alot! n english too was really really very very bad until my teacher got a shock! arh! how am i suppose to noe she counted all the other written works as test! i was like doin dat in the middle of the nite! sure fail lar! kena lecture form her! haiz! :'( -tears- i mus avoid all distractionss! everything! haiz! REGINA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! die die die die! :( hmmm tml is super stress day! yup yup! how????? i dun noe lar! tml is like i got umpirin course n NAPFA! the 5 batteries! shit lar i never train lar! hope i make it! me n matilda n cathy! kkk this week i darn hactic! one after another! i mus slleeepp early i see PANDA EYES! shshs! my skin is stil peelin! yup yup! so er.. UGLY! faster peel peel peel! hahaha :) hmmm i hope i survive!

i never wan to hear u
nor see u
u jus dun think
to u i never existed!
i am jus an invisible gal from the corner!
to u i am not a human but a ...
fuck off!
U DUN DERSEVE ME
i cant believe u had me on!i
i DUN DERSERVE U!
U ARE SUCH A TWO FACE FREAK!
BACK OF FROM ME..
haven u had enuf!
all i had u wan to give!
wasnt i not good enuf??!!
i forgot..
u only had one person in ur mind..
all the pics n talks!
all had dat one person!

my sun wont shine since my baby rab away

i never thot from the fall.

y can dere be miracles between u n me?

love has fade n soo forgotten..

the nite has passed yet day darws near.

the lark soon wakes n sings.

the tune soothes me back to u..

netball.sun-ed.burnt.

2005-08-13T19:00:00.000+08:00

oh mine... okie today was one hell of a day! on a saturday mornin i had to wake up at 5.40?? wat the so early.. i can die arh.. so early.. YAWNS-- rubs eyes! gawd.. dan i left my ball n bips at home arh.. go back take by the time i went down i miss the 156.. suppose to meet steph at 6.25.. but instead the bus came at 6.30.. late! sry.. and i had to tie my hair!!! so short but have to tie.. oh gawd.. lucky tita woke up to tie for me.. :) tie my fringe and split the rest into two! soo er... funnny n weird! hahah!kinda stupid. steph fetched celeste monique n me to sch! met up at 6.50. reach kallang at ard 7 ++ do warm up n get ready for our 8 am game with north vista.. we lost to dem by one!! ONE??? wat the hell!! 1 pathetic goal.. nvm we tried our best dat was warm up! haiz! played with sngs.nanyang.rgs.kcp.cedar.etc i cant rmb lar! shshs.. hahah! oppz. dan after all the playin wen to lunch at KFC! i met ALLY n her frens.. hahah one of her fren was too called REGINA! cool... i was confused in teh game while playin with dem! 2 reginas on court! hahha! oppz. bought for joanne her lunch so she treat me to lunch cos i helped her buy! hahah! my partner! joanne was grossin everyone out with all her unfamine behavior! i almost puked! gawd joanne! i wanna die! tan.bay.celeste plus me was already chokin! eeewwwwww!! arh! screms n runs away from her! stupid joanne still say we bully her!!! hahaha! :) dan the seven of us wen back to support our juniors! dey played well! hahaha! cheerin for dem all! waaa.. scream scream! n joanne's scream was scoldin! hahah terror! everybody run n hide! she will jus shout the hell out of u! gawd scary! hahahah! i have to bear with her all this while she is my partner! a shooter n me a mid-field! hahaha! pain! our juniors played their guts out under the blady hot sun dat left almost all of us with a red or burnt face! i think i had both! LOBSTER!!!! hahhaha!! stupid.. i see many pimples too! -puff- stupid zits go away! dan we left earlier cos we werer tired we were dere the whole mornin! have some mercy! hahah! miss dewi our lil coach was super furnie! hahah!! we made do a pole dance pic! hahah! but tan.bay n me had to like pull her while joanne takes her time to snap the pic! hahaha goondu! shshsh! she was so early today!!! no wonder she missed a few of our matches! n blamed wen feng! tsk tsk! we keep makin fun of her! hahaha! so furnie! n ya stupid joanne did something really terrible!!! i was shocked!!! i was jus sittin next to her!!! arh i ran away n laughed! dan she caught up n pull me all!!!! i tell u it was so hilarious! hahahahahahahaHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!!!!!!! stomach ach! gawd! n i told miss dewi dat she was cute!!! omGAWD i cant believe dat! hahaha! but she loves to pose for pics! she shld have gone to modelling! it would suit her best! all kinds of facial exp n body pose! hahahahahahahahaha!!!! k took 158 all teh way to serangoon! go home lar! dan hop-ed on 105 to my house bus stop! hahhaa! on 105 joanne was tryin to b funny with her hair! bay n me was er..... lameo! hahahah! can die jus tokin to her! i wonder her BF! oppz! :) lalalalal! okies okies ends here! i am burnt n red lobster! my dad n bro said i am RED! hahha my house colour! whooo... :) i am burnt! arh... shsh!

i never meant to fall in love with u!

vengin summer hot days.

i shall move to somewhere else..

wishin all my feelin was gone..

i gave it my best

but dere was nothin!

the sun wont shine since u ran away

since like the rain wont stop falin

dat';s the way it'll be

until i get over U!

kinda fun!

2005-08-08T21:36:00.000+08:00

looks like i have been updatin my blog continuously.. friday sat sun n mon! haha oh wells... today had national day celebratration.. was singin with 2g and dcuk.. suddenly me n anne marie started doin funny moves! hhaa! shshs lame! yea i ran up stage to answer the question! hahaH!! stupid fel always fightin with me for first place but the sch was on my side!!! i WAS FIRST!! fel fel fell.. primary sch now secondary sch? shhs u never give up! teh pirze was stupid though! highlighters! shshs!! lameos.. helped mr chia with his stall! kinda fun!! placin chicken wings in bags n collectin money!! dcuk was doin dat n me teh french fries! hahah :) fun! i bought so much strawberry chocolate! so many! teh teachers cut down the price so i boutgh more! hah! yum yum..n love it.. dan after dat wen to PS to watch a movie!!! OMG! charlie and teh chocolate factory was liike hmm pack n fulL!! shsh!! had to go for the later ones! but not too late celesther had to go home u noe!! 4.35 pm.. jus nice i guess.. but too waste time n drag it we went to walk around!! dam fun lar.. laughin all.. haha stupid tan tan n rach ng so cheeky! hahah! pervertic! wen to TIMES u noe teh book store was readin n all.. suddenly those cheeky monkeys : steph tan n qi en wen mad dey wen to the SEX section!! ewww! gross... dan this guy was readin a book : light flirtin!! wat an ass! he asked us where we got our magazone from!! a magazone of gals.. beauty n stuff like dat! me n bay was like erh.. r u sure u wan to reasd this bookk??? cos it aint for... hahhahahahahA!!! we were laughin non stop callin him GAY!! haha! dan the cheeky monkey wen to play n took book : the book of answers! hahah so we asked a qustion n it answered it!!! waaaaa HAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!!! goodness... we didnt expect it to.. shsh! so furnie.. we asked : is steph tan crazu abt aherm.. sex ?? answer: yes! but dont hesitate! hahahaha! gawd! quest: is qi en too crazy abt sex? answer: yes but dont force it!!! hahaha!! stomach pain arh! shshsh!! had a hell of a time dere!! laughin! dan asked other questions too... cheeky pervertic monkeys! ahaha!! dan we left to the cinema!! waaa the show was like hmm nice!! WILLY WONKA!!! WILLY WONKA!!! so furnie!! wait wat was de other name hmm i dun noe how to spell it! ask rach!! next time!!! i love the SHOWW!!!! oh mine CHOCOLATE!!!! if it was 3D i tell u i will go into the chocolate! hahah! shiok! dam furnie! WILLY WONKA.... johny deep... teh sing is stuked in my head!! oh ya i met TOFU n her fren!! was makin fun of her!! hahah!!!! i miss her loads!! stupid gal go TKGS! hahah!! slap her hahah!!!! tofu n plan the outin! hahah me no no no! hahah!! dat gal!!! all of us were laughin the train!! maid a fool of ourself n all! shsh but i really ddem..s stupid celesther n rach took the other line hahah.. north south line.. haiz.. oh wells.. nvm.. n clesther was showin her long face! i dun noe y!! haiz.. :) oh wells.. but i had fun today!!! haha dam fun!!! i LIKE CHARLIE N THE CHOCLATE FACTORY! hahah!!! soooo cooooll... the cute songs.. n teh golden TICKET! hahah! oh wells.. adioz.. ends here :)

i am missin everything.. even u..

it may be too soon..

from wat i wanna i find..

i try to make up my mind.. but..

somehow i was left confused..

i am losin my head over u..

i will always be dere..

to always care..

from the beat of my heart..

i will love u..

i will look straight into ur eyes..

n see wat u really mean to me..

i will search eveywhere jus to noe..

until i noe will i seacrh no more..

take u as u are!!!

i would sacrifice..

dere is nothin i would wan.. but u..

i cant help it..

if dat is the word

dan i will say..

tellin u the rite words....

but PLS PLS...

forgive for wat i've done..

i wont be home...

my day turned out fine!! so NOT!

2005-08-07T14:33:00.000+08:00

K!! i wen to church cat class was kinda borin and all!! bla bla!! now i am sufferin from my gastric agaiN!!! FUCK FUCK FUCK IT!!!! i dun wanna go DOCTOR n i am like home alone! good hope i die! shshsh! WAAAAAAAAAAA SCREMAS!!!! IT IS KILLIN ME!!! -cries- NO ONE IS HOME! :( and i am missin U!! yea.. rite.. how hard is it to suffer!!!! i am gone now!! pls dun ask! jus let it go!!! i am losin hope n faith in everything!!! argh!! the pain is back! a knife jus stabbed me! dat is the end of me!!! GOODBYES! lunch-ed at balestier n was hmmm cryin.. cos the blady freakin gastric was so pain! fuck it... :( i could not hold it back..

lovecanfadecanbreakawaycanbeforgottenbutnotreplaced!
umightlosefaithumightlosehopebutdunthrowitaway!
iambegginuiamonmyknees!
uweresohappywatdididowrong!

i wish i could believe! believin u would come back to me..

all i wan to noe..

hope i'll make it through!

how could i ever fall in love?!

to be so stupid to think it would be you!!

phantom shifts!

i watch my the candle..

as it flickers out..

wen will my night be over??

the shadows of double..

cant i jus run away..

i dun wanna look back

after all i might jus see a ghost..

to think it is u??!!! :'(

baby baby baby!!

i'm callin..

the agony

i am lost..

my tears are endless over u
i'll break away from this prison..

ur lies are better off my head..

and too think

today i would think of u..???

the images of u

jus wont erase.

till i get over u!!

everyday..

everywhere

how can i not live a day without u?

that one last cry..

fuck it..

MISSIN U! MISSIN U!! BABY DUN GO!

flag day??? A.K.A SLACK DAY!

2005-08-06T18:43:00.000+08:00

okie okie! i said i would be back from yesterday! hmm well well..

today was FLAG DAY!!!! waaaa i was """ so lookin forward to it"" like NOT! hahah! GEEE.. the day was hot! darn hot.. i could melt! haha! yupyup met steph tan n steph bay! both steph! for shortb one is tan de other bay! hahhA better! had lunch at PS! at long johns.. haha! oke lar but EXPENSIVE! heh :) dan went to collect our lame old flag day bag thingy! it was BLUE which says: singapore cancer society! haha! man!! so we start! from PS we walk all teh way to blady orchard!!! we had a few check point aka rest points! hahah!!! first stop: PARAGON! hahaha!! rich place a??? but hu cares!! we went in!! wen in to chill down!! blady hot! hahah! up we go.. toooo marks and spencer! hahah!! bought CHOCOLATE!! hahah!! waaa teh price all veyr NICE NICE $$$$ all gone! shshs! hahah! me tan n bay! oh ya!! hu were with us teh guniang aka celeste monique gayatree! hahah!!! her name is unique dun laugh :).. dan we didnt wanna go out so we wen to other shops! haha!! saw teh pool sticks! i wanna play pool too.. :) dan wen to other sports shops.. out we went to the hot sun! haiz! dan walk! n i was like askin the rest?? i dun noe! hahah!! i gt money! yes yes! dan next pit stop: far east! hahah!! wen in to buy drinks n of cos to cool down! notice we didnt take any public transport! all walkin! heh:) walk walk! dan after dat went back out to start the stupid JOB! haiz! i ahte doin all this!! ppl will jus say : i got no change i am in a rush wen det are like NOT! or even not look at u n walk away better still roll deir eyes! whoo... i jus felt like slappin dam n pouncin on them scrtachin dem!!! gee!! so angry! me n bay was like : WATEVA!! u think U BIG SHOT LAR! haha! okie.. dan we were outside paragon sayin : excuse me.. would u like to donate n help the ppl sufferin? or excuse me.. pls donate to the cancer society! hahah! geee.. to think i would dat! hahah! n yea!! i have to say this to steph tan celeste monique n gayatree!! STEPH BAY N ME WERE HARD WORKIN!! WE ASK PPL!! N COLLECT MORE!! HAHAH! WE DID NOT SLACK AS MUCH AS U DID! UH HUH!! WE DID NOT!!! SO WAT I AM SAYIN IS A FACT!!!! DUN U DARE DENY DAT! hahah! oh ya we had a free chicken rice meal! from this shop! gayatree's aunt was the manager!! waa SHIOK! thanks GAYATREE!! i would also like to thank this malay aunty she was jus so kind to doante!! waa not bad at all!!! hmmm dan we walk back to PS to givce back! hahah! dan of we went we took pics!!! eww i dun like takin pics! haha i really dun! i was drag into this! wat!! stupid steph pulled my uniform!! man!! almost tear okie! dan not dat nice!!! cos steph was shiverin while takiN! haha dan into teh mrt we took again our reflection!@ dam cool! haha!! we see a ghosT!! oh dat was jus a light! haha lame! hmmm.. dan we took many lame pics lar!hahah!! super duper lame! even the exit sign! haha i was so lame dat i suggested to take our figers n shoes! hahah!! how lame!! we took teh train speedin! haha scary n we see alot of funny thing in the pics like figuRES!! ewwww.. haha! scary! yes finlly tan brought her DVDs to lent me! hahah! heppy. haha!bay's mum fetch me home! hahah!!! today was kinda fun after all! haha! oh well even though i cant use my HP stilL!!!

i am soo... haiz! bored without my hp! gee... i can like faint!

nothin seems to be right!!
everything is fallin into pieces!
why cant dere be peace..
i miss u alot..
pls dun leave me..
i have a mind of my own!
how ever u see it..
i will never free it..
wen will it ever be u!

fuck lar!! WAT IS HAPPENIN NOW! A BIG PROB!!! WAT IS WRONG??? HEVEN WE HAD ENUF!! IT IS TIME TO STEP DOWN N LET IT GO.. IT GONNA MAKE ANY DIFF! Y ISNT EVERYTHING BACK TO NORMAL!! Y HAS IT CHANGE?? Y ?? I DUN NOE WAT IS WRONG? FORVER!!! I AM SRY BUT I CANT IT LET GO!! FUCK FUCK! how is it dat if one lose a fren dan u might be happy?? i dun think i can be.. cos i think it far too much to bare the pain!

a day! i love after trainin!!

2005-08-05T22:55:00.000+08:00

okie oke!
today i wen to sch!! man borin lar! n dat stupid common test alL! so shit! i could not rmb wat was electromotive force! and how to calculte all the stupid ernergy power bla bla bla!! but still i like phylsics! shshs! wat is wrong with me! hiaz! n dan it was hmmm D and T! kk that pp is so busted i really didnt noe anythin except the drawin! shsh!! how?
hope dat pulls me grades up! gawd! it is so screwed! how is manufactured manufactured?? er.. manufactired? hahah!!! stupid answer! confirm wrong! as always! if my dad finds out i was half asleep durin that pp i will be so BUSTED hahah! geee... n english lesson was on harry potter! we had to do a summary!! i really dread english lessons! i really think it is borin!! man! i dun like her lessons! i have no interest! sry but ya! hahah!! n charmaine was mad! we did pair work for the stupid A B C D E G ets bla bla! she smelled a "HOTEL SMELL" how does it smell?? gee charmaine charmaine! n she said : "regina u smell like a HOTEL!! high class a??" i was like!! : a u crazy arh?? ur nose okie a not!? gee!! WAT IS WRONG! maybe it is DUCK! she always has dis smell! CHOLRINE SMELL! hahah! " and duck was like no!! it is denyse's hair!!! n we burst out laughin! how lame!!! but charmaine nose was really out OF ORDER@!! hahah!

trainin was like hmmm... tough? i guess maybe we didnt trainin for a week dat was y we were very slack! ppl sick n injured! man! no no no! trainin was kinda alrite lar! but we'll miss MISS LEE!! she is leavin to further her studies!! NO!!! cannot! haha haiz! she gave us chocolate! n i ate all!! as in my share!! :) i like the mint one! shshshs nice! all of us were kinda hAPPY.. DID COURT WORK N ALL! even though we had to run 20 rounds!! gawd! i almost died! my stomach was so pain! hahah! nvm.. now now!! this week was ani n steph n joanne birthday! so we like had a real mini celebration! a few of us -steph ani froogy wen feng anne chloe action mama[gina] dewi n ME hahha yea! we went to sakura how do u spell it?? had fun! hahah really did!! was practically laughin! hahah! i ate crispy egg noodle! hahah shiok.. nice lar.. but i have to say this!!! teh service was really really bad! geee... nvm.. okie anne made fun of me! NO! COS WE WERE TALKIN ABT SOME STUFF! n suddenly i was so blur dat i said : my mouth is my ears ears my eyes n eyes my mouth!!! u noe teh see no evil speak no evil n hear no evil knda thing! hahahahah!!!! i was so... man! she n gina! so mean! n ani was seducin the chair HAHAH! DAM FURNIE! goodness.. hahah! anne said dat too! hahah!!! so furnie! gawd! laugh until stomach pain! everyone was! hahah! n we were also talkin abt miss dewi! hahah!! she arh.. wenever she recieves a call she walks out of the restaurant! - why again??- we asked hahah... MUS BE HER BOYFREND!!! HER LONG LOST 4 HRS BOYFREN! HAHAH!! geee... dan we kinda wen into teh futher n stuff.. all i noe it is still furnie! " u hug teh boster i hug u " " u hug me i hug teh boster" nicer one! "i hug u hug me n throw the boster away!" HAHAHAHAH!!!! wen feng said this! n dewi was like... excuse me!!! it is jus a fren! hahahaha!!! gawd!
the whole scenerio was jus too furnie! all i noe ervyone was laughin n teh ppl were starin! our food came n everyone TUCKED in! hahah! shiok lar... dan after eatin went hm!! dewi wen to PT! PATUO! hahaha! lalalal!! met oreal darlin at the 156 bus stop!! something happen!! she is alrite now!! love her! haha! my lil sec one darlin! hahah! n saw dat silly clere poon! a.k.a PLARA POON! hahah!

tml i am doin flag day!!! something is goin to happen!! jus wait n see! everybody pls donate! hahah!! steph tan b bay will be dere to give a full time service!! hahah! a full time CAR WASH service! oh wells.. i shall tell ya mtl perhaps! we are goin to buy chocolates!! waaa!! man i love chocolates! hahah! gee!

ends----

I AM GOIN TO SLEEP

WIHTOUT THINKIN OF U

SAY BABY I LOVE U!

its 3 o'clock on my phone!

2005-08-03T14:58:00.000+08:00

SCREAM EVERYBODY!!!!! it is the common test week!! man! die die die! mon: hist n eng tues: lit and today maths!!!! argh argh argh!! i like never finish my papers!! fuck lar!!! i never! like wat the hell!!! how how how???? man!!!! lit maths n hist never finish!!!! go n eat ur fish lar! man! how??????? i dun noe lar.. so much too write too lil time!! i am diggin my own grave by wastin time thinkin! i shld jus write wateva dat somes into my mind! shshshs! grrrrgrgrrrgr! maths was like hmmmm dam difficult! i dun noe to do!! n yea i neer finish!!! mr chia!!!!!! how??? i dun wanna fail! i skip quite a few questions!!! n hmmm if i am not wrong i think i lost more dan 10 marks out of 50 or 40? hmm i dun noe lar.! gawd!! somebody save me! ends! fuck !!!

yesdterday was my most beloved darlin birthday!!!! hahah!!! steph's birthday! come come let sings : happy birthday to u happy birthday to u happy birthday to steph... happy birthday to U!!!! we embarassed her in teh canteeN!! she had CHOCOLATE CAKE!! waaa shiok man the cake! nice!! froggy bought it! love it!! it was jus nice for everyone! and i was cuttin the cake for everyone! waaa not bad a?? lalalal! hahah! well wen to the library to study n all! yea! i did my maths i=n i was teachin 2j 2JJJJ??? gawd!! me teachin 2J?? cannot lar shld be the other way round! 2J teaches 2F haha! more like it! bla bla bla!!!

now bad news! i cannot msg!!!! no!!!!! i wanna die already i miss msgin ppl! yes yes i do i do!! in sch too! haiz! i am so troubled!! BUSTED if i go over the limit lar! if i do my baby phone will gooooo nooooo!! cannot.. i wont allow this! i wont!! yupz yupz.. shshsh!!! i am missin it n missin the ppl! haiz!!! another bad news!!! my lovely gracious darlin celesther is sick!! like wat the hell so UNFAIR!! haiz!! poor thing! hope she is alrite lar.. i really do! i got a shock wen celesther was like sick n cant come to sch! haix :( sad day! prayin she is alrite!! ah ya REGINA CHUA!! CELESTHER wil live!! hahah DUH she will live!! man if she reads this i think i will be WHACKED!! hahah! oh oooo.. hahah! man!! i dun really like this week.. common test jus give me the creeps~ n tml is like geog paper.. sure cannot finish!! wanna bet? as uausL!

i was talkin to dat stupid vetha yesterdaY!!! n he is such a pain!! i wanna kill him tis sunday!!! nonsense!! stupid fella!! he was tellin me abt stuff like duh! called my hP n ask me tO do a BIG BIG favour but it turned out real real BIG!! waaaa so BIG! shshsh!! no wonder i got whacked! u u u u!!see lar cos of u! HMMPFT! N HE ALSO SAID SOMETHING ELSE!!! VETHA ALOY!! IF U DARE TO SAY!! I WILL WILL SOO SO BE LIKE MY SIS N PINCH U!! TILL IT LEAVES A MARK N U'LL RMB ME! dat is like so nice of me! boy am i nice! heh :) okie dat was very thick skin! uh huh it is! hahah! n ur thug stuff!!! somebody goin to australia? australia rite! in october!! HURRAY!!!!! yes! heaven!! no vetha means no pain! hahahahahah!!! lalalalalalal!! :):):) go go n i am still waitin for my birthday present even though urs is like one day be4 mine!! i dun care! hmmpft! i am waitin!!! it betta be wat i told yA! okies?? hahah! vatha is sufferin in NS now!!!! hahahah!!! some specialist he is! shshs it is a secret!

haiz!!! i think i am goin to make up my mind n give it up!! it will never work! no one will ever noe! :'( i never wish to have ............ dots! something arent jus ment to be.. i cant go on like this!! i am hurtin deep down inside!! i really did wish i never had.......... cos it really makes me think n wen i hear dat song i come down to tears!!! tis is all by night!!! not in day!! maybe i had once but no one knew! i am walkin away from everything i ever heard!!! until..... i had many sleepless nites cos....... trubles in my water!!! u dun miss it untill u lose it!!

lovecanfadecanbreakawaycanbeforgottenbutnotreplacedyoumightlosehopeyoumightlosefaithbutdunthrowitallaway!

there was a time wen all was perfect no worries now dat is burin we had somehing dat no one had now it's all gone! i looked in ur eyes!

wat am i suppose to do withh all these blues! huntin me!! everywherer!! wat did i do!! i watch the candle flicker out!! but still i cant let go! i didnt mean to ffall in love!! phantom shifts! the stars are here to guide me! i am out with u! wen will it set me free? all teh shadows down the hall! i am slippin it off!

lookin back!

2005-07-31T15:16:00.000+08:00

k well.. these few days has been kinda hmm alrite i shld say! i was asked to update by celesther!! shsh.. dat gal arh. oh.. friday played against yishun sec weell we won them by two.. coach said that teh score dosent count but the quality of the game! first few quaters we werent playin well as we werent warmed up enuf.. man.. dan slowly we spiked up n caught up with scores.. oh well.. not dat bad.. played center n wing defence.. man! didnt do well for wing defence.. man! oh well gotta work up hard! n maybe i wanna try shootin! hahah well fat hope.. so many shooters already! hmmmz.. yesterday stayed home the whole day! surprisingly! man!!! bored like hell but but but u see i studies my hitory! tried memorizin! yea hope it goes in.. hahah! okie okie.. today wen to church for cat clss! ypu yup.. cat class was borin! man! wat was cheryl sayin i also dun noe.. and again our class a few ppl left the room cos our class tooo big big.. hahah! the more teh merrier.. yupz. hmmm after dat wen for mass with celesther celestine sam my laopo lydia mel n hyaz.. yup yup hahah! tis man was kinda angry for wat shit reason i also dun noe.. wat was his prob.. kk durin mass i dun noe wat happen to mel sam n hyaz dey started pokin gary.. hahah gary wasnt angry!! hahah! cool! gary is nice... yup.. kinda fun jus seein him bein poked.. haha maybe dat's y the stupid man was angry!!! ewewew.. hahah! hmmm... after mass wen to gardens to eat! met up with my sis! lunch-ed with celestine celesther sam my laopo hyaz n pls my wonderful sis who left us halfway for her trianin! rugby! wth she wen without me! hmmpft! slap her! oh well.. dan yea! hmmz lunch-ed walked to teh bus stop! WAIT!! i was force to take a pic but but but of cos i escaped but promise dem tp take next week! haha! yea! actually SWEAR!! man! i feel sooooooo!! shsh! BUSTED.. liie now i am home alone! man! so quiet!! time to BLAST THE MUSIC!!! the house is mine! yes yes! no one! dad out of town mum somewhere out dere sis at trainin bro at his class! me AT HOME!!! pretendin to study! excuse REGINA!! get back to WORK!! hahah! opps dat's me!yea.. today nth much lar.. bored!! who shall i msg? call? hmm msg iggy?? o wells.. P.S my sis is always tokin abt IGGY!!???!!! shsh! crazy! everywhere she goes!! wen she's with me lar! oh wellzz she is crazY! infactuated by him! hahahahahah!! gawd! dat bad! all ppl him! shsh! sis sis sis sis sis arh.. got to the mental hospital arh!!! opopz if she reads this i am so BUSTED!! hahahah!! shshsh!!! hope she doesnt! man! hmmz. okie dokie i shall end it here.. STiTCh gotta go n play! hahah! nme STUDY! hahah!

fights dun end easy..

but fights comes easy!

one misunderstandin

one mistake

one wrong move

a tiny drip of ink

and it is gone..

i wanna fight..

hmmmz..

one solution..

if everybody is so perfect

dere wont be any fights

plus plus

the world wont be wat it is like today!!

wonders do work magic..???

okie okie.. i sooo dun noe...

one thing dat makes me blue..

i am goin to give up! i am goin to give up! i am goin to give up i am goin to give up i am goin to give up! i am goin to give up!i am goin to give up i am goin to give up i am goin to give up i am goin to give up i am goin to give up!!!!! i am tired i am tired i am tired i am tired i am tired i am tired i am tired i am tired i am tired i am tired i am tired i am tired i am tired i am tired i am tired i am tired i am tired i am tired i am tired i am tired I AM TIRED OF WAITIN!

let me go let me go let me go let me go let me go!! i tried too hard and end up losin! DAM DAM DAM DAM!!! wat a waste!! I AM AT LOST! NTH SEEMS TO BE RITE! I WANNA GIVE UP EVERYTHING I EVER THOT! EVERYTHING! SHUT UP! SHUT UP SHUT UP SHUT UP SHUT UP SHUT UP! I AM GOIN TO GIVE UP I AM TIRED OF WAITIN!!!! ALL I EVER WANTED!!!!! NVM NVM NVM NVM NVM NVM!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :( :'( :'( :'( :'( :'( :'( :'( :'( :'( :'( :'( :'( :'( :'( :'( :'(!! shshshshshs.......... i am goin to try to give up on everything i ever wished dat one day it might happen!!!! ur ignorance is hell lot of a PAIN!! wat would be worse is u... givin nth but shit! i am sry but all i can say is Dat i am goin to give up on something dat will nevEr EVER happeN WISHFUL THINKIN! I CANT HOLD ON MUCH LONGER.. IT IS TOO STRAININ! I AM BETTER OFF ALONE IN ALL THIS DARKNESS... I DUN NEED NO ONE! NO ONE!! NO ONE I SAID! BACK OFF! DAM! ALL I HEAR IS WHISPERS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! THE DAWN OF THE DEAD! REST IN PEACE!! I CAN BARELY EVEN THINK LETTIN IT GO!!! TEARS DOWN THE CHEEKS! I WILL NEVER NOE NOR NO ONE WILL EVER NOE!!!! A BROKEN HEART! SHATTERS INTO PIECES! IT CAN NEVER BE MEND! NEITHER GLUE NOR LOVE! I HATE MYSELF I HATE MYSELF I HATE MYSELF I HATE MYSELF I HATE MYSELF I HATE MYSELF I HATE MYSELF! I HATE MYSELF SO MUCH I JUS WANNA END IT! I HATE HATE HATE HATE MYSELF!!!!!! HATE!! ARGH ARGH ARGH ARGH ARGH ARGH ARGH ARG ARGH ARGH ARGH!!!!

pizza-ed..

2005-07-26T18:28:00.000+08:00

hmm okies today was kinda alrite lar.. oh ya i froze in the bus!!! pull over still not enuf!! my nose was runnin like hell! dun noe how many packets of tissues boy!! shsh! brrr.. brrr... sch-ed.. hmm sch sch wells.. chinese: mr sim was like hmmm tryin to be furnie lar.. full of nonsense.. hahah! dam.. english our teacher was sick.. yupz but but i did my work okies! dun play play arh.. me n duck menon! heh.. ya durin hist me n duck was like hmmm writin kidnappin notes! we r goin to kidnap steph n carissa.. dey read the note already! .. shshshs seal ur lips n dun tell anyonee! okies? good good.. duck will never find out dat she is one of teh target! HAHAHA!! wel wel after sch wen to pizza hut at thomson with celesther celestine iggy! sir iggy was lookin very very unhappy! hmmm i dun noe y either.. oh wels.. okies.. today not dat much! tml got trainin! hope its fun! hehez.. i wanna plsy for the pesta sukan carnival.. hopin! hahah! wel wels.. joted down wat i wanted to say..

la bamba la bamba la babam!

wat i saw

tells me all..

even though i dun..

but still something is a miss..

details still yet unknown..

gawds..

all i can do is jus wait..

oceans apart

day after day

slowly goin

i hear ur voice on the line

but it dosen startle me

if u r next to me..

rite beside me..

i'll be rite here waitin for u!

i hear ur laughter

i taste ur tears..

oh can u see it baby..

u've got me goin crazy.

wateva it takes..

i wonder how we can survive

but if in the end i am with ya

i'll take my chance..

facin the cold outside.

nor let u go..

facin our final fears!

waT?? Screw it! BUSTED for REAL!

2005-07-25T22:02:00.000+08:00

hmm.. okies i am back.. wel wel today is really a hell of a day!
GAWD i ran like so many ruonds of the sch front court! dam! dam tired was like fallin assllleeepppp in all the classes!shshsh grrr.. zzzzzzzz sleepy.. i love to sleep.. n dan i had oral!! so yea.. butterflies in my stomach! shshS! i was BUSTED! i spoke to her in english like wat the hell.. and her look was this : excuse r u sittin for teh right examination.. this aint english but CHINESE! " AH!!!!! screams... panic! like wat??? i dun speak chinese anywhere else ,aybe except in sch la duh durin chinese class but dat is erm... hmmm very very seldom! shshsh! wake up already! oh ya! haof way readin the stupid difficult passage teh PAPER FLEW....... woooosshhhh on teh floor.. n denyse was like laughin i cant help it nut laugh!!! hahahah! dam! so funny lar.. haha! dan wen back to read! i miss out alot of words! so obvious! i was starin at the stupid stupid word! shsh! man! dat's it! i am so BUSTED! B U S T E D! hahaha uh huh i am! so yea i oral-ed, run-ed,slept n laugh-ed alot in teh library!!! steph n cathy weere laughin at me! for me chinese! HAHAHAH! it does not seems rite from me.. grrrr... stupid me! hahaH! okie dan durin english i kinda like escape lar.. was findin for miss netty vollect money from her! yup yupz! hmmz... k n mr chia asked us to downlod the maths thing!! hmmm mR CHIA i CANT!!!! how how??? i cannot mark teh graphs pls pls dun bust mY ASS out of the ROOM! pretty pretty pls.. hhah! dam! BUSTED!!! tml i am too busted! hope my life ease off.. COMMOM TEST IS NEXT WEEEK!!
i cnnot aford to fail any!
dam dam dam dam dam! my life is so screw!..... screw the time screw my life! BUSTED dat's wat it seems.. haiz.. y cant i live :) n not like :( or :'( shity days ahead of me... hope august will be a good month!! i really do hope! shsh! oh ya secret while waition the classroom.. fel,denyse,belle,charlotte n ME were callin ppl! ppl(guys) fel's frens! dam lame lar! gawds.. all her idea n fel is famous in cat high n ACSI! she noes the place well enuf! HAHAH! fel i noe u noe..

for wat reasons do i have to.

everything is messed up..

a missin puzzle in my life..

nothin seems to be the hardest words..

my life is so screw

thinkin about my crew..

y me..?

y??

i dun noe..

an answer to my life..

a key to the unlock door..

i wish upon a star

hopin for my wish to come true

once told

wishful thinkin will it b fulfilled..

i am sorry for wat i have done..

i truly am!

i am a sinner..

i hope frens care n share.. n not greed n anger.. :) :( :'( :') wat's up????

gAWd dam WRONG!

2005-07-23T00:01:00.000+08:00

wat the fuck is goin on?? y is everything comin out like a fuck-ed shit.. i am sry for the language! but eveything jus dosen;t seem to be the way i thot it would b! for wat reason mus i live a FUCK-ed up life???? pa-lease it aint any minor things! everyone is havin deir own shit like duh! i was decive in all those shadows u were hidin in.. how could i not noe!???!?!?! jus how? y do u treat ppl like dat! we aint no rubbish! wat ur sparetyre i am sry but if u think u r very cool among the POPULAR ones well u r wrong! POPULAR PPL have bigger probs dey care more abt deir face dan anything else! fuck off.. i wan things to work out! y cant thing jus be dey were dere were at first! i ahd enuf of all this shit! hu do u think u r??? jus who? u hurt ppl like dat without knowin no regrets?? any guilt? r u even human! ppl have too feelin! get down n be more down to earth practical in other words! i had enuf! JUS ENUF!! everywhere i go! everywhere!!! Y ISNT DERE ANY PEACE! GOD made tis world peaceful yet dere are wars! wat on earth is goin on? GOD had never planned for this! if he had y would he even create EARTH a plave to live! wars rivals enemies minor probs major issues! man! i dun think i can hold on any further! i've gotta hold myself tight down! I AM TIGHT FOR TIME! sch has jus been great?? nah it has not.. our dance was screwed lar! buSTED! i mean like i wanted it this way! we gave a suggestion.. n wat u jus ignore it oh FINE! we ignore u.. u show ur fuckin attitude hu do u think u r? so wat if u r coool big ass wen actually u aint.. u jus actin as one.. man get a life.. if u think ppl would recognise u by doin all those ERHERM unnecessary stuff it will only be a burden to U! ur face more important dan anything! erverything also dun noe! ppl who noes are much better off! i go to sch for fun laughter peace n joy not this! gawd! now my class jersey is like so dam big la! i can hradly even wear it! M is too big! my dad can even wear it.. but i love the designs! darn nice! its like a football jersey! cool sey?? :) hmmmx.. but too big! i love it! got my netball jersey too.. k it was too small everyone ws very unhappy.. y this y dat? but not worth it! sry too say daT! hmmx.. train-ed and all.. tired! :()

but i really wanna clear all teh blady mess up! cos for all this i am goin MAD! think abt it. y do u wanna hurt sumone wen that sujmpne did no harm! fuck fuck fuck! i dun wan things to be sooo wrong cos of u everything is so FUCK-ed UP!

u left me feelin blue

i tried to make the best out of it..

yet u lfet me feelun blue..

a lonely world i am in now..

y y y y

may i ask..

i dream of u

i think of u

jus u..

the sun the moon

the stars i count!

i can count all day ..

but wil u be dere

by my side???

nah... impossible!

:'(

nothin would i think

but how nice u n i..

strenght is losin..

my faith..

i am lost

can i ever be left feelin blue??

i need u by my side

but i dun think it be confide..

i run.

blast the music.!!

i dance!

techno i go!

baby.. baby..

fuck wat i said

it dun men no shit!

i need a special way..

but i dun noe..

wen's the perfect time..

i would go on my knees

pleadin for mercy..

i am so confused!

baby u left me confused

dun noe if shld let u noe..

the beat plays..

wonder?

2005-07-21T21:40:00.000+08:00

today started out real fine! had mornin trainin. fed the ball and did defendin! van is hard to gurad run here n dere! i lost her shadow! school-ed! duh! hmmm sch was kinda borin la! fallin asleep all.. man! busted! haiz.. dan ya for CD it was like hmmm BORIN! B O R I N G! lecture from pirinciple n other teachers! so much stuff n issues!gwad! wat's up??!! WAT A HEARTACHE! dan happy sch ended! yupz. wen to AVA rm to like hmm wat? dance la the teacher's day thing audition is like tml! man screwed! haiz! tml u noe wat????? chinese common test! fail fail fail! yes FAIL! hiaZ! in teh AVA rm: was darn fun lar but i realised after all that happen i wasnt dat happy for i dun noe y! i jus had tis feellin of unhappiness n guilt!! like i try recallin it but like exactly wat did i i dO??!! dat was the end of it all la after wat was happenin! hmmm k in the rm: marcie.duck.karin.denyse.asmine.sylvia.daphane.mardhiah.naddie. yup yup all these! hmm. we werre makin a fool of oursleves in the rm! we were makin our names new names in fact! names beginnnin with the letter P.R.M.D hahah many! dan we had our names spelled the opposite waY! like wat the the hell darn funny lar! ANIGER?? INARK?ALLECARM?? hahah darn furniE! boy laugh until stomach ache shshsh.. HAHAH! dan we were lie playin the piano? or organ wat is it? i dun noe either heh :) hmmm.. dan ya we were hmmm like doin something to duck n tryin to erm u noe! not me but KARIN! hahahah! nonsense.. shshsh ;) mardh n naddie were makin steps while the rest of us like cant be bothered i mean like no mood who wanna dance?? tell me hu hu? man! sry alr. tml audition wiilll bbbeee soooon Sccrrreeewwweeedddd! nvm.. but we had a hell of fun! laugh laugh! played GHOST! me n marcie screames went teh piano played by itself!!!! yes yes! AH!!!!!!!!!! dam loud! hahah. oh wel n like stupid daphne n denyse n sylvia were wat?? laughin! dam! wicked PPL! hehe :) after dat mard n neddie laft o all of us like play lar inn air con! man was i blowin my stupid nose! leakin non stop! thanks sylvia ur tissues!! hahah! dan left n all duck was actin innocenT! tsk tsk SO NOT! hahahahaH! duck u see this n read: DUCK AINT INNNOCENT!!! uh huh SHE AINT! yupzz.. after all that wen to play basketball with cecelia n denyse n daphne n sylvia! 3 on 2! me n cece won! hahahah oppz.. but ya! fun la duh run here n dere.. man so sweaty waited for celesther steph n others! to go hm! uh huh! on teh way to CP met coach dewi wat a familar face! i recognise.. :) dan yupz wen hm i was sleepin in teh bus and celesther was givin me a massage! man shiok! dam nice to sleep lar.. hahah! thanks celesther love ya laod loads! uh huhh! dat's like kinda all oh ya! i never brnio hm my BI ZI for chinese to study n like ya i dun even undstand a word in the book we are suppose to read! chinese jus sucks in my life i am sry i ahve to say daT! hehe :)

de time is passin by..

nth in the world could be..

as nice as u n i!

how can we break like this!

how could it ever be wrong??

all i do is sing my song..

now i run to u

like i always do..

wen i close me eyes i think of u..

such a lonely girl..

such a lonely world..

wen i close my eyes i dream of u..

now i return to u

n u gave me away..

i dance n sway..

dancers will be on teh floor

n u'll be out of the door..

the sound of music..

jus runs thru my ears..

dance with me

sway with me!

she needs somebody

tellin her it would last forever..

she needs to be loves.

knowin how to make her feell..

i dun think i can be

wat u think i am..

i aint wat u think..

for now my limits

has it limitations..

i cant be ....

i am.....

i jus am ...

upset over matters i dun even noe..

i didnt had my chance..

something is missin still...

i drown in sorrows knowin dat dere's still tml.!

my contious are runnin wild..

significant am i??

pls forgive mr for wat i've not lifted up too..

something is missing..

wat did i ever DO???

2005-07-18T21:30:00.000+08:00

okie okie tooday was really quite fun lar.. PE hate first period of PE yes yes! i do i do! skip here n dere.. do dips n berps! freak dat teacher.. boy o boy i hate! so kanasai! gwad! escape.. ppl think i am mad doin those stupid funny weird stuff! PIG! played BB with class darn furnie! denyse duck marcie charlotte kai wen bian bian sylvia! hahah! so fun! but almost died cos darn tired! okie i shot in a one or two 3-pointers heh.. :) hmmm dan denyse n duck too! proud of bian bian she did it! lalal! :) fun lar. dan the day goes on! after sch had netball meetin.. satin dat we have to do traini in teh mornin! and tml start! oh well! carnival comin! so train train! fun lar! all the Peepz.. hehe.. run dan court work! okie went to CP to waste time as in cos we were waitin for my dear ah ma to finish shootin yup yup.. so wen dere for lunch met my darlin dere! phyllis phyllis n ke xin! wwen with cathy n bay.. kinda fun lar.. laugh n laugh eat n eat joke n joke! i was so bored dat i started to experiment with phyllis on strectchin! rite PHYLLIS?? StreTCH... lalala! dan talk talk in macs haha.. fun sey.. n we found out something a?? as i all of us lar! hahah! gosh! dat was shockin! faints!! *fainted* hahah.. :) dan wen to sch to wait for ah ma! pack my locker so much neater! i did i didi! uh huh i did! took unwanted book hm! wen to jump n shoot netballs.. fun lar.. chat-ed with alison n this indian gal dun noe how to spell her name from cca team in netball dey were shooters n i?? hahah :) wen hm yea.. i love celesther! yup yup i do! man.. thanks for everything! really thank u! heh ^_^ on the way hm i kinda let go of it.. man! :'(!!

yesterday was terror! yup yup.. wen to mas as usual la.. certain stuff happen family! i cant stand it no longer! wat did we i us dO?? wat did we do?? wat a f&*k-ed up life! i really cannot stand it! dam! its one sh!t up day.. at nite!! tis ios where it starts! how can i live in such agony! for wat reason shld i be drag down upon! all i wan is a happy ever after! not a big black dark hole! too dark for one's light! oh baby oh baby! only two noe tis! n i thank these two ppl! boy dun noe wat i'll do??!!! thanks celesther n iggy! loves loads! :)sry to have drag u guys down! sry!!! :'(
family matters! f**K-ed so hate it! y my dad?? y my sis?? y blame others?? :'(!!i rather be in deir place dan to see wat's happenin! to see to witnesS! put me to my grave!i am so f**k-ed up :'( of wat's happenin to me! cos of all tis plus sch i think i ma breakin down! a runnin nose a cough a throat n headache! i am spinnin in my own world! i wan sweet dreams not nightmares! wat do u wan out of me?? my life aint good enuf! well f**k off! i jus dun noe y! but the tears are like a runnin tap! it never seems to end! i rick my life to end tis! cos it aint profit to be earn! my head spins! twirlin in darkness on a unbalanceed platform! scream SCREAM! i go on my kneess.. beggin n prayin that these night monster are to banish from my world! i crutch my pillow n toss n turn knowin n wonderin where's my security.. baby baby! SOMEDAY SOMEDAY! f**k-ed up LIFE! unclench ur fist n let me Goo...

it was nice..

to let in a mice..

i rolled the dice..

i took the risk..

cuttin my wrist!

i am sorry..

it aint any worry.

i toppled down!

i fell down!

i broke down!

f**K u!

get lost!

wat does fightin

gotta do with anything??

jus wat?

WAT WAT WAT??

i ask

i begged

i interceeded

iiiiii!!

i cant take tis no longer.

wen will it ever end???

nite by day

tis is wat i say..

if u guys r gone

to me its a bond

n it will b done!

a dine

its too fine!

dere's no turnin away!

only a one way!

no U turn

for if u do turn

all u do is jus regret..

a be reject-ed

it was ur lost!

ur dose!

i am out!

for how many times??

f**k u!

it is enuf hurt

to tear tis apart!

it aint worth it

pls dig..

a grave?

a hole?

a cave?

wat?

u cant hide!!

seperated ways!

nth i could see..

love has fallen on me..

i have lost tis way..

so y dun u go ur way

and i go my way.

it will be better off SEPERATED!

the fire which has lost it's SPARKS!

baby u'll do well

i'll be fine.

:'(

endless drippin of tears!

back again! misses! :)

2005-07-15T23:10:00.000+08:00

hoo hoo! back tompostin again! yup yupz.

12 july : good charlotte came down to singapore indorr stadium! like wat the hell my sis had free tickets so ya wen la duh! gc u noe.. :) hmm wen with my sis, nat, pei shan, bryan, myself! yup yup. well had dinner at macs made nat wait for very long. love her she was queuein boy boy was it pack man.. can u belive it! we had tp squeeze in here n dere tru teh crowd since in was the smallest amongst all i had to gop tru all teh small gapd in order to mroe up front. yup yup held on to nat n pei shan for security! haha.. scared of geettin lost in the midst of the crowd heh :p! soon we were in n ya waited for dem to come out! it was fun lar.. oh ya it was s0 pack ed lar.. everybody all puchin here n dere like as if it was deir last life! pa-lease! nat n bryan were crazy goodnes... bryan told tis joke with a slang man we were like tokin in dat slang for awhile! made a fool of ourself.. hahaha.. he and his $35! so furnie heard tis joke be4 from iggy.. haha darn funny lar.. back to the concert! i was darn angry lar me n peu shan n nat! dey were squeezin us n ya in fron tof me was tis huge guy five times my size... boy could i see.. he was jus to fat n blockin my whole view even his head was big.. get a life.. u are heavy yet u stand dere n jum on y feet! f**k lar.. pain like hell lar. heavens save me. dan ppl kept fallin causin a domino! f**K again sry... but ya! dam! nat fell a couple of times me n pei shan were worried abt her! man.. my sis n bryan were far at the back and it was very difficult to breathe! jumpin for fresh air.. half way tur the concert a guy from no where suddenly was lifted out of the crowd n guess wat?? jump n slam hos whole body on nat! man poor nat! i kicked the blady F**ker off her.. he jumped on her neck! ass! pei shan jus pulled her out! the other gals scold the blady guys! serve dem rite! it aint rite to do dat! could have killed nat! nononon.. dan took pics all la duh! hahah everythin was fun! met new frens jus like dat but no number all.. haha oh well.. jus one time meet. dan wen back lor.. actually not really hang out at some polace near town dere with nat n bryan n sis only! pei shan wen hm as she had a exam! haha acounts n she did not even revice! wat a life she has!

kk back to mormal sch days! everything was alrite! yup yup.. today had trainin! tirin u noe.. ran 20 rounds in the basement. did this ratio thing! 3:2:1:2:3 full court 1:2:3:4:3:2:1 2/3 court! man! dan rainin wen to base ment n did some work ours! workin on our abs n small muscles dat n other stuff! waaa sey.. after trainin my legs vould barely move! all achin.. hiaz.. :( wanna cry! walk so slowy n my hands were like shiverin! we even did medicine ball 2 kg ! 40 passes each person! hahahah... :'( cries out loud! my legs were already achin yesterday due to the skippin competition we came in third! hoooray! nice ncie pround of it lar.. didnt think of winnin but ya! third aint dat bad haha :)today's trainin was on fitness! legs are still achin can!! good heavens!i dun noe whether i can wake up sleep tru the nites.. darn nice. hahah! but tml i ma goin to see my may be piano! hahha.. dun noe wherer to put in the hse! already so small still wan a piaono! crazy! oh well.. my mum suggested it lor.. so happy! now i got guitar n piano nexy?? flute? hahah so coo i like! oh well.. i like music! :) oh well.. today duck went uo stage !!! rite duck! perservernce n tenesity?? how to spel it ? duck duck! tsk tsk! SO blur blur on stage! hahah cute lar.. love duck! i think i'll stop here! zzzzzz..

the time spent..

was nth but a rent.

everywhere i go

it is jus to hactic to void.

the love

the sorrows

all drwon in the sea..

never to return again!

wen will it ever be love?

a fond?

a likin?

the answers?

too out of point!

the boss is here

llook out..

play safe!

i miss ya!

a kiss goodnight..

2005-07-10T17:41:00.000+08:00

today today!! was a borin day! haiz. i have no idea of wat is goin on! woke up.. bath n change la duh wen for cat class! hahaha oh mine!! i am so sry ally n jules didnt turn up. hehez.. my bro la lazyin in bed! hahah.. bleahs :P anyways today class was borin no offence but it was it was.. abt the jews, father abraham and his wife sarah, god like duh, the ots n nts... hahaha yup yup! finally it ended wen for mass wif my darlins! celesther celestine!! sam nicole n hyaz were downstairs n mel was with her family sittin in front of me.. yupz yupz.. durin mass my bro was tryin to b furnie wenver celestine is ard! dey ahve some kind of electricity thingy! i jus dun noe wat! oh mine.. dey wont stop bickerin! hahahah!! shout stop somebody n hopefully hopefully dey would stop.. tsk tsk! no no no no.. oh wel.. my bro was gettin on our nerves as usual!! dat is wat he does best! annoys ppl.. actin silly in front of everybody!! no wonder he aint got any face! yes yes ho so does not! oh man! -smacks- okies...
later i've gotta go to my sis party at gardens the club.. hahaha! bored bored..

think i shall stop here! nth to say. kinda borin day! yes yes!!! misses!

till dat day..

from wat i say..

i dun think its gay!

wateva dey claim..

wateva dey frame!

no one is goin to get dier fame!

it all comes down

no! change dat frown..

smile n be free!!

it has no fee!

leave it alone..

soon i'll b gone.

tis i meant for real.

it aint a hell!

heavens where the angels are..

but devils dere are..

not many i guess..

from that one guest!

okies okies..

misss ya..

loves!

buabye..

yall are down!

2005-07-08T23:37:00.000+08:00

heyz.. back again.. okie today morinin started out alrite! except one bad news!! dat is.. we have to perform for teacher's day! and i mean like wat the hell..!! the teachers never even do anything for out youth day! still wan us to buy stuff for dem... bunch of rascals.. we even got a scoldin from dem sayin dat we were toooo noisy n were not goin to recieve our youth day prezzie!
sh!tbags.. hack it! aint gonna participate unless the teachers do something abt it... hahah! oh wel... lessons were borin!! darn borin... wanna die arh.. zzzzzz... oh ya we got our new timetable.. and u noe wat!!?? every single day of our sch life from monday to friday like duh... we have to see dat paricular teacher.. dat is msr meena!! hahah for lit she is alritee cos the text is nice n interesting but but palease pa-lease..!! for english???!!! she is darn borin.. sry i have to say tis.. but seriously.. i cant stand it.. be4 her lessons i aint dat sleepy but once i step into english and she starts teachin... immediately!! i would turn off n go into sleepin mood...zzzzzz will be poppin out.. almost the whole class!! except for all the geeks.. oppz.. unintentionally.. hahaha :)! waa... everyday i think i willl zzzzz! dat's for sure... y mus it be our class dat kena all the shI! stuff.. dam! finally sch ended! hurray! wen a lil high!

wen for trainin n guess wat it was fun! dam!! hahah... run 15 rounds of two courts.. did ball drills... the "h" dat miss dewi taught us, shuttle run,highest point! haha.. dan had a lil free time so wen to put in shots with the shooters kinda extra!! but nvm.. hahah. dan wen to gym.. workout dere la duh! wat else?! haha.. did a 10 mins run with monique and krunches and build up the abs.. haha.. however way u spell it.. yup yup everyone was like workin out!! surprisingly.. unlike us but i think now cos pasta sukan comin so mus train more more! yup yupz..after dat went up to teh court! hahaa.. play a game amongst ourselves... hahaha! i was the shooter.. -gs- hmmmz.. fun wenfeng de tall one defended me lar... but still manage to shoot.. hahah improve a lil i guess.. normally i get scared n miss it! haha.. she n her long long arms.. hahaha.. dere was no umpire! how? so much of fouls but still carried on playin! haha after all it was self train only.. haha yup yup! but we were laughin all the way! dan miss yang came n gave us a 10 min game.. fun though dan she tok to us abt our new jersey sayin dat we have to have the sch logo!! like wth! dun wan dun wan! make it small small.. dun wanna ruin the adidas jersey!! adidas adidas!! hahah love it man! had a "chat" hahaha n trainin ended! hahaha... played with anne, gina"action mama" and bay! me n bay ine team against de sec 3 the other 2 la duh.. dey took it n ran with it.. hahah not fair.. haha! who won in the end i also dun noe.. oh wellz.. dan wen to canteen met karin dat "lumpy lump" heh. tok dan go change!

guess wat walkin to my bag saw celesther n "chio bu" rach ng! hahaha... didnt noe dey were still in sch thot dey left... hahah o well.. cooll.. rach wen hm first! me n steph wen to change n celesther tag along! she was our hanger! hang all the uniform on her! hahah.. so fun rite steph?? dan we adioz from sch! -waves goodbye to netballers- haha... n off we went hm.. !!! yay! so tired from all the workout! shall stop nows.. adioz!

the sun was the light..

lickerin so bright..

everything dat i saw

was now a sore..

i thot somehow it was,

but wen i turn it crossed!

nth was left..

all i see is a raft.

sailin off to sea..

nth else to see..

only the waters and me!

wat's under me??

who knows wat could it be..??

whOO lala!

2005-07-04T21:55:00.000+08:00

kk i aM here again.. like again.. oh well... today was one hell of a DAY!

wennt out with my darlin steph! jus me n her.. how romantic-steph said tis- hahahaha.. yea! we first wen to ps -plaza sing- to get darlin celesther prezzie! yup yup... we did.. okay tried findin the fbt clothin but no more stock like wt the hell! how bad could it get! hahah.. okok ps has nth much so we took a train down to city hall to suntec n guess wat?? we saw miss heng but she could not recognise us... primary sch teacher lar.. hahha ha yo! dan we walk walk walk walk walk walk walk all th way to suntec city tower 5 the carrefour however way u spell it lar.. ya went dere to find the stuf we need... n we kept lookin lookin but dun have me size!! wat??!! smacks so i jus bought the other size! oh well it turned out alrite! yea... after carrefour walk walk walk walk walk n into op... haha dere we browse ard for a while n settle down to one slipper.. i took the black n blue as usual.. steph took the green n white her fav colours! hahaha... it was kinda cooll though! n i got a a pair of slippers! yay! hurray... lalala... dan back to walk walk walk oh ya i miss pne part be4 we left carrefour i went to eat chicken rice! hahah.. nth important js wanted to say cannot is it?!?!?! hahaha.. bla bla! dan bnack to walkin! walk to flash n splash.. see here n dere n out went! tis time round head on back bishan! j8 lar duh! okies.. went to fouth flooorr to buy the wallet we wanted but but but again no more stocks!!! wat the hell... wat a waste lar! smacks! nvm.... next time perhaps..!! we n steph were like luaghin everywhere we went lar!! on the train also!!! practically everywhere!! hahaha so funnny! wateva dat comes out of her n i'll b the one tryin to win the conversation n yes i won! hahahahahaha!!! okok.. back to j8 wen to S n K bought a new pants! actually we stayed dere quite long lar.. tryin on diff kind of cuttings some of it is really..... really... not my type plus the color n muah's colour dun really blend well! hahha.. finally finallyy after much consideration n tryin outs.... we settled with one pants and and again we bought exactly the same thing! hahaha!! exactly! really size n everything! hahaha.. oh well.... dan it was kinda late for me as i've gotta meet up my other darlins for my joggin! so we late for home kinda tired after walkin n all!! no more money also.. hahahah $$$$ all gone! waaa... so hm sweet hm!!
wen to bath n all change into my joggin gear n everything! wait for a while more dan i left the hse but bt be4 dat my sis wen to try on the pants n slippers be4 i could do anythig to it... see how self service she is! how wonderful.. but lucky she canwear the pants cos i boughta size bigger! hahah..but the slipper too big! hahaha muach ahhaha!!! oh well so mean of me.. lalala! kkk wen to meet to the bishan park for my jog! waa wait for dem tel u can die! solisten to music! hahaha... wait wait!! dan dey came wen to run lar... not even 2 mins dey tireed... so reest dan i ran on my own! hhah celestine wen to find me but wen diff ways.. hahah! oh well... hmm... dan finally found her! okok!! jog la! dun need to say everything but HAd lits of fun lar! hahah seriouly a lot! but while wwalkin to the coffe shop celestine n celesther were so funny by wat dey were sayin i was laughin non stop until had stomache!! hahahahahahahahah!!! rofl! waaa dam funny man.. can die of laughin! hehe.. okies.. dan shld b all la!!! dat is all!

i had so much fun woth dam la! DAM!! was it fun love dam lots!

ps: iggy was so naughty!! he did not come n jog! he said he had other stuffs to do!! shshshs its a secret! hahaha! bla bla! rmb a secret... wonder wat stuff...

the time draws near

fallin out of gear..

wateva seems here

i cant seem to hear...

the words are out

wen will it cut.

wat i noe..

all seems a bliss....

she is gone!

2005-07-02T20:11:00.000+08:00

the feelin fails..

all i see is a trail..

once lost

but now frost..

was it dat hard?

to accept one's card??

i try to see..

but none was free.

who could have captured it??

a cruel beast?

nth was left the same

as it came!

everything seems away..

where?! is the way?

for u i've stride..

racin a ride..

seein is believin!

jokes set asides..

come on down to business..

it aint any silliness..

one mistake

one wrong move

a switch in plans

a foot off the ground!

watch it..

for it may leave..

thou shall take wat is deirs..

move it..

get lost..

back off..

!@#$ off..

wen will i ever see myself

as whom i see..

the reflection in the mirror

wont erase its error..

wats' reflected shall be as it is...

to whom can i trust?

to whom shall i bear my sorrows in?

to whom shall i lean on?

to whom? i ask!!

it all comes down to one!

that will always noe the answers..

it aint u.

it aint dem!

its me n him

one me one god!

the trees sways side to side..

i wander alomg..

the winds blows..

sendin the leaves with it..

am i dreamin?

it all seems so real..

i walk along the side..

lookin at wat's beyond me..

hopin to find a new life..

the light was dere..

walkin towards freedom..

i see!

i do i do!

the sun birds trees animals!

relaxed i felt!

come on! its only a dream!

somebody pinch me!

soar for the light i see!

nah its not..

jus a lamp!

kk its done!

bye bye!

see ya next time!

blogs off!

never felT dA saME!

2005-06-27T18:18:00.000+08:00

Heyz.... back from all the busy things i've been doin.. hahaha.. hmmm....

on saturday the 25 of june duh! : wen to watch arch bishop cup... yea cos of mr ignatoius gabriel d'cruz! u get dat!! huh... u piGGy... still say we brouhgt the storm with us! wAa slap ur brains out! heh.. no worried i wont jus sayin only lar aint dat mean to slap ur puny lil brains out! yup yup.. ya k it was kinda borin.. hmmm.. watch for a while dan it rained!! wat the hell.. waited for it to stop la.. dan celestine!! she had to leave so walked her out to the bus stop till her bus came.. dan i was nice as to go back to watch again.. walked up the hill again.. dam!! tirin man.. lucky it was dat hot! haha... finally reeach the top tryin to find the ladies but no dun haf oh wel.. kk was asked to go on the blady field... n ended messin up my jeans n slippers lucky me dad didnt see or else i'll be dead! iggy was tryin to entertain me and ya it worked... go do ur warm up lar! haha.. kk dan went to aloyvetha n tok tok tok tok... and tok abt aherm aherm! hehe.. yea yea.. parents came n left! sry Piggy could not watch much! hehe.

okay finally first week of sch is over! yay! rejoice.. so happy lar.. so much of things goin on! homework tooo.. i so wanna split my head! projects r dued but extended till later fortunately! thank GOD! hmm.. durin the this week... i didnt even understand muah math! wat "toa cah soh" wat wat wat!!! wat angle of elevation.. give me a break already! no matter how many times muah teacher explain i stil dun get it.. how how how!! die die die! till now i am still puzzlin over it... yea.. wednesday had trainin!! did the stairs sue the rain! wAaa single legs hop daan double.. etc.. wen home with two achin legs! it still aches a lil.. need to do more fitness.. stamina droppin shall run on muah own... shall drag my frens dat is if dey wan lar.. dun force! no no no.. n tml i am goin to rach hse to workout! yupz.... see... uhuh.. have to train n build it up.. hahaha... thursday wen to rach hse again after sch to do their project! not mine muah diff class! gelp dem a lil here n dere cos i was free... hahaha.. yupz.. whose? :: hmmm darlin ah ma , darlin steph tan, bay bay and of cos the "chio" rach! hahaha cathy n me went for fun.. hahah rite cathy... hmmm.. sumthing fishy happened!! hahaha.. aint gonns saY! bleax.. too bad! on tuesday! hahaha kinda fun la tis day! wen to sch la duh! dan wat! pontang?? crazy afte sch wen to potong pasir with drlin ah ma first as steph tan n bay rach were eatin! n took a long time! me n ah ma wen to cut muah hair and it was fast so wen first.. reach the place saw celestine n iggy! yea.. dan wen down to walk n buy stuff n food.. after dat fetch dem! goodness.. hot like anything can! hmmmz back at the place where dey did deir projects... discussin here n dere.. yup yup.. came up with ideas n all.. bla bla bla bla bl and so it goes.. dan we took the computer from iggy or celestine 1 of dem la... and use! i got bored! danc elestine gave iggy sum story thing which i read only half way! haha.. so i wanted to cont.. n dat mr iggy..!! took so long to red.. read soooo soooo sooo slow! WOLS! next century already... so ya snatch here n dere! n i slapped iggy's face! yup yup! was it slapped or pushed ah ya one of it.. hahaha.. goondu! dan so called fight! take so long.. k darlin celestine's story was good... yup yup.. she can write! uhuh! darlin u can write.. hahha.. interestin! i was playin ard after daT! walk here n dere.. dat rm this rm! hmmm dan sat next to darlin steph tan to do her math! n o gave one superb website for the question it jus cam to muah mind it was made up!!! yes yes it was! shshshshs!!! i shall not say! dan she did her question from dere all thanks to muah! hahaha.. awww.. me me me! ahaha.. k so thick skinn! ewewe.. sry abt dat! soon to an end.. iggy left (yes finally teh piggy is gone)-hahahahahaha muah hahahah- n gave me a whack on muah head with a bottle!!! trryin to kill me!!-smacks-asgh! so pain.. so fight! dan the hero of the day came!! guess who!! its unbelievable!! it was... (drum roll please) .... darlin celestine who almost made me roll the down the stairs lucky i balance! hahah.. yea.. she came and stop the whole thing lar! dere was a spllit check tis out ( darn lame) celestine n iggy were on their own! ah ma, steph tan,rach, steph bay n muah were on our own! hahaha yea! so ya! good a... two grps in one placce!! end of the week already!

now now!!! dat's all la!! still got lar but.. but... but... but lA! haiz.. no cat class! yup yup.. dun need to wake up early! yay!

the love was taken..
i'm walkin away..
gettin me wrong!

untouchable memories!
dat servered my day skies blues

nothing was made possible

to the unsensible!

daY by DAY!

2005-06-22T11:56:00.000+08:00

hey BCk agaIN!! postin agaiN! hehz. :) well k this is the last week of sch hholidays! i mean like wat the helll pa-lease.. i wan more.. i wan to enjoy!! pa-lease i haf not had my fun! yes! all the supposed plan were cancelled! asgh! cos of all the sch activities... and church.. almost occupied! goodness! cant take tis no longer! UHUH! NO.. oh wel..

on monday... wen for trainin in the afternoon! DUH.. dan left half way to go to church bbq! haha.. wAaa should not haf left okay.. dey were hafin a match! wen the bus drove past! i wanna go back for match... too bad huh.. hiaZ.. wanna cry! okay rush back.. wAaa relax for few mins n wen to bath all.. find clothes all.. do the hair.. okay zoom out of the hse.. and wat happen i miss all the buses to church! 22 24 853! asg.. goodness.. wait la dan late la.. its practical! it was a total turn off la. well i'm cool with dat sh!t.. hehe.. :) waited for my darlins.. dan wen for mass.. hehe.. the mass was alrite la.. except dat me n celestine kept laughin at celesther n evelyn! who were supposedly to be the gradmas.. jus dat celesther was ah ma n evelyn was the grreat grandma! how big could our family get.. haha.. dun u thinkn its interesting! hmmm... mass ended la duh.. wen for the bbq.. k i thot it was goin to be something very big la.. big bbq pit n all! but but but but! it turned 0ut dat it was mini mini bbq pit.. one for each level or sumthing like dat.. but out class had our own! yayness.. haha.. awww.. and this i haf to say! the guys r bad at bbqing! the chickne turn out RAW.. sasauges burnt fishball from white to BLACK! hahahahahaha.. y could jus imagine wat we were eatin.. hahaha.. the guys bbqin were.. -iggy-chris goh-justin- er i dun noe hu la.. but the gals bbqin were.. -celestine-celesther-cheryl-debbie- and ya the ppl fannin the ppl bbqin were -julia-ally-me- haha.. ya! it was kinda fun la.. dan i jus ate one blady raw chicken! dan had no more appetite.. yupz.. after dat we sort of got bored n wen to the arcade la.. we werent dat sneeky okay! we told cheryl n selina! actually dey asked us la.. hahah so we were good n told dem la.. dey were worried! hahahahaha.. instead of the bus we walked! n boy was it long.. hahaha.. walk walk in the dark dark nite... n the trees.. haha.. dan i dun noe y while walkin dere julia started chasin me! hahah.. we puch each other... push here n dere... but no one kena the drain.. wat a waste... hahah k jokin la.. who went... -celestine-ally-julia-me-iggy-gary-chris goh-bertrum-justin-nick lee- u happy now IGGY! huh? huh? hehe...ermm i cant rmb already! hahaha.. oppZ sry! haha.. but got others la.. i think.. o wel.. dan play play all .. hahah.. i was playin tis game fightin game! won julia.. yay!! waaa i thot it ended but i had to play with the com! wAa.. tirin hand pain.. n gary n bertrum was like tryin to b funny! wen to third stage i think n gave up hand pain like shit! hittin all the buttons! haha.. they said i was a pro! hehe.. jokin but dey really said dat! oh wel.. k play other la duh! the guys paid for the gals.. hahaha.. so nice of dem but dey r really nice lar.. no joke.. haha.. dan walk back went seperate ways! julia n ally left half way! -celestine-me-iggy-gary-chris goh??- ya! we walked back! hahaha.. walk walk in the dark dark!! haha.. i like to say dat! dan sum thing happen wen we reach the church bus stop! haha.. sumthing!! yes! aint goNNa say a word! hshshshshs... hahaha..

tuesday! yesterday wen our witht eh netballers.. yup.. had fun la! many stuff happen! haha.. n miss dewi beat me!!! two timeS! she was first n i second! hahah.. no no!!! daytona! haha... hey kinda long alreayd lei! but we really did many stuff.. hahaha.. netballers rulEz.. shokie is leavin us! no! how can this be... sad! pouts.. y y y y y ! haiz.. now no more sockie,monkey,n her stupid cute dance.. waaa.. trainin would kinda funny without her la.. cos had so much fun with her.. yupz.. our defender cum shooter gone? ahahahah! screams hands in the air.. i surrender.. hahah rubbish! but we'll miss her.. haha yupz.. went to ps.. plaza singapura! if u guys dun noe! haha.. alrite dan ciaoZ!

the nite is here.

sumthings r a smear..

findin hard to say..

all i need is one day..

i'm down with dat!

everything was cool..

but it werent u..

everything was jus a fool...

it aint wat it seems..

to be in the beam !

back off..

**** off..

u shot it..

u pay it..

**** one by one! DAN 2 BY 2

2005-06-17T22:22:00.000+08:00

hey hey! kk i am bAAAaacck! okok.. today suppose to go the park but sumhow it rain!!! wAaa... screams! i cannot cannot and cannot sit still!! yes yes.. i will go maaaadddd... hoo hoo! lalala lololo lilili lululu! hehehz.. jokin la.. i am sober! aint drunk! i am a good gurl.. maybe except to sum ppl -east coast beach- haha. we were really mad.. cathy wen HIGH!

today today it rain.. uhuh! it did.. watch tv all.. play guitar hang myself to de com in the mornin.. ya.. after lunch ma bro wanted the umbrella gave him one! insisted on MINE umbrella.. so okay give him dan he show attitude n soooo darn blady rude... ask him back dun wan still can say : wateva! and mumbled sum shit under his breathe! ooooo... i jus felt like slappin him upside down inside out! but i jus push him! i turn n face my back at him.. he punched my back wen i turn ard to return him his whack he hit my face! WaaAaa dat is it! held him by the neck! and pin him to the wall whack him n slap his blady face! who ask him touch my face! deserve it! i dun give a shit abt him.. in the end hu ended up cryin?? hu hu! aint me alrite.. its him.. hahaha! cry sisi.. good heavens give me a break wanna pick a fight think of new ways! no violence for u cos he always end up losin n cryin! hahaha.. i noe i am mean but u shld haf seen him! stupid freak! enuf of him already he aint worth it..

okok.. to cool myself n not to bored myself to death.. accompanied celestine darlin to this place to make her contacts! finally she has her contacts soo she could stop whinning abt it.. sry darlin! yaya but but but be4 she did! we could not find the special shop! walk here n dere... walk walk! walk to ur left! walk to ur right! haha.. but wen we were tokin was tokin to iggy to find out wat the hell he was tokin abt! i cannot make seense out of it.. haha so didnt really noe where i was walkin.. and finally the shop was jus in front of the lift near the escalator where we came up from! wth! we walk walk n ended up knowin it was jus dere! were we blind? haha okok.. dan it was time for deir eye check up n stuff!! BOY BOY was it long!! read all the magazines le.. ZzZzz bored like shit can! teh lady sooooo pro until arh can check one person alomost till an hour! pa lease its jus an eye check! wAaa... i wanna faint n stab myself.. both of dem was stuck inside for SoooOo longe.. i coulf haf fried many eggs.. yeeeaaa.. hahaha.. okok makin me wait celestine decided to treat me to something! yes so darlin celestine u still owe me.. haha.. lalala.. after deir wateva shit.. celestine: hard lens celesther darlin: soft lens jus like mine! yay! and yes tis two naughty darlin of mine is hidin sumthing from me!!! nad i have been livin in agony tryin to find out hu!! and i still dun noe hu!!! screams... bugged dem all day n still dun wanna say! slap dem! haha no la.. i wont.. cannot slap any of my precious darlins.. no no! dan we walk ard town and all.. wento herren to taka for macs to j8 walk ard to home! haha yay to .. watch tv n didnt feel like eatin so didnt really eat! watch tv till my sis's guy fren came knew all of dem! haha.. wAa one of dem so stupid ask stupid questions n answered his own questions i got irritaed n kick him! n he ate half of my kit kat!! waaa my chocolate! kick him again.. haha.. dan ya dey left i wen back to my tv! yes yes.. watch untill happy come here la.. haha okok so tis is it yea.. cya soon! goin out with my steph darlin tml jus me n her! yay! fun! wil get lost in singapore again! haha.. lalal.. fun man..

i try not to think abt it..

i try to forget u..

but sumhow i cant..

cos its too deep..

it once was..

but now more..

it seems..

but it can never be..

bye bye to u!

hello to me?

wishes to be true!

2005-06-15T19:10:00.000+08:00

weLL well! it church camp is over.. we break camp on monday.. camp was fun i would haf to admit.. at first didnt wanna go! was very reluctant! heh.. cos no mood la.. did many stuffs lar.. in camp.. dun wish to say once i start it never ends! haha.. yes yes.. first day wen to serangoon stadium which was walkin distance from my hse!! and played captain's ball! WELL played wihout my slippers on.. and later end up gettin a blister! yea.. two big ones summmore!! waAa saY!! hardly walk!! haIZ.. oh wel.. but it was worth it.. cos we won!! haha we beat the other team lalala!! but it was DARN fun! love camp.. oh well.. had emotional moments.. many peepS i knew cried.. hmmm let me put it tis way.. i cried n celestine! hiaz touchy aa? wrote letters to parent all!! wAaaa!!! cry!!!! haha.. so emotional! oh No NO! but i enjoyed myself! after break camp with for lunch with celesther celestine melissa sam diana nicole and hyaz n lydia!hahah! dat was an edit! sry lydia! hu did i miss out? hmm.. yupZ.. after dat went to the park!! with celestine n celesther!! wAaa and dat mr IGGY made me go aLl the way to dun noe where jus to get him n gary!! so in all wen with celesther celestine MR IGGY gary! yea... played n fight all!! hehe... enjoyed myself didnt wanna go hm but celesther wanted to go hm.. goodness..was very fun indeed.. dan went hm.. bath changed all dan rush out to meet my sis and we out to city hall.. wen shoppin la.. kinda fun! bought aDidAS Stuff!! and aLl i chose most of dem!! hahah.. lallaa.. so nice.. wanted the shoe bag but sis said NO! hahah.. oh wel.. mext time perhaps.. saw this adidas dreSs it wa nice but but but!! the price was farr tooo nice... hahaha.. too ex..so ya! we had tp strike it out.. so sad.. it was darn nice la.. ah.. screams.. wen shooppppin witH muaH sis.. so fun bought new slippers too.. heh..

okay yesterday.. daddy gave us dis father to children tok again.. and he metioned the letter!! wAaa i cried.. wth! i mean write n tell u not to mention still wanna mention!! my tears flowed enuf.. hahaha!! oh wel..

tml i am goin out! hurraY! today was so borin!! but celesther came over n mr iggy was actin like a kiddo! haha.. yes tml i would not be boreed!! hurraY! lalala.. goodness.. i wanna go to the park again!! yes yes!! again.. so fun..

now nana have to try to study!! get back to work n study smart for end yr!! time flies.. haha.. yes yes.. oh no!! too fst no good! haha.. oh wel.. i gtg.. late alreadY!!

FYI** camp was fun except dat more stuff means more problem!! lalala.. okok ciaos.

the time... the place..

it all seem to happen..

i wonder off to seek..

end up findin not wat seeked..

teh darkness was mean

mean enuf to scare me off the hook

unleashin wats behind

knowin its a mistake..

take not for granted...

for u might know..

it vanishes

with a snap!

craPPY!! osh..

2005-06-07T18:25:00.000+08:00

heyhey! it has been a while since i posted! well wat ya wan me to do! i am always hogged up at sch trainin! not much time to have a holiday! goodness.. oh wel.. wen u gotta go... u gotta go! trainin has been fun though.. besides all thoses runs and stuff gotta do with erm.. erm.. fitness. haha! tiring.. netball camp is over.. it was alrite except 11111 thing!! yes 1 thing! dat is the mornin run! i could barely walk after dat.. haha.. we were punished for bein late too.. can u believe it! haiz.. 1 down 2 down! 1 up 2 up! crunches n push up! scrap me skin on my knee after doin ladies' style push up! wth! nvm.. netball camp was kinda cool but too bad for the friendly match.. its rainin its pourin the old man is snorin! hehez.

now now back to reality! lame.. well.. sparined my ankle again! again can u believe dat! how could this happen to me! oh no no! yesh sprained it alrite.. was playin with my most wonderful tender lovin care ah ma! gave her showers of blessing in the toilet n ran out for cover! dan dun noe yyyyy it sum how shock my ankle n BILA BANG BILA BOOM into de wall! ouch! wth! sprained it! asgh.. stupidity has once again took over me..??? haha.. my pals came over to my hse.. celestine online while ah ma massages myy leg! oh so live my ah ma! yesh yesh! muacks! haha.. i owe her many meals now! manny many meals! my pocket is growin a hole! oh no nO! this aint wat is seems..

today was a borin day! yes yes! borin! come on spell it out! b o r i n g! guitar lessons was borin! oh no no.. i dun wanna go tml! no no! i rather sleep in dan strum in! haha.. lucky in ended early! i could have died dere.. and was fooled by SUM1 sayin dat class started at 9 instead of 10! made me rush like an idiot and it turned out dat it started at wat time??!! 10 am! wth! i almost wanted to kill dat sum1.. asgh. made me act like a fool waitin! me, ah ma and hyaz! good heavens! we had each other.. hehez.. ah ma came to church with 2 guitars! hahaha. so cute.. lala. n the lunch we paid for was totally a turn off.. can barely finish it.. yup yup.. so threw it away.. ahahaha.. muah haha..

anyways adioZ amigoZ! i love my pals! spread the love!

dun wonder off by far... or else i may never reach u again..

the precious water still drips..

and the river flows..

for u i cry..

without it i stand!

caUgHT Rite IN the MIddle!

2005-05-27T16:39:00.000+08:00

i lost my mind! all the late nights left me no good! tuesday was the start! had a hell of a headahce.. i thot it was jus a minor thing.. but as the day went by it got worse.. hopin that the pain will subside, takin panadol! i went spinnin... feelin drowsy i fell asleep! wake up! project still undone.. oh man.. i had to do the projects! geog eng art hist n lit! LIT n GEOG was a turn off.. y does everything has to be last minute! burnin the midnight oil jus to get it done.. wakin up up early.. hoo! my headache worsen! rashses, flu, cough n the most obvious a fever! well a high fever... with all this shit.... feelin nausea! vomited doh.. oh man.. i aint feelin well.. my mind has a min of its own! i cannot control myself.. throwin my temper ard! tryin to get a hold of myself.. but no.. i jus could not.. or i jus was too lazy.. teh drillin jus wont stop! i've gotta play tml! netball carnival! no i cant miss dat! i dun care.. i am goin.. no matter wat happens! i jus cannot miss a netball match! jus hopin hte medicine would work! asgh! i wanna go!

now the hse is mine.. peace n quiet.. mum n bro went for some shit stuff.. sis doin her studies n dad workin n i??? well here writin this wen i am suppose to sleep or rest! haiZ.. i cant stand to b sick! realy feel like goin out! but once i hit the sun bila bang bila boom.. i jus drop flat! collected my results and it was again like shit.. to me dere was no improvement! asgh.. no! this cant do!

hoo hoo! the HOLIDAYS r here! lalla! happy.. but dere is netball trainin n camp! oooo lala! one more thing dere is also church camp. yup yup! oh ya.. planin an outin to sentosa! hahah! cant wait tp go! i soooo miss the beach.. lets go n get dirty at the beach! we shall run dance sing n play ! no worries! HAKUNA MATATA! i think dat its how u spell it! oh well.

i'm sick! dun make push it! or else i mught jus blow ur top away! sry!

gentler pls!!

2005-05-22T22:59:00.000+08:00

should i hang on or give up! dat is the question! givin up does seem to be easy but actually it isnt! i dun noe y! the more i do the more i cant! the more i hang on the more hurt i get!! oh y mus dis happpen to me! y!! i jus cant the pain i bear.. it is far too hurtin i have enuf of everything y mus it be me dat suffers.. for hu's sake am i bearin all these miseries.. i mus get a hold of myself be4 i get overborad and push myself to the death penalty.. for wat reason mus i live this way! let me go! i wanna run away from this place goin into hidin from all the troubles dat comes after me! i run far.. far from anyone.. anyone hu can stop me.. chase me.. look for me.. search for me.. i will never change my mind! leave me.. and i will be alrite.. i jus need to ease of the pain u cosed.. played with my heart.. n scared the wound! i tried to forget U! but no.. asgh..

cant i put my life to an end... havin no worries.. no more family matters.. jus no more.. frens now? wat could be worse! oh baby... how i wish..impossible.. let it go! never will it happen! stop dreamin n snap back to reality! let lose..

the pain i bear

its too hard too faiR

for one's lost

i could get frost..

finally i stop

too good for a shop!!

rock my daylights out

till is time out!

i could dance all nite

too shake lose dat fight!

i wish to die

could it be to fly!?

how do i know

from wat i saw

the thought left me..

jumpin off a clif..

seekin a new life i wish..

maikin it into the dish.

the only dream

is washed away in a stream

crutchin my pillow.

as sum1 follows.

the shadows n darkness'

the slience n emptiness..

am i dat heartless.?

u r gone..

far beyond..!

scram! leave me.. i drink myself away!

believin ITs truE!

2005-05-21T14:13:00.000+08:00

wat'S up with all the projects! good heavens.. lucky scince pro was over! a lighter load of work.. stupid scince pro made me stay up till 4 o'clock in the morinin! left me feelin sick... i wonder how many times i vomitted! asgh... and my head jus wont stop spinnin!! ooOOOOOooooo.. went to sch lookkin like a Zombie! was darn tired... sleepin in the bus.. and in class... den the teacher had to come in! me n duck 03 was sleepin wen our math teacher came in.. durin his class i was like sleepin with an eye open... and duck menon n my mms had to make fun of me.. haha.. but day me awake.. all their nonsense.. guess wat... mms was tellin ghost stories... ooOO.. i dun wanna hear! haha.. ohya.. i dun think i can get over my fear over horror movies.. unless sum1 jus wont stop tellin jokes.. makin me laugh and not thinkin abt the terror parts of the movie.. haha.. dat wil never happen.. haha..

now now.. monday is a holiday! didnt noe it until yesterday wen our teachers kept sayin all hw are dued on tuesday.. haha.. i wanna go out.. i dun wanna stay hm... it is borin.. and the june holidays are comin soon.. yayness.. oppz.. dere will be extra lessons especially for math.. netball camp, church camp.. wat else?? hmmz.. oh ya.. a trip to sentosa.. meetin all my frens hu are goin for the humantities camp. dat was on purpose! seein mdm hassana. lala.. it will be fun. while dey captivated under the hands of the teachers.. we play! hahaha.. jus rite in front of dem. oh man.. how devilish could one get! lala. whistling away! i cant wait to go to the beach nor sentosa.. havin the time of our lives.. playin on the beach! volleyball, frisbee, dunkin each other in the sea! wouldn't dat be fun! the more the merrier.. hmms.. thinkin abt stayin on the beach till the stars jump out rite of the sky! oo.. how lovely.. we will be playin music and rockin our minds, heart n sou awayl! til the mornin comes.. we wont know!

oh... now dere are projects! geog and english combine! art history n lit combine! asgh.. hate projects.. i dun wanna stay up late again.. i will go mad n be sick! am aalready not feelin too good too well.. i shall wonder!..

i lie awake thinkin of wat may become out of me.. wonderin will i ever be free... searchin for one's lost... makin sacrifices... losin out on everything i ever had.. i grab on to that something in which i dun think i could ever have.. that was once taken away n now left with many things surroundin it... that is sumthing i worry abt as i know... dat i will never have that something as my...how stupid can i be to still think dat grabin n holdin on to that sumthing dat it will in return go back to my side.. wat was i thinkin..!!! no matter wad happpens i dun think i can ever get over it... the surroundings are far too charmin.. nth i do wll make it obvious.. i am on the losin end i noe.. even if it was not meant to be

it is me! i am who i am! nth will change dat! on three.. one teo three. bang! i am down.!

i mIss the old daYS!

2005-05-15T22:45:00.000+08:00

kahoots.. now dat the mid years r finally over.. wat is worse is gettin teh results back.. good gosh.. haha.. dat will b terror.. yup yup... well tdy went for cat class.. as usual late again had to run den hed to climb up the flight of stairs to the attic.. goodness.. n boy was cat class borin! darn borin.. zzZzZzz.. haha. went for mass with mt pals.. yupz. after dat wen to ah ma's hse for the rest of the day.. do u noe how borin is dat?? faints.. so darn borin.. i could have gone out! oh mine.. wasted the whole day over dere.. at nite was indeed a nite! my ah ma cookeed crab.. asgh.. was dat great.. haha.. yum yum..

at nite! -scene at hm- wow terror.. bro got a trash down from dadd! hahaha.. good for him.. oppZ.. parents started fightin again.. not again... pls o pls.. get a life.. i had enuf.. -drown myself- okay enuf of this shit.. dun wanna say nomore..

i am so feelin like shit of some news.. news news.. no no no no! pls pls pls.. set me free from this!! will sum1 unclench my fist.. untie the not... n brin me back hm safely.. i am lost in the wilderness dat sumhow got me stuck in the shadows of the trees n livin things.. i wonder ard hopin to find sum1 to hold! i grab on tight to my life... prayin hard dat i will be saf in the arms of sum1 i hope it may be...

life is the road i wanna keep goin!
love is the river i wanna kepp flowin!
i will be dere wen the world stops turin
i will be dere went the storm is through..
in the end..
i wanna be standin at the beginnnin with U!

miss u much-

wHAT iS thiS!

2005-05-13T22:34:00.000+08:00

i am barely hangin on to this life.. everyday troublez find me! for waT shit reason.. i had enuf of this life.. i jus cant take it! how am i suppose to face realty.. i want to be free... free ffrom evryone! come hm only that stupid bro of mine will start to irritate me! back off man.. and my mum.. troublesome... she is just so noisy! screamin her head off.. only takin it on me n my sis.. wat is ur prob.. a bird is livin a better life dan me.. i am already troubled enuf..family is so darn pain! argh.. need a better life! dun wanna go home.. at least not now where i have to face dem-mum n bro- happy dat my freakin exams are over.. bunch of papers.. so in deep shit wen i get my papers back again.. art was a total mass.. i soooo ruined my final pic. it is so dull.. i am leadin a dull life.. is dat wat i am tryin to say. i dun noe..?? argh.. i need to shake off everything.. now dat exams are over... projects are due be4 the term closes.. argh.. i jus found out new shit.. no this cant be.. the clock is tickin and time is runnnin short.. snap back to reality..!!

today wasn't any better.. even though i went to the beach but still we did not have much fun as last time.. coz everything was so rash.. we played volleyball which was kinda lousy lost touch.. played catchin! hello... the whole beach! tired man.. phyllis n cathy both trackers.. waaaa! wanna die.. haha oh well dey didn't catch me! ahaha! i was jus too fast on the beach.. was snappin pics.. n drinkin stuff.. unknown.. wanted to be high but nah.. me fren was too worried for us so ya for her sake we stopped.. den we took the bottles wrote all our hates loves and wishlist and place it in the bottles.. wat happen after dat is all a mystery! aint gonna say.. played dog n bone.. and monkey.. gerald n phy was the first two monkeys.. haha u noe y?? nah it is for me to noe and for u to find out! winks- den went to one of the rock and everyone sat dere and peepz left to elsewhere n green frog n i was sleeppin things happen in my dream!! asgh asgh asgh screams! woke up feelin lost.. ah ma was listenin to her radio n lookin outward to the sea.. beautiful!

the only thing in my mind is u! i am missin u! each time each moment.. the day i wish to hold u in my arms! i am holdin onto u until it is time wen sum1 has grabbed u be4 i did.. have u ever wonder wat it is like to b left all alone. well i only can picture wat will be of us.. but nah.... sadness.. sumbody told me..... oh mine.!

i dun wanna be lonely no more... dun phunk with my heart.... love lots..
-i am screamin out.-
-it aint any better even at the beach-
-i wana swing myself in and out-

in the midsT!

2005-05-10T17:44:00.000+08:00

oh boY! kk stILL have maths n hist not forgettin aRT! screams.. hist! i haven started! goodness... haIZ.. today was science! minE o MINE! hahah chemistry is so sh!t.. wont do well wat the hell is atoms?isotopes? etc.. dere is so many things.. aSgh.. so gonna fail... tML is maths.. oh mine... numbers.. haha... must practice.. soon... well todaY jus finsh conferencin with steph n celesther.. boy was it long.. ears wanna drop out liao.. haha.. it hurts.. was learnin math.. teachin one another.. how sweett.. haha suddenly sum1 came... it was steph's...... hahah shall not say... winks.. steph i am so nice.. hahaha.. i treat my darlins so nice..

gosh now dere is song : i cant smile without u.. ! and the song goes on.. hahah... from the oldies.. cOol.. haha.. but anyways tataz.. study now.. muggin hard.. haha tml celesther n celestine comin over! hahah.. frends... yupz... winks ;) buays..... -waves-

-babY i think i neeD a u!-

fUN!

2005-05-07T21:15:00.000+08:00

BOO! MUAh hahaha.
wel well.. okaY now i aM feelin uneasy.. feel like pukin! argh.. cos after eatin.. i went high.. wen to play de swing!
u must b wonderin.. how old still play.. ah ya.. i am young at heart! hahaha.. okk.. me and celestine.. after dinner.. wow shiok man.. went way way up! gosh. scared celesther.. winks.. i love the swing.. any1 wanna challenge me?? haha..okay dat is so hao lian..oppz.. wow.. i am so not feelin well.. but wen i was swingin i felt darn happy.. i mean like after all i stopped goin to the swing since primary 6! gosh! i cant wait to swing again.. maybe on friday n saturday... yupzz. one is at the beach n the other not sure abt the place.. hehez.. hiaZ.. i am really missin out the joy in playgrounds... haha..

anyways.. today was down at gardens [macs] yup! studyin n crappin dere.. haha.. celesther jus cant keep still.. and nicole was the subject of the day... was snappin her pics.. hahaha... n celestine.. she keep blowin her nose... dhe had a flu.. i think or is it sum1 is missin her..?? only GOD noes.. hahaha.. oh well... celestine get well soon yea! i finish 3 papers.. chinese english literaute.. okay chinese was a turn off.. goodness.. dun even noe wat i was writin la... the answer was way out of point.. hahaha.... oh man.. i lost too much marks in the comprehension... goodness.. sometimes i wonder am i even chinese!!?? asgh! read chinese also off key and speak also speak like english chinese.. i wonder abt my oral.. daT is it.. fail! i dun even understamd my chinese paper.. the passage the sentence!!?? asgh.. my chinese is a real turn off.. haiz..

now... i left with hm econs geog maths hist science... yup did i miss out any.. oh mine.. and i am here writin dis..
ah ya.. i am so not serios for the exams.. if i fail i am so dead... real deep shit.. hahaha... okok..!

OH... i just cant for the exams to finish... yupz.. i wanna chill out... at the beach at the park frens hse... anywhere but sch! ahahaha... oh well.... oh wait io still got projects still not done.. haiZ.. so much thing but so lil time... wtH! anyways.. i was enjoyin myself today with muah frens.. hahaha.. yupZ.. strum the guitar in the evening.. haha.. YAYness.. anyways ciaoz... tataz...

-u had me! u lost me! and now u want me back! u **** the ground baby played around! n now u're feelin sad!-

-kahoots.. hahah waves..-

restleSS me!

2005-05-04T18:26:00.000+08:00

i caNt stop thinkiN!

nor moviN!

nor JumpIN

noR daNCIN!!

argH! restleSs ME!

i wanna DO STUff

WAy BEYONd my LIMits!

buT I aM BOUNDED!

BY the barriers!

ah! i waNNA flY

faR beyond daT waLL...

i waNNA screaM

tiLL my luNGs go soaR!

i feeL likE jumpIN

buT i caNt reaCH tHE sKY!

waT iS iT dat keepS me

GROUNDED!!!

arGH!!! i cANt waiT foR

FREEDOM!

saY aLl u waNT

screaM all u waNT

caNe all u waNT

beat all u waNt

slaP al u waNT

scoLD all u waNT!

WAIT TILL U SEE WAT I WANT!!!!!

the thiNGs i dO!

aINt ur concerN!

i waNNA do aLL sorT of stuFF

excepT the oneS waY beyonD My limiTS limiTS!!

get wat i meAN!!

oh noooOOo...

i am thinkin too mucH!

no wonder i caNt sleeP at niTE!

but wen morinin cOMES

i go intO sleepIN modE!

-todaY!-

waS one heLl of daY!!
had chinese exAMS!! and like heLa ya i am goNNA faIL!1 i dUN even understaND la! sO maNY ruBBisH answer! oh welLs... i can even close an eye doin iT!! wat i studieD didn come OUT!! arGH! FAIL FAIL FAIL!! haIZ!! it iS daRN difficuLT!! wTH! nvM! i JUs hoPE my ComPo aNd letter writin caN pUll it UP!! the answer i gaVE aRE JUS So OUT OF POINT! teaCherS miGHT JUS tear the pp apaRT! hahah!! oh wel.. aINT a chIneSe gaL! hehez.. lalal!!
wen to j8 to get sum1' present caNnot ssay her naME out waIT she NOE! den ya!! it waS like daM biG la! ha yO! caNt beleIVe i brouGT it hm! hahA!1 oh NO! wen witH noranI, kitty caT, min pei [jealoUs loser fren], caThy,ah ma! hehez... riTE! at maCS haVIN fun yEA! oh minE so fuLL oF nonsenSE!! dn met up WIth celestINE!! sum1 ditCH her dere..! haha!! dun NOe hu! lalala!! okaY i Am out nOW!

-i dun wannA .......... no more-
-dUN staY up-
-caNt sleeP-
-illusions-
-deeply truly madly....-
-wiNKS ;)-

arGH!! faN Si REN!!! laVE LA! ****

2005-05-03T18:00:00.000+08:00

waT aM i thinkiN!
wAT am i doIN to myselF!
waT the HEll is goIN oN!

I do stUFF..
way oUT of the cUffs..

keepIn it ReaL..
maKIn the steAL!

herE i gO
sO nOT tHE flOW!

tryIN tO cONNecT
bUT boUNCE to the DECk..

dAnce ALL NITE
tiLL i GEt mysElf ritE!

LOOK!
oh waT a fooL!

u oNLY haVE one chANCE
befORE i MAke my daNCE!

i aINT goNNA let U!
to brIN me dOWN on bluE!

everywhere
everytime
everything..

i AM goNNA keeP myseLF occupIED
so daT i wouLd Not b horrifiED!

UR imagE..
ur SmilE..
everythiNG is U!!
NOoooOOO..!!
thiS wont Dooo...

Pop PoP babY
dUN leT me GO!!
pOp pOP babY
JUs leT me kNow..

brIN mE to lIFE!
beeN livIN in a lIE!

nanA is goiN caRZY!
naNA IS BerserK
out OF her MIND!
how couLd daT happEN!!!

hoW cOULD thIS haPPEn to me..
i"ve mADe my mistaKES..
I’ve got no where to run
The night goes on
As I’m fading away
I’m sick of this life
I just wanna scream

Listen to the raDIO!
heaR it on tHe sterIO!

wAt COmes arounD
goes aroUND..

waT goEs up
MUS come DOWN!

Dun plAY witH me
Dun confuSE me!!

waT screaw uP daY!!! celesther N celesTINE i promiSE i wiLL make it up to ya!! fOR haVin tO u noe... i haEV tO poUr aLL my troubLEs on u guYS!! reaL srY!! maYbe after the exAMS.. yupZ.. we sHAll go to the BEaCh alriTE... screaM everythiNG OUT yea.. i SO love u guYS!! i caN never live w/o u guyS.. reaL srY for aLL tHe unattentiVE paRT of ME.. sry daRLINS..!! freaK!! laSt niTE i did not even SleeP!!! not even for 20 mins! wow!!! steaDy la.. never sleeP! -faiNTS- my miND waS fuLL of thiNGS n shit sTUFF.. inwhICh only i NOE!! hahah!! NIa... exAMS tML!! haIZ!! chiNESE!! arGH!! screaMS and dIES!! HOW!!!???? BONKERS! i serIOUsly dUN noe!!! wAT thE.... argH! pls PLS!! i reaLLy reaLLy hopE i pAss... haiZ... -pushed- HAPPY BIRTHDAY CELESTHER N CELESTINE be4 i forgeT to U noe wrITe it dowN!! hahahaZ... weEz..

anywAys!! I GOT To STRum MY trouBLEs OUT on my guitar!! winKS- haha! okaY!

-nanA aINT herselF-
-naNA feeLs brokEn up!-
-piSSED-
-peaCE out-
-peaCE be WITH YOU!-
-undeSiraBLE stATE of lIFE-

2nD of tHE daY!

2005-05-02T19:56:00.000+08:00

2nD entry of the day.. it seems daT i aM very free.. actuaLL reaSOn is daT i am distracT from somethING so unreaChablE!!! argh.... haiy.. JUS caME baCK frOM J8.. was hangin oUT witHcelestNE n CElesthER... pALS.. hahah!! PLAn to GO shOppiN together afTER exAMS.. oh YA boughT cleStiNE her PreZzie and BOYS doeS it cOSt.. it is A bare baCk.. a top la.. hahaH!! i wANNa buy tHE other baRE baCk.. the whiTE n grey.. hehez.. ex thouGH!! oh wel.. hahah goNNA get it!! hahah... waSn't reaLLy intO shOppIN todaY!! jus dUN NOe y... aRGH!! bTW.. todaY my pals caME over to mY hse to study.. hehez.. actuaLLy we did not reaLLy concentraTE! BUt diD my work! SO ya! haha... we r stiLL gooD gaLS.. winks- ;) todaY's MOOd from mornin chaNGE wen dey caME over aND we haD sum fUN! SnaP a few shoTS... haha!! celestINE jus haD to haVE my pigleT! haha!! ew... haIY nvM... let her have it for a whILE! besIDES it IS miNE! u aINT goNNA get mY piglET!! hahah!! winks- noW soMETHIN TElls ME DAt I Mus STUdY BUT somE HOW DERE iS anotheR voiCE saYin: nah it IS no bIG jus slACK!- wTH! whiCh is whICH!! hoW caN my life B ruINED! aRGH! -alwAYS lOOK on the briGHT side OF liFE!-

oh YA.. ON wed i got chinese pp! so goNNA fluNK it! chINese JUS aINT me! i caNt evEn speaK proper chiNESE!! hahahaZ... oh well.. at leaST not on my dad's sIDE! hehez... i AM so screwed! i reaLLy do need to get doWN aND get mYSelF studyiNG! if not i miGHT as weLL jUS die! enUF of all the BUllshIT! i hate eXAMS!

babY babY i AM too loSt in yoU!!
eveythiNG aBt you So deep...
everythiNG is ALL abT u!
i caNt sleeP aND i Am so deeP in you!

ITS aLl aBT u
itS aLL abT u baBY!..

MY ligHT is stiLL missIN!!
wiLL i ever fIND it..
nah.. wishfuL thinKIN!
u haVE mADe my LIFE worthwhiLE!

i triED tO GEt over U!
but sOMEhoW it SEEMs daT..
it keePS cOMin baCk to me...

sTOP drEAMIN!!
snaP baCK to reaLiTY!

I neeD to GO to the BEACH!
to screaM my LUNGS out..
yupZ....
BEACh beaCH!! oh i MISS the beaCH!
tHE sea the saND the SUN!
oH yeS JUS waT i neED..
to keeP myselF occuPIED froM thinKIN of U!
i neeD mY CONFIDANT!

---out----
-pUll mY brokeN seLF together!-

spreaD mY winGS aND sore throUGH the sKy like aN eaGLE!

whO GAve u the ORDERS!

2005-05-02T13:47:00.000+08:00

mY mornin started OUT reaL FINE!... haIY! f@#k%^g familY! arGH! caNT belEive IT! thaNKS a whole lot! i AM siCk and tiREd OF hearIN u guyS fiGHTin screaMIN cursING sweArin! plS! i haVE suffereD enuF! MY whoLE liFE! u guyS never SeeM to stoP! i GueSs i HAve to piTY my SIS!!! baCK off! dUN u laY haNds ON mE! everYdaY everY houR every MIN everY Sec JUS stOP and thiNK how Does ur CHILDISH acTS affect US!!! i canT taKE ur F@$k#^g arguMentS no more! miGHT asweLL leavE! leSS noiSE leSS disruptioN leSS distractioNS! if u guYS reaLLy love eaCh othEr.. deN dere wonT b anY of thEse unsightlY acTS!

MY whOLE freaKIN liFE and i haVE to see aLL thiS! how i wiSh u GUYS wouLD jus stop n liVE in peacE! i Am trouBLEd enUF! SCH! TEACHERS! FRENS! FAMILY! arGH! wat elsE!!! maNY moRE!

drwON myselF kiLL myselF suffocaTE myselF drUG myselF sleeP myselF to deaTH drunk myself!! i haD enUF! ! arGHH!!!!! :(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(... i wish I COulD LEAve THis world! I CAn NEVER lay my head in peaCE w/o u guYS fiGHTtin! bacK off! f@#k off! Jus gO! i neEd my peaCE spaCE life! i waN my liFe to b greAT and not b fiLLeD witH miseriES!

mY teaRS jus dONT seeM to stOP flowiN aND my heaRT jus wont seeM to stOP tO be fiLLed witH darkNESS! i waNT my liGHT! the devIL takeS over mE! the angeLS caSt awAY! faR beyoND my reACH! unreaCHable untouchable!!! i tried ruNNIN awaY screamim awAY... BUT NO..... it JUS wont seem to leave me!

looK urselF in the mirroR and reflecT... doeS it help??!!!?!?!?! nO... not one bit animALs understand better...

NO one understanDs knows mE! no ONE! onlY .... me myself and I! i stAND on owN two feet.. mY sis iS the onlY i caN reaLLy relY on rite now!! hu elSe is dere... frenS??? naH dey got deiR OwN liveS too.. so y bother..

aLL i can thinK abt rite now... is... somethING i caN never brin mYselF to saY! how i wISh.....
stop thinKIN! it aINT goNNA woRk!

I haVE ONE HEll OF fREAkin FAMILy! geT lOST!!!! u maKE me crY!

stoP taLKIN
stop scrEAmin
stoP mockING
stop stop stop stop!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

y is daT i cRY and yearn for somethiNG so unreachable! undesirable!
:((!

eveytime i cloSe my eyeS... i see........

-somebody save me...-
-wiLL i ever find my light!-

-fallin oUT!-
-dun wAnna live no more-
-i love u!-
-ITS Jus AN ILLUSIon! ~OBSESSSIOn~ DE AMour~

BOunCE BouNCE!

2005-05-01T23:59:00.000+08:00

CleaR cuT!
strAighT to tHE poINT!
hIT tHe noT!

heLlo i Am sRy
BUt naH i wont b!

THe THINgs I HEArd...

kNOw it!

SEnsE IT!

FELt it!

HOPe IT WOnt B!
buT Y is It!
DAt DERE is SomethiNG...
miSsin??

goSH!!...
caNT takE it NO lonGER..

i duN wANna b lONelY no moRE!!

ALl i wAnt IS tO soRE!

hiGH iN the BiG blUe skY!

feeLIn reaL hiGH!

toSSIn! spInnin! turinin!
where??
heaVEn? SKy? heLL!!???

oh mINE... i AM sO confuSED!!
where IS my liGHT??
bloWn off.. swePT awAy... fuSEd uP!
ARGH! -baCk off-
-dOWn agAIN!-
mY ligHt haS never eveR beeN dere!!!
hu caRES.. onLY wishIN!??!!?!?!?!

arGH arGH arGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
where aRE u?
wen i needeD u!
oUt oF cONtroLL!!!!!!

the Unsightly OF daRkness!!!

haVE u eveR wondeR..

hoW it IS like...

to b LEFT OUTSIDE ALONE!!??!!?!?!

dUN meSS wIF my MIND!
i wiLL taKE baCk my liNE!

u haD it! u losT it!
BUt i aM takIN baCk my liFE~!
impossiblE!

a BLACk hoLE!

daRk niTES!

blankNESS!

arGH.... miserieS!

haPPy thoTS!
naH..
dancING!
naH!
singinG!
naH!
highNESS!
naH!
chiLLIN!
naH!
funkY!
naH!

waT else is dere!!!

-babY!-

-losINmy mIND-

-i aM alwaYS.....-

-feelIN..-

-wiLL u....-

-how couLD u...-

waT is IT?? --==-- is IT a liGHT??

2005-04-30T22:57:00.000+08:00

the DarkNESs

fiLLEd wITh blaNkNEs!

JUS wAT exaCtlY Is gOIN on!

daT keePS Me clINgin ON!

the worlD sPINS ON hIGH spPED!

i JUS caNt sTAy deeP!

i aM in totaL daRkneSS!!!!

i turN to Look..

tryIN tO scoUT...

stiLL it lngers

aLL arouND mE!

the feelIN wont go awAY!

tiLL i geT u!

tHE MONSERS , LAUGHTERS, HUMILIATIONS!

wAt is IT dat u waN!

mY LIFE aiNT gOOD enOUGH!!!????

-off tHe ledgE!-

mY hanDs shIVers

as i tpYe!

aM i dreaMIN!??

waT Is goiN on in ME!

oh maN!

revengE is sweeT

BUT it turNS out

daT i AM the ONE..

faLLIN.. weaK in the knees!

i HAve to fiND my lIGHT

chaSIn the darkNESS

thaT hoverS aroUND mE!

the daYS are sOON

tO b meSSed uP!

i aM screwED tiGHT!!

cANt moVE!..

i pONder to thinK!

y mUS lIFE be fiLLEd wITH miseriES!

NO meaNIN to liFE!

thE dreAMS aRE knoWN as

NIGHTMARES!

i see spiderS! stuCked IN a weB!

i caNT geT throUGH!

i toSS n spIN..

waKe UP feeLIN scaRED!

i DUn daRE to go ouT..

i neeD my HErO!

MY liGHT

my pIllaR!

NIGHTMARES are ofteN!

frenS chasIN me....

thiNGS afTER me!

oh waT the....

i DUN thiNK...

i caN ever...

waT is it dat...

everywhere i go

everywhere i turn

everytiME i stoP tO think

it aLL cOMES baCK

aND it aLL liNKS......

OH baBY

how IS it daT.....

i AM not...

i AM so...

i thiNK i AM...

wiLL U ever...

i am jUS....... u..

preciouS

fragiLE!

reaLLy waNNa makE thiNGs riTE

JUs So cauGHT up!

HOw i wiSH!!.....

NAH i thINK..

BUT aLl i neeD is ........!!!!!!!

i cAN nevER leaVE u..

stOP thiNK of u...

tHE stoRY!!..

haiY.. i Am So not IN!

i neeD to BE free..

NOwhere in the gloBE id rather BE

aINT no ONE IN the gloBe id rather sEE thEn theN..........

u!!!!

-faLLIN deEp... oNE steP anD i AM dowN in the BLACK HOLE!!!!-

-geT ouT!-

-trembles-

-:(((-

KanANSAI!

2005-04-30T00:23:00.000+08:00

heyZ.. weLL k kinDA boRED frOM aLL De bOOKS aND stuF! iT is lIKE leSS thAN a weeK to eXAMS!! and i haveN reaLLy staRTed!! wTH.. wow caNnOt thiS caNT go ON! i thiNK i need to stuDY arGH! y MUs der Be exAMS! -geT losT u monstERS!- ewww... i AHte exAMS!! creaTE troubLE! haIZ!

yestERDAY: wAS havOC! my BRo weNt craZY! oMG! gosH! pleAse wiLL sum1 tIE hIM uP!!! i Dun thiNK u waNNA noe he dID!! it IS totaLLY MADDneSS! he crOSs the LINE faR too MUCH!! oh miNE wiLL sUM1 PIn hIM doWN anD riTE now I am hearIN teh soNg : only one by yellOWcaRD! arGH! haiZ!! i aM JUS losIN sumthiNG! caNT beleIVE it..

MY exAMS are drawIN nearer n i am here!! i JUS caNT concentrate on my worK not for loONG!! oh maN! argH! i So neEd to dO suMthING fUn n joyabLE!! haiZ... :((( i caNt staND my liFE no more! VocIEs ruNNIN!!!! -run run run RUN FARAWAY- leaVE me aLONE!

anotHER failure n I Am in deeP trouBLE!

the weaTher IS killINmE!! it IS sO darN HOT!! -defends- phew.....

-pleASE leaVE me a aloNE!

-12:34PM!! back oFF! dUN waNNA b mYSelF no more! -the ledGE is goNE!-

i Am out....---->>>

strESS mE oUT!

2005-04-28T18:57:00.000+08:00

yo yO!
i liKe tO shoUT -hellO!-

hahah! kk dAt wAs laME!

weLL yestERDAy wAS a daRN daY! onE OF a kinD! goSH! i caNT staNd thIS no longER!! ONE more OF ur SONGS i aM tellIN U!! i AM sO goiN tO baCKFire! hittIN thE noT! arGH! -screAMS- wiLL u JUs stOP singIN ur SONGS! goSH! U cANT SING!!! OKAy for thIS enrTY the sonGS are ---> NAGGINGS!.... i So caNT take it! iF u reaLLy loVE to naG! i wouLD FIND no meanIN in liFE!! -off the ledge- gosH! exAMS are here n here u r naggiNG my erAS off!! plS oh PLS!! JUS STOP and listeN to teh REAL SONGS arouND U!! -somebody saVE me-

i think i Am goIN craZY! wAt if I Am goIN crAZY!!! -screaMS-

gEt losT out OF my lIFE!! and fINaLLT gOOD newS! CELESTE IS OKAY!! GOD blESS U! hahah!! scared the heLL out OF me!! hehez...

toDAy wAS a dARn borIN daY untIL mY freN of liGHT caME! hahah!! plaYED liKED maD wiTH mY frenS!! heYS!!! i went to the DNT rOOM and helP mY frenS and fiund out daT i was better daN celesther aT!!!! CUTTIN THE WIRE AND MELTIN THE SODIUM-dun noe watt is the process called- hahahaha!! oh mINE oh miNE!!! weeZ!

-hopS-dances- gEt dowN to the floOR! grooVY!! hahaha!!

muaCKS! DUn leaVE me IN a LURCH!

babY i th!nk !s U!

2005-04-26T20:55:00.000+08:00

everything Seemed so wrong
wen i heaRd the SOngs.

mY liFe was not the saME!
JUS as i knew it wAS a gaME!

i CAN neVER taKE it easY
with aLL the MISERY

tO beaR the paIN
maKINg it whOLE agaIN!

the scaR jus wont heaL
cOS aLL i nEED is a piLL

aN enDleSS darkNESS
leadIN got no brightneSS!

So locked
it wont leT me ouT!

haD the desire tO screaM
JUS tO leT the SOrrowS stream...

Do you see what I see
Why do we live like this
Is it because it's true
That ignorance is bliss

BaBY.. i thiNk itS YOU!!!!

lALAbYES!
the nighTmaRE aINT oVER!
to forgeT u IS juS to dIE!
wAT am i saYIN!!!!
-screaMS!-

bored-exams-studies!

2005-04-24T19:00:00.000+08:00

yo! hiz... hahah!! kk i am like so daM freaKIn boreD of stuDyiN anD aLl soRTS!! i neED to Do sumtin FUN! yEA! haIZ!! but OF coS daT is waY ouT.. aInt mUCh time lEFT!! exAms r lIKE hmm... a WEEk awAY... and i aM here wrtiN dIS! i haV goTTA b oTTA oF my MIND! goSH!! oh well.. i need a BRAk frOM geoG!! sO muCh to leaRN!! my heaD is goIN to KABOOM!!! hahah!!! and i aM so goiN to b broke sOON!!! peepS birthdaY r oN the waY!! arGH! -screaMS- a big hoLE in mY wallET!!! hahah!! SAVES... hehez..

i need a break!! a bREAk Away! o.. ya! todaYS' cat class waS like sO BORIN!!!! yawn TOO MAnY times!!! hahah!!!couhIN too.. hehz.. den went for lunCH!! den heaD back hm to studY!!! argh!! oh ya i haD a nightmaRE twO daYS agO!!! hahah!! horriBLE!!! ewww...

i need tO breeaK awAy froM manY thiNGS!!!! maNY maNY thnGS! if not i wiLL go maD!! reaLLY BERSERK!!! -spins- opPS... okaY i gueSs i gtg!!!

i reaLLy neED breaK!!! -crippled- craSh n burN!
-hOPS- OFf the edGE ON where i staND! -starin deeP dowN!!!!

a risK i haD to makE jus to say.............